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It's my baby. I can't just let her give it away--
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Tammara Webber |
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I dreamed about the future because that's what people persuade you to do when you're a kid, but that's the biggest lie of all - that you can plan. Reality is, you have no fucking clue what's coming and neither do they.
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Tammara Webber |
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The world an author creates and the characters that inhabit it may come from her imagination alone, but few authors can wrestle the story that emerges into shape without help.
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Tammara Webber |
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What the hell is it about brooding guys that's attractive to women, anyway? I've become one since Dori's call three weeks ago, and it's made me more of a chick magnet. I shouldn't be surprised--being a dick never hurt my appeal before.
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brooding-guys
reid-alexander
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Tammara Webber |
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c1c8c71
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Wow, shit. Gotten us a place? I am gone. Over Dorcas Cantrell, a girl who convinced me in a one-minute phone call that I meant nothing to her.
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Tammara Webber |
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Inside, I stop and stand motionless in the centre of the glass and chrome atrium of my manager's building. As I stare at the photo on my display, I realize one thing. This wasn't real. He wasn't real. None of it was real - not until this moment.
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Tammara Webber |
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I'm eighteen, so he's right-- there's no hurry. I don't tell him how much I want that sort of connection-- a relationship like he and Mom share. The trust and respect between them is plain to see, but I know that under the surface, their relationship simmers with passion. I don't tell him how much I worry it will never happen for me. I don't tell him how some days, I feel as though everything I do is an attempt to be worthy of being loved l..
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Tammara Webber |
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and I want nothing more than to wrap myself around him and be carried away to a place where I don't have to think. A place where there's no guilt or fear, no right or wrong, no divine punishments or senseless accidents or indeterminate states.
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Tammara Webber |
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Then she told me her name, which I forgot immediately, and launched into a monologue of enmity concerning the girl who'd bumped her. I didn't know either of them, and I couldn't have cared less about their blood feud, which concerned either a guy or a pair of shoes--I couldn't determine which in my state of .
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breakable
girl-talk
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Tammara Webber |
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I fight the urge to enjoy anything too much in front of him, actually, and now that I'm aware of that fact, my brain gets hung up on why that is.
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Tammara Webber |
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3da18dd
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It looked like a love poem, and I was jealous of whoever inspired the sort of devotion he must have felt to make those words so permanent
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Tammara Webber |
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He gathered me into his arms and kissed me, one hand tangled in my hair and the other caressing down my back, our hearts pulsing out a cadence that the musician in me translated into a concert of lust.
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Tammara Webber |
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Some of us can begin to heal the damage people have done to us by escaping the situation, but some of us need more than that. Tattoos make statements that need to be made. Or hide things that are no one's business. Your scars are battle wounds, but you don't see them that way. Yet.
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Tammara Webber |
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b4c8481
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Harriet Beecher Stowe wrote, The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
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Tammara Webber |
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c5fbdfc
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Aparto las lagrimas de mi rostro.- ?Como me has encontrado? Sacudi mi cabeza.- Quizas estoy exactamente donde debi de haber estado, despues de todo."
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lucas
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Tammara Webber |
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1b39d99
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As logical as she is, she makes me feel reckless. I'm heedless of consequences. My plans and targets and goals and common sense go out the window in the face of what she makes me want. She scares the hell out of me and calms my soul at the same time. Maybe that's what love is- a total contradiction that somehow balances out.
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Tammara Webber |
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Thus began the weeks of what we termed being reckless - and I worry from that viewpoint, at least, that word defines our entire relationship. Reid lives his life in a reckless way, and ever since his life collided with mine last summer, I've been unbalanced. The trajectory of my safe, small orbit cannot contain him, and no amount of wishing will change that.
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Tammara Webber |
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0b1d412
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There's something I never told you about that decision I made four years ago...I've never felt a middle ground between acceptance and remorse. Every day for the last four years, it's been one or the other. Black or white. There was no grey, but I could bear it because I had you. When I lost you, I began slipping into perpetual guilt. Carrying that secret, alone, for the first time, while trying to balance the idea of a benevolent God with a..
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Tammara Webber |
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23a35ff
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Love is not the absence of logic but logic examined and recalculated heated and curved to fit inside the contours of the heart
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Tammara Webber |
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30bea28
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no cray,Daddy he whisper
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Tammara Webber |
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On the sofa, a huge orange tabby cat regarded me with characteristic feline apathy before hopping down and stalking to the door. "This is Francis." Lucas opened the door and the tom wandered lazily outside, stopping on the landing to clean a paw. I laughed, moving to the center of the room. "Francis? He looks more like a... Max. Or maybe a King." He shut and locked the door, his ghost smile turning his mouth up on one side. "Trust me, he's ..
