People who believe that they are strong-willed and the masters of their destiny can only continue to believe this by becoming specialists in self-deception. Their decisions are not really decisions at all-- a real decision makes one humble, one knows that it is at the mercy of more things than can be named-- but elaborate systems of evasion, of illusion, designed to make themselves and the world appear to be what they and the world are not..... I had decided to allow no room in the universe for something which shamed and frightened me. I succeeded very well-- by not looking at the universe, by not looking at myself, by remaining, in effect, in constant motion.