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Some nights the sky wept stars that quickly floated and disappeared into the darkness before our wishes could meet them.
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pretty
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Ishmael Beah |
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In the sky there are always answers and explanations for everything: every pain, every suffering, joy and confusion.
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inspiration
grandmother
ishmael
way
long
sky
gone
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When I was young, my father used to say, 'If you are alive, there is hope for a better day and something good to happen. If there is nothing good left in the destiny of a person, he or she will die.' I thought about these words during my journey, and they kept me moving even when I didn't know where I was going. Those words became the vehicle that drove my spirit forward and made it stay alive.
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Ishmael Beah |
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children have the resilience to outlive their sufferings, if given a chance.
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Ishmael Beah |
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I joined the army to avenge the deaths of my family and to survive, but I've come to learn that if I am going to take revenge, in that process I will kill another person whose family will want revenge; then revenge and revenge and revenge will never come to an end...
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revenge
inspirational
touching
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How many more times do we have to come to terms with death before we find safety?" he asked. He waited a few minutes, but the three of us didn't say anything. He continued: "Every time people come at us with the intention of killing us, I close my eyes and wait for death. Even though I am still alive, I feel like each time I accept death, part of me dies. Very soon I will completely die and all that will be left is my empty body walking wi..
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Ishmael Beah |
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I was still hesitant to let myself let go, because I still believed in the fragility of happiness.
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Ishmael Beah |
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05da127
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We must strive to be like the moon
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Ishmael Beah |
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Some people tried to hurt us to protect themselves, their family and communities...This was one of the consequences of civil war. People stopped trusting each other, and every stranger became an enemy. Even people who knew you became extremely careful about how they related or spoke to you.
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trust
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Ishmael Beah |
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We must live in the radiance of tomorrow, as our ancestors have suggested in their tales. For what is yet to come tomorrow has possibilities, and we must think of it, the simplest glimpse of that possibility of goodness. That will be our strength. That has always been our strength.
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transition
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Ishmael Beah |
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My childhood had gone by without my knowing, and it seemed as if my heart had frozen.
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Ishmael Beah |
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2a03f98
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My teeth became sour as I listened to his story. It was then that I understood why he was quiet all the time.
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Ishmael Beah |
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Who can ever know what path to walk on when all of them are either crooked or broken? One just has to walk.
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free-will
life
truth
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Ishmael Beah |
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If you are alive, there is hope for a better day and something good to happen. If there is nothing good left in the destiny of a person, he or she will die.
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Ishmael Beah |
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That night for the first time in my life I realized that it is the physical presence of people and their spirits that gives a town life. With the absence of so many people, the town became scary., the night darker, and the silence unbearably agitating. Normally, the crickets and the birds sang in the evening before the sun went down. But this time they didn't, and the darkness set in very fast. The mood wasn't in the sky; the air was stiff,..
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Ishmael Beah |
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ONE OF THE UNSETTLING THINGS about my journey, mentally, physically, and emotionally, was that I wasn't sure when or where it was going to end.
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Ishmael Beah |
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At night it felt as if we were walking with the moon. It followed us under thick clouds and waited for us at the other end of dark forest paths. It would disappear with sunrise but return again, hovering on our path. Some nights the sky wept stars that quickly floated and disappeared into the darkness before our wishes could meet them. Under these stars I used to hear stories, but now it seemed as if it was the sky that was telling us a sto..
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Ishmael Beah |
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e3e2b2d
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But what was more violent than making people disbelieve in the worth of their own lives? What was more violent than making them believe they deserved less and less every day?
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Ishmael Beah |
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Sometimes I closed my eyes hard to avoid thinking, but the eye of the mind refused to be closed and continued to plague me with images.
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images
thinking
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Ishmael Beah |
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cdca268
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Every time people come at us with the intention of killing us, I close my eyes and wait for death. Even thought I am still alive, I feel like each time I accept death, part of me dies. Very soon I will completely die and all that will be left is my empty body walking with you. It will be quieter than I am.
