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f39fc94
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I'll pretend, I tell myself. Pretending is safer than believing.
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war
believing
tsar-nicholas-ii
otma
romanovs
russian-revolution
pretending
russia
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Sarah Miller |
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9a89164
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I wish I wasn't an imperial highness or an ex-grand duchess. I'm sick of people doing things to me because of what I am. Girl-in-white-dress. Short-one-with-fringe. Daughter-of-the-tsar. Child-of-the-ex-tyrant. I want people to look and see me, Anastasia Nikolaevna Romanova, not the caboose on a train of grand duchesses. Someday, I promise myself, no one will be able to hear my name or look at my picture and suppose they know all about me. Someday I will do something bigger than what I am.
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life
inspirational
otma
romanovs
tsar-nicholas
russian-revolution
royalty
self
russia
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Sarah Miller |
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ea40677
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My sisters and I sit together on a pair of suitcases. If we've forgotten anything, it's already too late -- our rooms have all been sealed and photographed. Anyway, Tatiana would say it's bad luck to return for something you've forgotten.
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war
exile
tsar-nicholas-ii
otma
romanovs
russian-revolution
traveling
russia
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Sarah Miller |
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72ca8f1
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Maria cries unashamedly on my shoulder while I whisper and pet her cheek, but Anastasia grips my other hand and stares fiercely back at our Alexander Palace with her wet blue eyes until it is no more than a lemon-colored speck against the sunrise.
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sadness
the-romanovs
tsar-nicholas-ii
otma
russian-revolution
home
russia
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Sarah Miller |
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8297651
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It's different now, like pushing the stop lever on my camera until nothing except the war can squeeze through the lens.
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war
otma
romanovs
tsar-nicholas
russian-revolution
russia
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Sarah Miller |