I want there to be a Shift so bad. I want to feel my brain slide back into the slot it was meant to be in, rest there the way it did before the fall of last year, back when I was young, and witty, and my teachers said I had incredible promise, and I HAD incredible promise, and I spoke up in class because I was excited and smart about the world. I was the Shift so bad. I'm waiting for the phrase that will invoke it. It'll be like a miracle within my life.