I will not dream anymore, you said. I will not set myself up for the pain. But then your team made the playoffs, or you saw a movie, or a billboard glowing dusky orange and advertising Aruba, or a girl who bore more than a passing resemblance to a woman you'd dated in high school-- a woman you'd loved and lost-- danced above you with shimmering eyes, and you said, fuck it, let's dream just one more time.