It is only when you see the desire to be your own Savior and Lord--lying beneath both your sins and your moral goodness--that you are on the verge of understanding the gospel and becoming a Christian indeed. When you realize that the antidote to being bad is not just being good, you are on the brink. If you follow through, it will change everything: how you relate to God, self, others, the world, your work, your sins, your virtue.