Can God forgive you? Of course. Read your Bible. David, Peter, Paul--God builds his church on the backs of people who murder, commit adultery, deny him, and persecute his followers. But because of Christ, forgiveness is now our problem, not God's. What we have to go through to commit sin distances us from God--we change in the very act of rebellion--and there is no guarantee we will come back. You ask me about forgiveness now, but will you even want it later, especially if it involves repentance?