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There are rules you follow here not because you want to, but because you have to.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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eb0e799
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Some kids look at me strange in the hallways because I don't decorate my locker,...
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Stephen Chbosky |
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19f0a78
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We were just there together. And that was enough.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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Incidentally, I only have one cavity, and as much as my dentist asks me to, I just can't bring myself to floss.
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humour
life
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Stephen Chbosky |
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680e88d
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But in that moment when my brother took the field, all that washed away, and everyone was proud... I looked up at my dad, and he was smiling. I looked at my mom, and she was smiling even though she was nervous about my brother getting hurt, which was strange because it was a VCR tape of an old game, and she knew he didn't get hurt.
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inspirational
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Stephen Chbosky |
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This one kid Mark at the party that gave me this came out of nowhere looked at the sky and told me to see the stars. So, I looked up, and we were in this giant dome like a glass snowball, and Mark said that the amazing white stars were really only holes in the black glass of the dome, and when you went to heaven, the glass broke away, and there was nothing of a whole sheet of star white, which is brighter than anyhting but doensn't hurt you..
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Stephen Chbosky |
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a5d82a1
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Regardless, I decided to never take LSD again.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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ca3a5c7
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I try to remind myself when I feel great like this that there will be another terrible week coming someday, so I should store up as many great details as I can, so during the next terrible week, I can remember those details and believe that I'll feel great again. It doesn't work a lot, but I think it's very important to try.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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but because things change. And friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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11d5da1
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The kid gets gifts from everybody, and he buys one present for his mom since she was there , too. I think that would be nice.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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61c4d0a
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Then the movie started. It was in a foreign language and had subtitles, which was fun because I had never read a movie before.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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36a12a0
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The inside jokes weren't jokes anymore. they had become stories
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Stephen Chbosky |
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22f8da5
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I wonder what my speech would be.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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b134e22
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Charlie?' 'Uh-huh?' 'Do you like me?' 'Uh-huh.' 'You know what I mean?' 'Uh-huh.' 'Are you nervous?' 'Uh-huh.'
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funny
perks
perks-of-being-a-wallflower
sam
wallflower
nervous
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Stephen Chbosky |
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e0c367d
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Then, I started running. And everything was as good as it could be.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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5aedc42
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He got this very serious look on his face after I told him, and he said something to me I don't think I will forget this semester or ever. 'Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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9ada138
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I walk around the school hallways and look at the people. I look at the teachers and wonder why they're here.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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2ebec54
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She thanked me for not trying to make what I did seem less by offering a lot of excuses.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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346c287
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I didn't do things because I didn't want him to think different about me.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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b503ab4
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I guess Zen is a day like this when you are part of the air and remember things
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Stephen Chbosky |
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e9eb968
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I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
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thinking
ptsd
trauma
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Stephen Chbosky |
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c0ef9ea
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You're a freak, you know that? You've always been a freak. Everyone says so. They always have." "I'm trying not to be."
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Stephen Chbosky |
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b1a1dd9
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My grandma is very old, and she doesn't remember things a lot, but she bakes the most delicious cookies. When I was very little, we had my mom's mom, who always had candy, and my dad's mom,who always had cookies. My mom told me that when I was little, I called them "Candy Grandma" and "Cookies Grandma." I also called pizza crust "pizza bones." I don't know why I'm telling you this." --
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Stephen Chbosky |
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f14b9a9
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Pense para mi mismo que en la palma de mi mano habia una cinta que contenia todos estos recuerdos y sentimientos, grandes alegrias y tristezas. Justo ahi, en la palma de mi mano. Y pense en cuanta gente ha amado esas canciones, como mucha gente ha superado un monton de malos tiempos gracias a estas canciones, como mucha gente ha disfrutado de buenos tiempos con estas canciones y cuanto significan estas canciones en realidad. Pienso que seri..
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Stephen Chbosky |
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19dc40e
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It suddenly dawned on me that if Michael were still around, Susan probably wouldn't be "going out" with him anymore. Not because she's a bad person or shallow or mean. But because things change. And friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody."
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Stephen Chbosky |
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That's when I started thinking about my sister. I thought about the time when she and her friends painted my fingernails, and how that was okay because my brother wasn't there. And the time she let me use her dolls to make up plays or let me watch whatever I wanted to watch on TV. And when she started becoming a "young lady," and no one was allowed to look at her because she thought she was fat. And how she really wasn't fat. And how she wa..
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Stephen Chbosky |
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It's great that you can listen and be a shoulder to someone, but what about when someone doesn't need a shoulder. What if they need the arm or something like that? You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things. Like take someone's hands when a slow song comes on for a change. Or be the one who asks someone for a date. Or tell people what you need. Or wh..
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Stephen Chbosky |
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Inside the card, I told Sam that the present I gave her was given to me by my Aunt Helen. It was an old 45 record that had the Beatles' song "Something." I used to listen to it all the time when I was little and thinking about grown-up things. I would go to my bedroom window and stare at my reflection in the glass and the trees behind it and just listen to the song for hours. I decided them that when I met someone I thought was a beautiful ..
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Stephen Chbosky |
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9397687
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I know we didn't accomplish anything, but it felt great to sit there and talk about our place in things.
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existence
friends
life
life-roles
existentialism
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Stephen Chbosky |
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2d888a3
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I hate you" "No, you don't." My dad can be very calm sometimes. "He's my hole world" "Don't ever say that about anyone again. Not even me." That was my mom. [pp.28]"
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Stephen Chbosky |
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ae68203
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You know what they say, if you make atleast one friend on your first day you're doing okay
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Stephen Chbosky |
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dd3ebc2
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That scared me a lot. It scared me how much it scared me. Being punished for something you did not do. Or being an innocent victim. It's just something that I never want to experience.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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71ebff3
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I was last. Sam walked up and held me for a long time. Finally she whispered in my ear. She said a lot of wonderful things about how it was okay that i wasn't ready last night and how she would miss me and how she wanted me to take care of myself while she was gone. "You're my bestfriend," was all i could say in return."
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Stephen Chbosky |
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246bae0
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The good news is that I read the book, and because of its fantasy nature, I could not pretend that I was in the book. That way I could participate and still read.
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reading
wallflower
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Stephen Chbosky |
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bad4ed6
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I think it's nice for stars to do interviews to make us think they are just like us, but to tell you the truth, I get the feeling that it's all a big lie. The problem is I don't know who's lying.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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55b50f2
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I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people. You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love.
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live
life
love
share
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Stephen Chbosky |
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f6f7c91
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Not anything specific really. They just knew. And I think that's all you can ever ask from a friend.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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19d8005
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I try to remind myself when I feel great like this that there will be another terrible week coming someday.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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9b218d6
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Maybe these are my glory days, and I'm not even realizing it
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Stephen Chbosky |
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dd3cfc1
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It was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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b9343b1
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Sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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3b09786
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It was just something that made everyone look around at each other and know that they were there. Sam and Patrick looked at me. And I looked at them. And I think they knew. Not anything specific really. They just knew. And I think that's all you can ever ask from a friend.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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bb3d7db
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Patrick said that the problem was that since everything has happened already, it makes it hard to break new ground.
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Stephen Chbosky |
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fb816a7
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The one thing I did ask my dad was about the boys problems at home. Whether or not he thought the parents hit their son. He told me to mind my own business. Because he didn't know and would never ask and didn't think it mattered. "Not everyone has a sob story, Charlie, and even if they do, its no excuse."
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Stephen Chbosky |