You went along, building ties or breaking them, moving forward or backward in relationships, riding out the sea of your emotions and the emotions of others--but for the most part, it was a trees-for-the-forest kind of thing, a piecemeal one-step/two-step dance of choices and decisions more trail than marker, more random direction than compass. Except then, suddenly, the camera aperture opened so fast you got existential whiplash, and you were forced to look at everything and go, okay, wow, so I'm here.