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Words were different when they lived inside of you.
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I bet you could sometimes find all the mysteries of the universe in someone's hand.
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universe
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I got to thinking that poems were like people. Some people you got right off the bat. Some people you just didn't get--and never would get.
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Another secret of the universe: Sometimes pain was like a storm that came out of nowhere. The clearest summer could end in a downpour. Could end in lightning and thunder.
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The summer sun was not meant for boys like me. Boys like me belonged to the rain.
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To be careful with people and with words was a rare and beautiful thing.
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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Maybe we just lived between hurting and healing.
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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We all fight our own private wars.
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I wanted to tell them that I'd never had a friend, not ever, not a real one. Until Dante. I wanted to tell them that I never knew that people like Dante existed in the world, people who looked at the stars, and knew the mysteries of water, and knew enough to know that birds belonged to the heavens and weren't meant to be shot down from their graceful flights by mean and stupid boys. I wanted to tell them that he had changed my life and that..
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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But love was always something heavy for me. Something I had to carry.
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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I hated being volunteered. The problem with my life was that it was someone else's idea.
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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And it seemed to me that Dante's face was a map of the world. A world without any darkness. Wow, a world without darkness. How beautiful was that?
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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I renamed myself Ari. If I switched the letter, my name was Air. I thought it might be a great thing to be the air. I could be something and nothing at the same time. I could be necessary and also invisible. Everyone would need me and no one would be able to see me.
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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How could I have ever been ashamed of loving Dante Quintana?
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz |
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I had a feeling there was something wrong with me. I guess I was a mystery even to myself.
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