You have to have faith...I know it's hard, but at some point, you have to believe. Some people are evil, some people will hurt you, but not everyone will. And trying to stay safe by going at it alone doesn't work in the end. Isolation is protection. I know. I thought it would be easier if I never opened up to my family, if I never got too close. Then I lost my dauther, and it hasn't been any easier at all. I am falling apart... But I am going to put myself back together...I am going to find the son of a bitch who did this. And if I have to be angry to do that, I'll be angry. And if I have to stop sleeping and start swearing and behave like an utter jerk, I'll do that, too. I'm coping, Rainie, and nobody ever said coping had to be pretty.