"She wanted her work to be wanted, but still was unwilling to push. After all the years of watching self-promoters get ahead, she could not bring herself to participate. She cautioned herself against anticipation, saying, "I don't let my hopes wing too high--I'm scared to" and berated herself for "being so dammed afraid of a 'mike' " that it prevented her from accepting offers for television interviews with Mary Margaret McBride and others."