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What is in our hearts is real whether we name it or let it exist only in darkness or silence.
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Beth Revis |
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So, I do what any reasonable person would do when faced with a crying girl. I get the frex out of there.
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elder
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Beth Revis |
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But death doesn't work like that. It doesn't care if someone loves you, doesn't want you to go. It just takes. It takes and it takes until eventually you have nothing left.
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Beth Revis |
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And here we are, in the middle, surrounded by a sea of stars. A million suns. Any of them could hold a planet. Any of them could hold a home. But all of them are out of reach. [p.218]
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Beth Revis |
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More than the sound of my own beating heart, I miss the sound of a ticking clock. Time passes. It must pass....
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thoughtful
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Beth Revis |
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A leader doesn't make pawns - he makes people.
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Beth Revis |
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I feel alone. I don't mean i feel lonely; I mean i feel alone, the same way i feel the blanket resting on my body, or the feathers of my pillow under my head, or the tight string of my sleep pants twisted up around my waist. I feel alone as if it were an actual thing, seeping throughout this whole level like mist blanketing a field, reaching into all the hidden corners of my room and finding nothing living but me. It's a cold sort of feelin..
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beth-revis
alone
lonely
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Beth Revis |
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He's the only stable thing in the swirling chaos.
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stable
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Beth Revis |
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I am as silent as death. Do this: Go to your bedroom. Your nice, safe, warm bedroom that is not a glass coffin behind a morgue door. Lie down on your bed not made of ice. Stick your fingers in your ears. Do you hear that? The pulse of life from your heart, the slow in-and-out from your lungs? Even when you are silent, even when you block out all noise, your body is still a cacophony of life. Mine is not. It is the silence that drives me mad..
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Beth Revis |
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And there is nothing between us but rain. Then there is nothing between us at all.
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Beth Revis |
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He sounds like a regular Hitler to me", Amy mutters. I wonder what she means by that. Eldest has always taught me that Hitler was a wise, cultured leader for his people. Maybe that's what she means: Eldest is a strong leader, like Hitler was. ~ Elder"
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Beth Revis |
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And I look at Harley, and the billions of stars are in his eyes, and he's drinking them up, pouring them into his soul.
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stars
elder
harley
beth-revis
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Beth Revis |
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But Amy," Elder says. "Space suits!"
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funny
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Beth Revis |
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It's always in the rain...
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amy
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Beth Revis |
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But there's a difference, isn't there? Between saying goodbye and death.
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Beth Revis |
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I've never seen the stars before. And I never knew they were so beautiful.
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Beth Revis |
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I'll always come back to you.
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Beth Revis |
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He blinks. Touches the side of my face, near my eyes. My eyes that are blue now, not green. With oval irises. "I'm still me," I say, because my greatest fear now is that he doesn't want a hybrid Amy. He cocks an eyebrow. "You think I care if your eyes are blue or green? I just care about you." His hand slips down my arm, and he wraps his pinky finger around mine. "You came back to me," I say, my voice breaking over unshead tears of joy. "I'..
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love
shades-of-earth
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Beth Revis |
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We all die someday." Maybe the only thing that makes that fact bearable is the idea that death is the only way we can return to the stars."
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Beth Revis |
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There is only him and me and this thing between us that I cannot name, not out loud, but that my heart knows is love.
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Beth Revis |
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I will never, be the same. I have seen stars. stars.
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stars
space
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Beth Revis |
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When I look at the fields, all I can see is how fake they are, how poor an imitation they are of the pictures of Sol-Earth fields. [...] And that's why I'll never be as good an Eldest as he is. Because I like a little chaos.
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Beth Revis |
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I look up. And I am surrounded by the universe. silence and stars A million suns stretch out beyond me, their light piercing the darkness.
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Beth Revis |
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Eldest thinks power is control, that the best way to be a leader is to force everyone into obedience. Holding Amy against me, I realize the simple truth is that power isn't control at all-power is strength, and giving that strength to others. A leader isn't someone who forces others to make him stronger; a leader is someone willing to give his strength to other so that they may have the strength to stand on their own. This is what I've been..
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Beth Revis |
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I quit thinking.
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Beth Revis |
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And I know without being told that she killed herself. And I totally understand why.
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Beth Revis |
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It's hard to think about all the bad when she reminds me of all that's good.
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Beth Revis |
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I am as silent as death. Do this: Go to your bedroom. Your nice, safe, warm bedroom that is not a glass coffin behind a morgue door. Lie down on your bed not made of ice. Stick your fingers in your ears. Do you hear that? The pulse of life from your heart, the slow in-and-out from your lungs? Even when you are silent, even when you block out all noise, your body is still a cacophony of life. Mine is not. It is the silence that drives me mad..
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hopelessness
fear
monologue
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Beth Revis |
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I'm sorry.' The two most inadequate words in the English language.
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relationships
i-m-sorry
sorry
language
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Beth Revis |
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It's Elder who's my safe place. Elder's my home.
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Beth Revis |
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I might have the whole world now, but it's not enough if I don't get to share it with her.
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elder
beth-revis
shades-of-earth
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Beth Revis |
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You must dedicate your whole life to this idea: you are the caretaker of every single person on this ship. They are your responsibility. You can never show weakness in front of them: you are their strength. You can never let them see you in despair: you are their hope. You must always be everything to everyone on board.
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Beth Revis |
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Maybe one day the smears of paint Harley left throughout Godspeed will fade, and maybe the stars never will, but i'd rather have Harley's colors.
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stars
fade
colors
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Beth Revis |
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That is what a book is: a million little things, a thousand feelings, hundreds of experiences, all melted together and sculpted into a book-shaped vessel.
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Beth Revis |
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Emotion courses through my veins, choking me. I feel so insignificant, a tiny speck surrounded by a million stars. A million suns.
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Beth Revis |
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Who are the real monsters?
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orion
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Beth Revis |
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I would trade all the stars in the universe if I could just have him back again.
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Beth Revis |
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This is the secret of the stars. In the end, we are alone no matter how close you seem, no one else can touch you. Maybe the secret of the stars has nothing to do with being alone.
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Beth Revis |
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I choose this," I say, my voice ragged with want. "I choose you."
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love
beth-revis
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Beth Revis |
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Memories always kill nightmares.
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Beth Revis |
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I open my mouth. I want o say: I'm breaking, and i need someone to hold me together. But no sound comes out.
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beth-revis
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Beth Revis |
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People are, at their heart, constantly moving toward a state of entropy. Much like this ship. We're all spiraling out of control.
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Beth Revis |
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It's bad, being frozen, but it's better than waking up alone.
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Beth Revis |
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Sometimes home is a person.
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