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You do understand, Sara. More than you know. More than I wish you did." His mouth closes down over mine, hot with demand, and I know he believes this conversation is over, that he means to end it with the wicked caress of his tongue against mine, the possessive splay of his hands on my body. But I refuse to be this powerless, to be silenced with the very passion that drives me to need to understand this man. "No," I gasp, and shove against ..
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I try to fight what I am feeling but his words play in my head. Anytime soon. Eventually he will leave. We need each other right now, I tell myself, two broken people who have connected in the depths of all our fucked-upness. I wonder why it feels that it isn't enough when only days ago it was exactly what I wanted.
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This is who I am, Sara. I will protect you from everything and everyone else, but I can't protect you from who I am or who we will be if you stay with me." "I know who you are," I whisper, and I am more clear of mind than I have been in a very long time. I need him. I've needed him from the moment I first met him. Even then, that first night, I felt free to let go with him, to be me, when I didn't even recognize me. "But you need to know th..
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You will go there again. You will. I'm not about to pretend otherwise. It's all or nothing, Chris. All the dark, hated places you go, you go with me. You have to trust me enough to love that part of you as much as I do the rest." "You don't know what you're asking." "It's not a question. It's not even close to a request. This is how it has to be." His lashes lower; his struggle is palpable, and I soften instantly, hurting as he hurts. My fi..
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You do more than help. You're the reason I take my next breath.
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I approve, as I'm sire the rest of the female population does.
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Paranoid is better than careless.
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while being alone sucks, losing someone you care about is far worse.
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Focus on what you can control... Kow what you can bend to your will, and don't waste energy on what you can't.
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The rush of fear is far better than the defeat of boredom. The high of not knowing what comes next, so much better than always knowing one day will be like the last.
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I wiggle an eyebrow. "I get to see you in a tuxedo?" "Better. You can help me take it off."
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Possession. Demand. Control. He wants it all.
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Just remember that people make their own choices, and then they live with them. We can try to change them, but we can't make their choices for them. If you do everything you can to help, you have to accept the outcome they bring on themselves.
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Shit happens, but it only stinks as long as you keep it around.
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I decide to turn to my old faithful solution to all that is wrong in life. Coffee. It is my one real vice, so I figure why not indulge with an Olympic-style commitment?
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I'm insane for you, Amy. 'Like' lasted all of ten minutes.
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Hope is my enemy. It's worse than lies. It promises and it takes back. It teases and it rips my heart out.
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They don't get to tell you who I am." His voice is a rough growl, low and tight. "I do. I tell you and I show you, so you get the truth--not their fabrication of it." A muscle in his jaw flexes. "Understand?"
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I look deep into his eyes and find myself wrapped in the familiar connection we share. It streams through me like moonlight on a bay, glistening through my soul.
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It's better to live one day as a lion than a hundred years as a lamb. --John Gotti CHAPTER
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You can embrace who you really are, and we can be whoever we want to be together.
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Once the game is over, the king and the pawn really do go back in the same box. In death they are indeed equal. But in life, we are not. In life we are a product of more than our decisions. We are the consequence of how we cope with those decisions, and too often that is fear and guilt. Don't let it be fear and guilt.
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But just know that I have every intention of making you forget everything but what it feels like to have my tongue and my cock buried inside you." "
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I'll go find us a private car and driver," Chris informs me. "You stay with the bags." I purse my lips. "Yes, Master." He arches a brow. "Why is it that I can only get you to say that sarcastically?" "Because according to you, " I remind him, "you don't want me to call you Master." "Are you saying you would if I wanted you to?" "Absolutely not."
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After saying goodbye, he makes another call that is quick and in French before setting his phone on the counter, crossing his arms over his black Sons of Anarchy T-shirt.
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When I said you were safe, he says softly, a hint of wickedness in his voice, I meant from everyone but me.
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Memories are the enemies that never die," he says, turning away and shoving open his door, leaving me with the pain carved in those words that I am fairly certain he didn't want me to hear. But I did, and they speak to me, diving deep in my soul with the blood of my own loss, and taking root. I say I want my memories back, but I'm not so sure I really do. It's an idea I reject as I shove open my door and stand."
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Anyone who wants to hurt you has to come through me first.
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Other people's perfection is a facade we create when we are second-guessing ourselves,
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If you tell me you don't want to be with me. I will listen. I won't like it, but I'll listen. I need you to know that. But when you say you 'can't' be with me, like some obstacle out of your control is stopping you from seeing me, I'm not going to listen.
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My favorite, and all macho alpha men like you have a secret softer side and a sweet tooth. It's part of the breed.
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That is control. Whether you want it or understand it.
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What we deny owns us. You can't control what you don't first own and face. You simply delay the moment it owns you.
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We have too many of the wrong things in common to be more than sex, and the realization is freedom to me.
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Isn't that what we all want? To be with someone who consumes us? Who makes us want to give them all that we are, even though it's terrifying?
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I never lie to any man because I don't fear anyone. The only time you lie is when you are afraid. --John Gotti CHAPTER
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You can let go of me, Kayden." "That's not going to happen," he promises, his voice low, as seductive as everything else about this man is, and when I look at him, that wolf is back in his eyes as he adds, "In case I didn't make that point already." ~Surrender"
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Don't mistake my kindness for weakness. I am kind to everyone, but when someone is unkind to me, weak is not what you are going to remember about me. --Al Capone CHAPTER
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Ella - "I want the truth!" Jayden - "Give me the gun Ella." Ella - "Make me trust you and I will."
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Consciously or not, greed and power are deadly partners.
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And I don't want to be a part of the 'who's got the bigger sword?' contest you two have going on, either. I don't do cockfights. I just want to do my job and do it well.
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Greed is a stronger force than gravity.
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What makes one person's dreams come true when another's don't? Determination. Action. Desire.
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you know what happens when you push a dragon? They burn you alive, baby. You're playing with fire.
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