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588fe1d
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I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.
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suicide
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David Levithan |
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c09e898
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It was a mistake," you said. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you."
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trust
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David Levithan |
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b00e1f0
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If there's one thing I've learned, it's this: We all want everything to be okay. We don't even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough.
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David Levithan |
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cc81dab
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livid, Fuck You for cheating on me. Fuck you for reducing it to the word cheating. As if this were a card game, and you sneaked a look at my hand. Who came up with the term anyway? A cheater, I imagine. Someone who thought was too harsh. Someone who thought was too emotional. The same person who thought, oops, he'd gotten Fuck you. This isn't about slipping yourself an extra twenty dollars of Monopoly money. These are our lives. Yo..
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hate
love
infidelity
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David Levithan |
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ce4b9c0
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We always see our worst selves. Our most vulnerable selves. We need someone else to get close enough to tell us we're wrong. Someone we trust.
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trust
love
reflection
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David Levithan |
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260e35e
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I wake up thinking of yesterday. The joy is in remembering; the pain is in knowing it was yesterday.
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David Levithan |
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76342fb
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This is what love does: It makes you want to rewrite the world. It makes you want to choose the characters, build the scenery, guide the plot. The person you love sits across from you, and you want to do everything in your power to make it possible, endlessly possible. And when it's just the two of you, alone in a room, you can pretend that this is how it is, this is how it will be.
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writing
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David Levithan |
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82d2073
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You think fairy tales are only for girls? Here's a hint - ask yourself who wrote them. I assure you, it wasn't just the women. It's the great male fantasy - all it takes is one dance to know that she's the one. All it takes is the sound of her song from the tower, or a look at her sleeping face. And right away you know - this is the girl in your head, sleeping or dancing or singing in front of you. Yes, girls want their princes, but boys wa..
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David Levithan |
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678908c
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It would be too easy to say that I feel invisible. Instead, I feel painfully visible, and entirely ignored.
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loneliness
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David Levithan |
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1cf9895
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i do not say 'good-bye.' i believe that's one of the bullshittiest words ever invented. it's not like you're given the choice to say 'bad-bye' or 'awful-bye' or 'couldn't-care-less-about-you-bye.' every time you leave, it's supposed to be a good one. well, i don't believe in that. i believe that.
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salutation
language
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David Levithan |
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af5bed7
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That's what the voices in your head are for, to get you through the silent parts.
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David Levithan |
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29fda06
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There will always be more questions. Every answer leads to more questions. The only way to survive is to let some of them go.
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David Levithan |
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59d5eef
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You know the reason The Beatles made it so big?...'I Wanna Hold Your Hand.' First single. Fucking brilliant. Perhaps the most fucking brilliant song ever written. Because they nailed it. That's what everyone wants. Not 24/7 hot wet sex. Not a marriage that lasts a hundred years. Not a Porsche...or a million-dollar crib. No. They wanna hold your hand. They have such a feeling that they can't hide. Every single successful song of the past fif..
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love
hands
beatles
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David Levithan |
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fb97cae
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i have a friend request from some stranger on facebook and i delete it without looking at the profile because that doesn't seem natural. 'cause friendship should not be as easy as that. it's like people believe all you need to do is like the same bands in order to be soulmates. or books. no we're not. it's like we have the same english teacher. there's a difference.
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social-networking
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David Levithan |
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b3ee0c6
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this is why we call people exes, I guess - because the paths that cross in the middle end up separating at the end. it's too easy to see an X as a cross-out. it's not, because there's no way to cross out something like that. the X is a diagram of two paths.
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David Levithan |
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51615e2
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I want love to conquer all. But love can't conquer anything. It can't do anything on it's own. It relies on us to do the conquering on its behalf.
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David Levithan |
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814ca49
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Kindness connects to who you are, while niceness connects to how you want to be seen.
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David Levithan |
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5d82848
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maybe tonight you're scared of falling, and maybe there's somebody here or somewhere else you're thinking about, worrying over, fretting over, trying to figure out if you want to fall, or how and when you're gonna land, and i gotta tell you, friends, to stop thinking about the landing, because it's all about falling.
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David Levithan |
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2c49df9
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i will admit there's a certain degree of giving a fuck that goes into not giving a fuck. by saying you don't care if the world falls apart, in some small way you're saying you want it to stay together, on your terms.
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David Levithan |
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f8461a9
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Trying to write about love is ultimately like trying to have a dictionary represent life. No matter how many words there are, there will never be enough.
