"Qhuinn's head cranked around, leaving its cage of the hand that had remained, his blue and green eyes red rimmed and watery. "I have loved you for years. I have been in love with you for years and years and years... throughout school and training... before transitions and afterward... when you approached me and yes, even now that you're with Saxton and you hate me. And that... shit... in my fucking head locked me down, locked everything down... and it cost me you."