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lose-of-hope
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Ishmael Beah |
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d5103bb
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The branches of the trees looked as if they were holding hands and bowing their heads in prayer.
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sorrow
trees
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Ishmael Beah |
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9f93b50
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It isn't about knowing the most stories, child. It is about carrying the ones that are most important and passing them along.
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history
stories
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Ishmael Beah |
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I was sad to leave, but I was also pleased to have met people outside of Sierra Leone. Because if I was to get killed upon my return, I knew that a memory of my existence was alive somewhere in the world.
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Ishmael Beah |
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I learned that you are not free until you stop others from making you feel worthless. Because if you do not, you will eventually accept that you are worthless.
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Ishmael Beah |
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My squad is my family, my gun is my provider, and protector, and my rule is to kill or be killed.
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military
warfare
traumatic-experiences
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Ishmael Beah |
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0c8e62d
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I am always quiet so that I know what to say when I must speak.
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solitude
silence
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Ishmael Beah |
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I took out my grenade and put my fingers inside the pin. 'Do you boys want this to be your last meal, or do you want to answer his question?
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no-fear
nonfiction
threat
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Ishmael Beah |
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I was afraid to fall asleep, but staying awake also brought back painful memories. Memories I sometimes wish I could wash away, even though I am aware that they are an important part of what my life is; who I am now. I stayed up all night, anxiously waiting for daylight, so that I could fully return to my new life, to rediscover happiness I had known as a child, the joy that had stayed alive inside me even through times when being alive its..
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memories
past
life
ishmael-beah
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Ishmael Beah |
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We took a bowl each and started eating. He went back into the little room, and by the time he returned to the table with his own bowl of food to eat with us, we had already finished. He was shocked and looked around to see if we had done something else with the food.
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war
sierra-leone
sad
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Ishmael Beah |
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I wanted to see my family, even if it meant dying with them.
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Ishmael Beah |
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These days I live in three worlds: my dreams, and the experiences of my new life, which trigger memories from the past." (page 20)"
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Ishmael Beah |
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I was glad to see other faces and at the same time disappointed that the war had destroyed the enjoyment of the very experience of meeting people.
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Ishmael Beah |
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If you're alive, then there is hope for a better day and something good to happen. If there is nothing good left in the destiny of a person, he or she will die.
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Ishmael Beah |
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I knew I could never forget my past, but I wanted to stop talking about it so that I would be fully present in my new life.
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Ishmael Beah |
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This days one must be careful to avoid awakening the pain of another.
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pain
love
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Ishmael Beah |
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This is one of the consequences of the civil war. People stopped trusting each other, and every stranger became an enemy. Even people who knew you became extremely careful about how they related or spoke to you. (page 37)
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Ishmael Beah |
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This isn't your fault, you know. It really isn't. You'll get though this. (page 151)
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Ishmael Beah |
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We danced and laughed into the morning. But gradually we stopped. It was as if we all knew that we could be happy for only a brief moment.
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Ishmael Beah |
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I concluded to myself that if I were the hunter, I would shoot the monkey so that it would no longer have the chance to put other hunters in the same predicament.
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Ishmael Beah |
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8358354
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This was one of the consequences of the civil war. People stopped trusting each other, and every stranger became an enemy.
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Ishmael Beah |
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5f0bf4a
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We all knew that we could grieve only for a short while in order to continue staying alive.
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Ishmael Beah |
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We can be rehabilitated," I would emphasize, and point to myself as an example. I would always tell people that I believe children have the resilience to outlive their sufferings, if given a chance."
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Ishmael Beah |
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d32e25b
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I didn't know what to do in my happy state. I was still hesitant to let myself let go, because I still believed in the fragility of happiness.
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Ishmael Beah |
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0fccf06
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It was not easy being a soldier, but we just had to do it. I have been rehabilitated now, so don't be afraid of me. I am not a soldier anymore; I am a child.
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Ishmael Beah |