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It wasn't so much that I was afraid of the place itself, but I was afraid of the creatures who masqueraded as people.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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For a girl, appearance can be a powerful form of oppression. No matter how intelligent a girl may be, no matter her many talents, these attributes are not easily discerned. Brains and talent will never stand up against a girl who is clearly physically attractive.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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In order to induce the process of decay, water is necessary. I think that, in the case of women, men are the water.
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women
grotesque
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Natsuo Kirino |
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A woman who does not know herself has no choice other than to live with other people's evaluations. But no one can adapt perfectly to public opinion. And herein lies the source of their destruction.
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women
peer-pressure
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I'm this superphilosophical kind of person. Stuck in a prison of abstract ideas and overpowering emotions, I have this personality that makes it really hard to survive.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Bye-bye. I'm off on a journey to the real world. 'Cause within this meta-reality what's is this - my death.
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suicide
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Friends are a weird thing. It seems like they know all about you, but then they don't understand you at all.
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friends
friendship
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Natsuo Kirino |
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My talent was the uncompromising ability to feel spite.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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In reality of everyday occurrences I've had to submit to people in order not to lose them. It's less the submission that bothers me, I guess, than how it makes my life miserable. And what happens if I can't forgive myself for making that choice? And what if, in order to keep on living, I have to continue to accept myself? What am I supposed to do? Conclusion: It'd be best if I'm destroyed. The best thing is for me just to vanish.
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suicide
submission
regret
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Natsuo Kirino |
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If people can't stand being alone, they have no choice but to die
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thought-provoking
sad
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Natsuo Kirino |
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A women who does not know herself has no choice other than to live with other people's evaluations.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I suppose I'm the one responsible for destroying myself.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I'm still afraid of being totally honest. I'm more afraid of this than dying.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Let's face it: the world is twisted. And rotten.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I was in a self-induced depression. Welcome to me Real World.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Men live by rules they've made for themselves. And among those rules is one specifying that women are merely commodities for men to possess. A daughter belongs to her father, a wife to her husband. A woman's own desires present obstacles for men and are best ignored.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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When stones lying warm in the sun were turned over, they exposed the cold, damp earth underneath; and that was where Masako had burrowed deep. There was no trace of warmth in this dark earth, yet for a bug curled up tight in it, it was a peaceful and familiar world.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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If you say I hide things because I'm shy, that can't be right. I've finally realized it's for a different reason-- that I don't want to see the darkness that lies in my heart
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hiding-things
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Natsuo Kirino |
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And what if, in order to keep on living, I have to continue to accept myself?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Kids lose their trust in the parents they love, but still accept them, so they end up not trusting themselves anymore.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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You know," she murmured, "we're all heading straight to hell." "Yes," said Masako, giving her a bleak look. "It's like riding downhill with no brakes." "You mean, there's no way to stop?" "No, you stop all right - when you crash." --
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mistakes
trouble
regret
hell
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Natsuo Kirino |
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and there are tons of people I hate so much that I wouldn't mind taking them out. But killing them wouldn't get me anywhere - that's the conclusion I always come to. If I'm going to pay for it in the end, I might as well let them live.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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But it did seem that the thing we are most proud of and the thing we are most ashamed of are but the front and back of the same coin.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Maybe what I want is to cut all ties with everybody. The thread or something that keeps me connected to the world, the worthless proof that I exist.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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The living mourn the dead for a time but they forget about them as days pass. The living are so selfish, so spoilt, so taken with the very act of living that they don't remember long.