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David Levithan |
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694f831
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I want to take back at least half of the "I love you"s, because I didn't mean them as much as the other ones. I want to take back the book of artsy photos I gave you, because you didn't get it and said it was hipster trash. I want to take back what I said about you being an emotional zombie. I want to take back the time I called you "honey" in front of your sister and you looked like I had just shown her pictures of us having sex. I want to..
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love
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David Levithan |
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2195457
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It scares me how hard it is to remember life before you. I can't even make the comparisons anymore, because my memories of that time have all the depth of a photograph. It seems foolish to play games of better and worse. It's simply a matter of is and is no longer.
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memories
love
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David Levithan |
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f113097
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It's one thing to fall in love. It's another to feel someone else fall in love with you, and to feel a responsibility toward that love.
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David Levithan |
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a70b282
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when things break, it's not the actual breaking that prevents them from getting back together again. it's because a little piece gets lost -- the two remaining ends couldn't fit together even if they wanted to. the whole shape has changed.
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David Levithan |
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1fe30a2
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The moment you fall in love feels like it has centuries behind it, generations - all of them rearranging themselves so this precise, remarkable intersection could happen. In your heart, in your bones, no matter how silly you know it is, you feel that everything has been leading to this, all the secret arrows were pointing here, the universe and time itself crafted this long ago, and you are just now realizing it, you are just now arriving a..
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David Levithan |
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81e5e0b
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If you stare at the center of the universe, there is coldness there. A blankness. Ultimately, the universe doesn't care about us. Time doesn't care about us. That's why we have to care about each other.
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David Levithan |
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78c5f85
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Even when I detach, I care. You can be separate from a thing and still care about it. If I wanted to detach completely, I would move my body away. I would stop the conversation midsentence. I would leave the bed. Instead, I hover over it for a second. I glance off in another direction. But I always glance back at you.
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David Levithan |
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e2a9a12
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People are rarely as attractive in reality as they are in the eyes of the people who are in love with them. Which is, I suppose, as it should be.
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David Levithan |
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23b5441
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Last night, I got up the courage to ask you if you regretted us. "There are things I miss," you said. "But if I didn't have you, I'd miss more."
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relationships
love
definition
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David Levithan |
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7ef5dff
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It doesn't have to be on Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to be by the time you turn eighteen or thirty-three or fifty-nine. It doesn't have to conform to whatever is usual. It doesn't have to be kismet at once, or rhapsody by the third date.
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love
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David Levithan |
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ddb4ffd
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Answerless questions can destroy you. Move on.
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David Levithan |
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e9ac7fb
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Remember that at any given moment there are a thousand things you can love.
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realm-of-possibility
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David Levithan |
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a314845
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I never felt the urge to jump off a bridge, but there are times I have wanted to jump out of my life, out of my skin.
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David Levithan |
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63687e3
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i think the idea of a 'mental health day' is something completely invented by people who have no clue what it's like to have bad mental health. the idea that your mind can be aired out in twenty-four hours is kind of like saying heart disease can be cured if you eat the right breakfast cereal. mental health days only exist for people who have the luxury of saying 'i don't want to deal with things today' and then can take the whole day off, ..
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David Levithan |
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cec2321
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Because when something happens, she's the person I want to tell. The most basic indicator of love.
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David Levithan |
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d28ee99
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Luckily, I always travel with a book, just in case I have to wait on line for Santa, or some such inconvenience.
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reading
lines
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David Levithan |
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547a20c
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The way you're singing in your sleep The way you look before you leap The strange illusions that you keep You don't know But I'm noticing The way your touch turns into arcs The way you slide into the dark The beating of my open heart You don't know But I'm noticing
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David Levithan |
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d7e6dc7
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I was horribly bookish, to the point of coming right out and saying it, which I knew was not socially acceptable. I particularly loved the adjective bookish, which I found other people used about as often as ramrod or chum or teetotaler.
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David Levithan |
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c401903
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I was attempting to write the story of my life. It wasn't so much about plot. It was much more about character.
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David Levithan |
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ef73593
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The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.
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David Levithan |
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3a7d403
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I wanted to talk to someone. But who? It's moments like this, when you need someone the most, that your world seems smallest.
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friends
venting
talking
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David Levithan |
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fe57421
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There are times when I doubt everything. When I regret everything you've taken from me, everything I've given you, and the waste of all the time I've spent on us.
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separation
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David Levithan |
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2ebf42c
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When first love ends, most people eventually know there will be more to come. They are not through with love. Love is not through with them. It will never be the same as the first, but it will be better in different ways.
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David Levithan |
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c8cae74
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She is so lost in her sadness that she has no idea how visible it is.
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David Levithan |