And what I think is that when you're completely alone and deep inside yourself with feelings no one else can understand, there really aren't a hundred places to go. It's like if I woke up one day and looked outside and saw purple trees and red grass and green dogs, is there anyone I could tell who would understand? No. There'd be no one. It's exactly like that. He saw purple trees and red grass and green dogs while no one else did. And maybe, he just got tired of seeing them.