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To live and imagine. That's the job left for those of us who've survived.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I suspect there are lots of women who want to become prostitutes. Some see themselves as valued commodities and figure they ought to sell while the price is high. Others feel that sex has no intrinsic meaning in and of itself but allows individuals to feel the reality of their own bodies. A few women despise their existence and the insignificance of their meager lives and want to affirm themselves by controlling sex much as a man would. The..
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Kazue's journals depict an absolutely sublime struggle, the struggle between an individual and the rest of the world. Kazue lost the battle, ended up completely alone, and died hungry for some measure of kindness from another person. Don't you think it's a sad story?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Someone speak to me. Call out to me and take me out. Please, please, I'm begging you, say something kind to me. Tell me I'm pretty, tell me I'm sweet. Invite me out for coffee, or more... Tell me that you want to spend the day with me and me alone.
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loneliness
romance
love
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I realized that the last thing I wanted to do was go home. A weird feeling--like on the one hand I wanted to go back to that other world, but at the same time didn't care if my connections to it were cut forever. It wasn't a feeling of being free or anything. I just didn't want to go back. I wanted to float somewhere in between.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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You see, natural beauty creates such excitement that the existence of the weight is negated. And once it is negated, the heavier it is to bear.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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All I want is for someone to understand me before I die. With death staring me in the face, I finally understand the reason novelists write books: before they die they want somebody, somewhere, to understand them.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Mitsuru and Yuriko and Kazue didn't mutate; they simply decayed. A biology professor certainly ought to be able to recognize the signs of fermentation and decay. Isn't he the one who taught us all about these processes in organisms? In order to induce the process of decay, water is necessary. I think that, in the case of women, men are the water.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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You have to be careful, Terauchi always warned us, or you'll wind up in some database. Then adults will control you.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Loneliness. Sometimes that awful feeling causes you to do something stupid.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I got up on time this morning, boarded the train, changed to the subway, and worked like an aggressive career woman in one of the biggest corporations around. At night I transformed into a prostitute sought out by men. Suddenly I remembered the argument I had had earlier with Arai and stopped short. I'm a company employee day and night. Or is it that I'm a prostitute night and day? Which is it? Which one is me?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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It wasn't so much that I was afraid of the place itself, but I was afraid of the creatures who masqueraded as people. And I became afraid of myself for stirring up such hatred in others.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Karl wasn't interested in me; neither was Johnson. But Kijima's father liked me for who I was. The realization left me feeling numb. I was touched. But being touched is not the same as feeling desire. And I didn't exist without desire. If I didn't exist, then what?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Her beauty was not like that of a bonsai, which achieves its charm by asserting its own will in defiance of the careful bindings that lash and restrict it. How, I wondered, would my grandfather describe Mitsuru's beauty?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I don't think I could blurt it out to Yuzan or Kirarin, though. They'd just say, "Hmm. You could be right," their eyes dreamily looking around for a bit, but then, as soon as the subject changed, they'd forget all about it. They'd drop it so fast I'd be left there feeling stupid and embarrassed. I'd hate that, so that's why I don't bring it up with them. It'd be like a lighthouse, where the spotlight rotates and, for an instant, illuminates..
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Natsuo Kirino |
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I looked at Yuriko's face and was horrified. I had never seen her look more beautiful. She was almost godlike. It was the first time I had ever had that experience. She seemed to be more an effigy than a human being, too beautiful to be a creature of this world.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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It seems in the final analysis that people who get involved in religion are only after their own personal happiness.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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It gave me a great deal of pleasure, as I have already said, to indulge in these fantasies. I would join clubs, make friends, and live an ordinary life like any other ordinary person. But reality tore these dreams to shreds.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Effort has nothing to do with the changes to structure and physiology that develop as a consequence of the intensification of individuation.
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identity
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Bu yolu secti, cunku insan alemini yoneten kurallar hakkinda daha fazla bilgi edinmek istiyordu. Insanlarin nasil boylesine karanlik ve bencil tutkular besleyebilecegini anlamak istiyordu.Butun insanlar olur. Ama olumden sonra onlara ne olur? Ruhun bir bedenden digerine gecmesi mumkun mu?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Nihai analizde, dine bulasan insanlar yalnizca kendi kisisel mutluluklarinin pesinde gibidir. Yaniliyor muyum?
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Com'e facile cadere per un essere umano, non trovi?" mormoro, e Masako le rivolse uno sguardo pieno di compassione. "Si. Poi e come scendere precipitosamente per una china con una bicicletta senza freni". "Vuoi dire che nessuno riesce piu a fermarti?" "Si. A meno che non si vada a sbattere contro qualcosa"
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Did you pick out this outfit?" he asked, looking at her clothes. "No," she said. She was wearing a cheap, bright red dress that she'd been given by another girl from the bar who shared the same apartment. "Someone gave it to me." "I thought so," said Satake. "It doesn't suit you." Then buy me on that does!--that was the sort of thing she would learn to say only later. That night she had just smiled vaguely to cover her embarrassment."
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Natsuo Kirino |
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She could see now why she'd crossed over the line. She hadn't understood that it was despair that made her seek out this other world. That was her motive, her reason for helping Yayoi. But what had been waiting for her on the other side? Nothing, that's what. She stared down at her white hands still gripping the sofa. If they came now and arrested her, they'd never be able to find out why she'd done it; they'd find no trace of what had spur..
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Natsuo Kirino |
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The thing we are most proud of and the thing we are most ashamed of are but the front and back of the same coin. They torture and thrill all at once.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Ma non era per la sua ambizione che si era imbattuta in un atroce destino. La sua tragedia si era consumata perche lei amava profondamente un uomo che non sapeva amare. Naruse non aveva semplicemente ucciso Yoko, aveva ucciso l'amore.
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Natsuo Kirino |
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Era sufficiente rimuovere una piccola pietra scaldata dal sole per scoprire la terra umida e fresca. E lei, in quel momento, voleva assaporare a fondo l'oscurita del lato nascosto al sole.
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Natsuo Kirino |