"My smile faded as we reached Ellsberg and I realized I would see Farah within minutes. Suddenly, I was terrified. "We've been apart for a month," I said after Judd called Cooper to say we were nearly there. "While Farah made a great life for herself, I was letting myself starve to death in a shit motel. I'll ruin everything for her and she'll stop loving me." "Angel, your sister needs you too." "No, she doesn't," I said, panicking now. "She's got Cooper. She's got school and friends. I'm not good at anything. I'll mess everything up." "Farah sees what I do and that's why she needs you."