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mourning
forgetting
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I want to go home.' The moment the smell hit her, the words came into her head. She didn't know exactly what home it was she wanted to go to, certainly not the one she'd just left. But why didn't she want to go back there? And where did she want to go? She felt lost.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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If the old man looked at straight lines to keep his act together, I was going to stare at lines and go down in flames.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Fortunately for me, I ran across some girls I could get along with so I could enjoy high school life okay, but it must be awful for kids who don't get along with anybody. We're different from our parents, a completely different species from our teachers. And kids who are one grade apart you are in a different world altogether. In other words, we're basically surrounded by enemies and have to make it on our own.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I was frightened by the optimism of adults, their stupid trust in science to treat a troubled heart. Afraid of their obsession with believing they have to treat troubled kids. I just wanted them to leave me alone, so how come they didn't get it? But that's the way it always is.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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For a nymphomaniac like myself, I suppose there could be no job more suitable than prostitution; it is my God-given destiny. No matter how violent a man might be, or how ugly, at the moment we're in the act I cannot help but love him. And what's more I'll grant his every wish, no matter how shameful. In fact, the more twisted my partner is, the more attracted I will be to him, because my ability to meet my lover's demands is the one way I c..
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I decided then and there I was never going to have kids.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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As a child I first became aware that my existence had a purpose when I realized men lusted after me. And that's why I will lust forever after men. Before I even began to worry about homework or any of those school things, I began having secret liaisons with men. And it is men who give me the proof I need now to feel I'm alive.
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lust
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I was afraid of the creatures who masqueraded as people.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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This didn't make me sad exactly - it was more a feeling that my own world was too simple, too smooth, too boring and worthless. The most I could do was have another name, Ninna Hori.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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And then there was her face: her white skin, her brown eyes, and her expression, so soft and beautiful; she looked as though she were constantly getting ready to ask a question. Even an immaculately crafted doll could not have been as lovely.
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japanese
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Natsuo Kirino |
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The woman had gasped beneath his heavy body. He rubbed against her, lubricated by the warm, sticky liquid, but as her body gradually grew cold, he felt as though they'd been glued together. She seemed to be see-sawing between agony and ecstasy, but finally Satake pressed his lips over hers to quiet the groans-of pain or pleasure-that were leaking from her mouth. He found the hole that he had made in her side and worked his finger deep into ..
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rape
sex
murder
gore
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Was it my lot in life to stand forever on heaven's shores watching the glittering swirl of celestial bodies on the other side?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Walk around Tokyo and all you see are people trying to sell you something. Tell them okay and before you know you have bought something. Make the mistake of telling your address and now you're on a mailing list. Some old guy pats you on the shoulder and before you know what hit you you're in a hotel room. Stalkers' victims, the ones they kill, are always women.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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But even a nice mom and dad like this can't really sense how their child's been assaulted by commercialism ever since she was little, how she's lived in fear of being eaten alive by the morons around her. They just don't get it. Mom always lectures me about not being afraid of getting hurt, but all she can imagine is the kind of hurt she's experienced herself. She has no idea of the threats that surround kids these days, how much we're bull..
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Natsuo Kirino |
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When high school girls like us freak out, people are always able to overpower us before we do something stupid, like hijacking a bus or running around with a knife. Which is why girls arm themselves beforehand so they don't get caught up in something like that. Boys probably aren't so good at protecting themselves.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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My lascivious blood leaves me no choice but to lust for men. No matter how common I become, how ugly, how old, as long as there is life in my body I will go on wanting men. That's just my fate. Even if men are no longer amazed when they see me, even if they no longer desire me, even if they belittle me, I have to sleep with them. No, I want to sleep with them. It's the retribution for a divinity that no one can sustain forever. I suppose yo..
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Here was a man who wanted what no one had wanted before: he wanted to get to know the inner workings of the doll-like woman who was me. Karl wasn't interested in me; neither was Johnson. But Kijima's father liked me for who I was. The realization left me feeling numb. I was touched. But being touched is not the same as feeling desire. And I didn't exist without desire. If I didn't exist, then what?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Our gods did not come to us in any specific form, but we held them in our hearts and understood them in our own way.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Pritisnila je na gumb dvigala. Sla bo in kupila letalsko vozovnico. Svoboda, ki jo isce, je njena, ne Satakejeva, ne Jajoina, ne Josijina, in prepricana je bila, da mora biti tam nekje zunaj. Ce so se za njo zaprla se ena vrata, nima druge izbire, kot da najde nova in jih odpre. Dvigalo, ki ji je prislo naproti, je jecalo kot veter. END.
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Natsuo Kirino |