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ee9c809
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Please don't hate you??!! I hate that I love you. Loving you made me waste a year of my life. Loving you made me be passionate about nothing but you. Loving you made me take risks I never would have otherwise. Loving you made me give it up to you. Loving you made me neglect my parents and Amy. Loving you made me not care that my grandma just died. Loving you made me turn out bitter and hopeless like her. Loving you made me hate myself for b..
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relationships
love
boyfriend
teenage-love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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522efd0
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Please don't hate you??!! I hate that I love you. Loving you made me waste a year of my life. Loving you made me be passionate about nothing but you. Loving you made me take risks I never would have otherwise. Loving you made me give it up to you. Loving you made me neglect my parents and Amy. Loving you made me not care that my grandma just died. Loving you made me turn out bitter and hopeless like her. Loving you made me hate myself for b..
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hate
love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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dd39b99
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It's like my entire conscious state has been reduced to this toxic blend of hope and uncertainty. I hate that I have to act cool and almost pretend I don't like him when in fact I do, because, God forbid, I might come across as desperate for affection or a little clingy, which everyone should know are perfectly natural human behaviors, after all. Ugh!
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crushing
falling-in-love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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5567019
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I just wouldn't want to hook up with a guy unless I really, really like him, and in my experience all boys can be classified as either assholes or bores, unless they're both. Maybe it's a blessing, because the last thing I need is relationship drama to sidetrack me from my grades.
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relationships
love
boyfriend
teenage-love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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530777d
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Meanwhile, every corner of this city is laced with memories of us together.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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58422e4
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How is it that mankind can engineer condoms to prevent pregnancy and STDs and not be able to invent some sort of emotional safeguard? Is it even possible to from falling in love?
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std
falling-in-love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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39d5a7d
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I've been so caught up with mapping out a picture-perfect "forever" that I'm completely neglecting my present, which I have far more control over anyway."
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Daria Snadowsky |
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cace113
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Why do people even take photographs, anyway? They're just reminders of what once was and what you'll never get back. It's so masochistic."-Dom"
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Daria Snadowsky |
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93e1064
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After a breakup there's a momentary relief that you're free again. But that's quickly eclipsed by all the good memories you had together and the realization that there won't be any more of them.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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8b3405c
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I do. I still love him so much. And I feel so worthless because he doesn't love me anymore.
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love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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2e463b6
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Pain was my tie to a past that a part of me wanted to hold on to. The more I hurt, the more I knew I loved, and that felt like a good thing.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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430c2b0
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You are all at once the subject, object, predicate, preposition, and period of my thoughts.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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af1b239
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It's so evident to me now that just because someone is a great guy doesn't guarantee we'll make a great couple, no matter how much I work at it and want it.
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relationships
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Daria Snadowsky |
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64f5120
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I can live without a boy. So why does it feel like I'm going to die?
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young-adult
love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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8fb9dfa
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As juvenile as we sound, sometimes the most fun thing in the world is laughing with girls about boys.
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friendship
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Daria Snadowsky |
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5cc5e07
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Why did I have to love him so much if we're not going to end up together?
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young-love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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cffcd36
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Love is . . . needing to be with this one person. No--it's more like wanting to need to be with this one person. Last semester my English professor read us this great Robert Frost quotation that went something like, 'Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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f522659
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How is it that two people can be in the same relationship and still have completely different ideas of what's going on?
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Daria Snadowsky |
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01ecde5
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High school sweetheart" is such an innocuous-sounding term for something that can tear out your guts."
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relationships
love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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541b6ed
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I remember another thing Cosmo said. It typically takes half the time you're dating a guy to fall out of love with him. My ex and I were together almost ten months before he admitted over the holidays that he'd fallen out of love with me, so by that measure I should've been cured weeks ago. But once you've anticipated spending forever with someone, I'm not convinced you can ever feel complete after being uncoupled. I think you just learn to..
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Daria Snadowsky |
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49b15f8
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If breakups are like deaths, then ex sightings are like seeing a ghost: you feel goose bumps, near loss of bladder control, and the sensation of your heart bursting in your throat. The distinction is that the ex is alive.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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9525156
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There's something about the sight of a gorgeous guy in an open convertible heading in your direction that makes all bad feelings evaporate into thin air.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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2254f17
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If love and hate aren't true opposites, perhaps neither are pleasure and pain--if you go far enough in one extreme, it resembles the other.
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sex
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Daria Snadowsky |
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cc5d1c9
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Amy is so correct that a good personality can make a guy better-looking.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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6eee8eb
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I think how breakups can bring out the worst in the best people, and part of being upset is mouthing off crap you don't mean.