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Tammara Webber |
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Is there any chance the tutor is, you know, gay?" I held my breath, waiting for his answer. "What, like I hand out a survey?" He laughed when I blinked, worried I'd just offended him. "I'm just messing with ya. I'm pretty sure he doesn't play for my team. Though if he did, he'd be a little out of my league." He sucked in and patted his stomach, which was made somewhat flat by his efforts. "Nothing a couple of weeks at the gym and giving up ..
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Tammara Webber |
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I knew Chaz was a good guy, if misguided and gullible. He'd swallowed Buck's side of what happened between us, had argued with Erin that maybe I was drunk that night and didn't remember everything clearly. He was probably one of those boys to whom rapists were ugly men who jumped out of bushes, assaulting random girls. Rapists weren't your nice-guy coworker, or your frat brother, or your best friend. Maybe it never occurred to him that his ..
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Tammara Webber |
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They say the brain can block painful memories, leaving gaps and voids in place of them, but it didn't work like that for me. I remembered everything.
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Tammara Webber |
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6a2bd35
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I was like water trying to choose a suitable form--ice or vapor.
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Tammara Webber |
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One of the reasons AA works is that the individual makes the decision not to drink, one day at a time. One hour. One minute even. You can do that, right? One minute?...There's one minute. You're stronger than you know, Mrs. Alexander.
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Tammara Webber |
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Despite the crushing weight of the expectations placed on her, from the theological to the self-inflicted, what I needed was the last, selfless thought in her sleepy head.
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Tammara Webber |
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4b2ac88
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The best way out is always through.
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way-out
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Tammara Webber |
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7a32c84
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The worst thing is to be alive for no reason.
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Tammara Webber |
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71c8b64
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Le lacrime piu amare sparse sopra le tombe sono per le parole non dette e le azioni non fatte. Harriet Beecher Stowe
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Tammara Webber |
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He'd better stay the hell away from you or I will whip out the lawnmower on his ass," she declared. "That move's not for ass use," I joked"
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Tammara Webber |
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Jacqueline, If you want to do, then do. What's stopping you? So I'm kind, huh? Never heard that before. People usually think I'm a pretentious a-hole. I must admit, I tend to encourage that estimation. So please promise to keep your opinion to yourself. Reputations can be ruined so easily, you know. ;) LM PS - Do the worksheet. Before Friday. I'm giving you a very serious look through this screen. DO THE WORKSHEET. If you have problems with..
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Tammara Webber |
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He looked up and caught me staring, and for the first time that morning, neither of us looked away until Erin said, "J--pay attention! Just try to slap me." I broke the stare and turned to her. She moved around to face me, her back to Lucas, and rolled her eyes. "Does the concept of playing hard-to-get totally escape you?" she whispered. "Let. Him. Chase." "I'm not playing that game any longer." She glanced over her shoulder and back. "Girl..
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Tammara Webber |
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I'm okay, honest." I sighed heavily. "Well, as okay as I can be after that." I squinted up at him. "Exactly how many jobs do you have, anyway? Barista, self-defense guru, fixit guy, parking enforcement officer--and by the way, does that mean you gave me the ticket I got last spring for two measly minutes of double parking when I ran into the library to return a book?" His shoulders relaxed with my teasing tone, and I was rewarded with the g..
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Tammara Webber |
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I nodded again, holding onto his words like they were redemption
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Tammara Webber |
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As soon as we hit campus freshman year, Kennedy had pledged his father's fraternity. Despite my boyfriend's need for cliquish affiliation, I'd never shared that aspiration. He didn't seem to mind when I said I preferred not to rush any sororities, as long as I supported his future-politician need for brotherhood. He told me once he sort of liked that I was a GDI girlfriend. "A GDI? What's that?" He'd laughed and said, "It means you're godda..
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Tammara Webber |
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I was scared to death of who I really was and what I really wanted. And somehow he knew. He'd always known.
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Tammara Webber |
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She was the bad habit I'd never broken, because I didn't fucking want to.
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Tammara Webber |
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d396038
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But sometimes what seems like a gut feeling is just pride pretending to be instinct.
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Tammara Webber |
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when your parents tell you someone has gone to heaven, that person is never, ever coming back.
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Tammara Webber |
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485cd12
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Because having the ability to make my skin my own again saved my life.
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Tammara Webber |
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I would be her bad boy, if that's what she wanted. If that's what she needed.
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Tammara Webber |
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I'm fine. I'm good. But I wasn't fine. I was anything but fine. That night had shattered me. I'd walled myself in to keep from breaking further, but no defence will protect you from every possible pain. I was still just as breakable as everyone else - the girl in my arms included. But I could hope. And I could love. And maybe, I could heal.
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Tammara Webber |
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I've changed since I've known you. Not because you made me into someone else--but because you showed me a path I'd never paid attention to, and I chose to follow it."- Reid Alexander When you finally figure out what you really want, everything else pales in comparison."
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Tammara Webber |