"I'm not delusional, Aaron. I know he's nearly six feet tall. Deo's not a little kid to anyone but me. But I held him when he cried. When he a little kid. I promised him I'd keep the monsters away. That I wouldn't let anyone else hurt him. I . And now--" I stop and pull in several deep breaths. I don't want to lose it again like I did this morning. "It makes me so angry!"