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fights
friendships
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Daria Snadowsky |
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76417fe
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In the same way that a fiancee is a bride-to-be, I've always thought a girlfriend is a fiancee-to-be. Yes, most relationships bite the dust before things get long-term. However, that possibility of staying together forever remains the underlying force driving the relationship forward.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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cb2231c
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It's so messed up how little control we have over whether we want somebody.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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22c1f3d
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Nothing makes you get down on yourself and worry that you're undesirable like rejection, so having someone desirable desire you is the ultimate antidote.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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9200202
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I'm positive I wouldn't consider having sex with Guy if I hadn't already had sex beforehand. I always knew I wanted my first time to be with someone I loved and who loved me, which it was . . . but shouldn't I want that for every time? I disagree with what Amy said about how once you go all the way, you can't go back to "everything but." But now that I have done it, it doesn't seem nearly as big a deal to do it again."
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sex
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Daria Snadowsky |
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94ddee7
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Doing things for someone else is what I love most about relationships, even more than having stuff done for me.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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1e3bfd0
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Blame your body. The whole biological purpose of existence is to mate, so from the time we hit puberty, our hormones are demanding us to couple up. Maybe it's basic instinct to feel inadequate if you're single." "That's what sucks. There's so many more interesting things than guys, but guys are what we spend most of our time talking about." "I think that's just the way it is, though. No matter what we do, it's always more special if there's..
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relationships
friendships
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Daria Snadowsky |
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1fa3493
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I used to think all that game playing was par for the course and even kind of exciting. It just felt logical to pursue a boy the same way I applied to college--by expending exorbitant time and energy showing what a great catch I am and what a perfect match we'd be, so that after a lengthy waiting period I might get accepted. But now the idea of reliving any version of that charade seems like hell.
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college
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Daria Snadowsky |
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8a64cfc
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One of the pitfalls of having an ex-boyfriend is that people still pair you together in their memories, and sooner or later someone's bound to mention him. And now that it has happened . . . I can't say I feel nothing. I don't think it's possible to get royally dumped by the only boy I've ever done it with, let alone loved, and then feel nothing when he's brought up in conversation.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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7287bc1
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Whatever age you are when you're first burned is old enough to lose hope that you'll ever get excited about anybody else.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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942494e
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I love where he and I stand right now. It's like we're on the brink, and everything's full of excitement and potential precisely because the heavy making out is still something to look forward to. I realize we can't remain PG-rated forever. I'm all too aware, though, how easy it is to let hooking up become the crux of a relationship. Then you forget how to just be together and why you should stay together. So for the meantime I'd like to ta..
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Daria Snadowsky |
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71b8e7b
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In neuroscience, our textbook showed how the brain scans of people newly in love look a lot like the brain scans of patients with obsessive-compulsive disorder. In each case, your dopamine is suppressing your serotonin.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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bf2371c
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Just because the sexes are equal doesn't mean that sex is.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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4accc50
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In the beginning, I wanted his heart. Then I shifted focus to his body. I was never interested in only friendship.
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sex
relationships
love
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Daria Snadowsky |
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dfaa04d
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Undressing him reminds me of trying to change a sleepy, uncooperative four-year-old into his pajamas."-Dom"
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Daria Snadowsky |
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5aa3958
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Did things get a lot hotter between you two? A little stove-top stuffing in the kitchen?"-Amy"
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Daria Snadowsky |
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6935f31
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It sucks enough when girlfriends break plans with each other for a boy, but at least that's not against the natural order of things, like when a boy blows off his girlfriend for friends. . . . Or maybe I've had it wrong all along. Since friendships usually outlast relationships, why shouldn't friends receive preferential treatment? Because you don't sleep with your friends!
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sex
relationships
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Daria Snadowsky |
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3d8f566
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It's sick how you can be intimate with someone one minute and then be furious with that same person the next.
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relationships
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Daria Snadowsky |
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78012a8
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I go back to my desk, flip open my cell, and stare at the keypad. I want to hear his voice so badly, to be connected to him, to ask him why and how and what I can do to make it better. But you can't force someone to love you.
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Daria Snadowsky |
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a59c5b1
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Back in high school, I never understood how Amy could enjoy getting with guys just for the short haul. In a way, though, making out like this is more enjoyable because there's no pressure for me to not do or say anything stupid. What's the worst that can happen if I do? So I'm freer to focus on what I'm feeling, not what he feels about me.
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Daria Snadowsky |