"missed that point for a long time. I had spent so much of my life concentrating on the "fruit" of my own personal holiness, that I missed out on the connection, the sweet intimacy of being attached to the Vine. And as a result, what I tried to do was as ludicrous as an apple tree branch trying to produce apples by its own effort. "Be good, be good. Do good, do good," the broken branch chants as it lies on the orchard grass. "That apple should be popping out anytime," says the helpless, lifeless stick."