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One day I want to surprise everyone by doing something unexpected and amazing, so I can be proud of myself.
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If it was sympathy she was after, Ginny Holland might have known she'd come to the wrong place. Then again, it was early on a bright but blustery Saturday morning in October and her options were limited.
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Don't be a whiner, she told herself. Concentrate on the good things in life, even if there don't seem to be too many of them left.
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It's me, though. It's my fault for being like this. I'm going to have to get used to it.
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Well, this time you're just going to have to stop yourself." Straightening up, Rupert grinned. "We don't want this to be spoiled, do we? Trust me, some secrets are better kept."
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But you were the one who came to see it! You said it was just what you were looking for!" Her voice rising--and not in an I-fancy-you way--Ginny said, "You said it was perfect!" He blinked, nonplussed. "It is perfect. For Laurel." Frantically, Ginny ran back through everything he'd told her. "No, hang on, you said your flat was too small..."
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It's a scary thing, you know, being a man. We always have to run the risk of inviting someone out and being turned down flat. You women don't realize how fragile our egos are.
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For ninety minutes now she had been listening to the Story of Kevin. Ninety minutes was the length of an entire film. She could have watched Anna Karenina and been less depressed.
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even a little bit?" "No." She"
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day when we were young and lovely.
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It was hopeless. For a fraction of a second Millie was tempted to announce to Orla that one of her hobbies was pulling the wings off butterflies and that she was also partial to a spot of kitten-drowning in her spare time.
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The future had started to seem like a challenge he could conquer.
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Life might not work out as you'd want it to, but you just got on with it anyway.
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None of us knows how long any one of us has left. It could be fifty hours, could be fifty years. We're just glad we're here today. And we won't forget those who aren't.
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left shoulder and trying to pretend it hardly hurt at all - ow, ouch - she wondered why her life had to so closely resemble Mr Bean's. What she wouldn't give to be sleek and chic and in control at all times.
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curtain yelled, 'I hate you, I hate you so much, just GET OUT OF MY LIFE!
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This time, though, he was waiting for a reason. The process itself might be mind-crushingly boring, but if he stuck it out, the end result would hopefully be worth it.
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waiting
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Hallie had had plenty of practice over the years at hiding her true feelings and presenting a brave face to the world.
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When someone was gazing into your eyes like that, it was kind of hard to look away.
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It's miserable to feel unwanted for reasons beyond your control.
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This was the next phase of her life and from now on, she wasn't going to take any rubbish from anyone. From now on she was going to decide what she wanted and go for it.
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I'm trying my best, but I feel like such a spare part.
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Maybe he should kill himself and put them all out of their misery.
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Every day we do things that are capable of changing everything, and that's what makes life exciting.
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The strain of pretending everything was normal had been agonizing. How was she going to keep this up for the next week... month... year?
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Instinct told him that all he could do for the moment was stay cool and play the waiting game. It wouldn't be easy but he'd manage it if it killed him.
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But this was just making her feel claustrophobic. They couldn't carry on like this; she was going to have to do something about it.
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She was determined to make amends. Her old life was behind her and the new one had begun.
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I owe you, remember? How am I ever going to make things up to you if you won't let me do stuff?
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Honestly, you tried your best and sometimes everything worked out perfectly. Other times, it went all horribly wrong.
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Everyone makes mistakes. But you stopped and did something about it. Most people don't bother.
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Being scared wasn't an emotion Zack was familiar with, but it had him in its grip now.
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But that was then. This was now. She was a different person these days.
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Whether or not this worked out, Ellie knew she would never regret it. Sometimes you just had to take the risk. Maybe it would be a brief but wonderful romance, maybe it would last a lifetime.
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Anyway, that was the thing about life and fate; it never was fair. Horrific things happened to good people and brilliant things happened to bad ones.
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Ellie wiped her eyes with the back of her hand; sometimes she didn't realize she'd been crying until the tears slid off her chin and dripped down her neck.
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Was it cathartic or a form of self-torture?
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Sometimes you knew changes needed to be made but just couldn't summon up the energy to make them.
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Why do men think they can get away with it? Because they're men.
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Ellie closed her eyes and felt the aching loneliness well up inside her chest.
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When it's someone like that, someone important, you never forget them.
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Well that's because I wasn't always like this.' Henrietta paused, examining her knuckles. 'I built a wall around myself.
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