"Even worse, this sort of pain had an affective component all its own, which I found difficult to describe, a quality of agony, of anguish, of horror--words which still do not catch its essence. Neuralgic pain cannot be "embraced," fought against, or accommodated. It crushes one into a quivering, almost mindless sort of pulp; all one's powers of will, one's very identity, disappear under the assault of such pain. I"