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To the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead baby, the world itself is a bad dream.
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Sylvia Plath |
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Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.
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Sylvia Plath |
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I wanted to be where nobody I knew could ever come.
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the-bell-jar
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Sylvia Plath |
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My mother said the cure for thinking too much about yourself was helping somebody who was worse off than you.
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too-much
the-bell-jar
sylvia-plath
worse
think
yourself
mother
thinking
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Sylvia Plath |
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I buried my head under the darkness of the pillow and pretended it was night. I couldn't see the point of getting up. I had nothing to look forward to.
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sleep
look-forward
the-bell-jar
pillow
pretend
sylvia-plath
night
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Sylvia Plath |
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"That afternoon my mother had brought me the roses. "Save them for my funeral," I'd said."
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the-bell-jar
roses
sylvia-plath
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Sylvia Plath |
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When they asked me what I wanted to be I said I didn't know.
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future
the-bell-jar
grow-up
sylvia-plath
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Sylvia Plath |
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...it wouldn't have made one scrap of difference to me, because wherever I sat - on the deck of a ship or at a street cafe in Paris or Bangkok - I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air.
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the-bell-jar
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Sylvia Plath |
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"What do you have in mind after you graduate?" What I always thought I had in mind was getting some big scholarship to graduate school or a grant to study all over Europe, and then I thought I'd be a professor and write books of poems or write books of poems and be an editor of some sort. Usually I had these plans on the tip of my tongue. "I don't really know," I heard myself say. I felt a deep shock, hearing myself say that, because the minute I said it, I knew it was true."
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the-bell-jar
sylvia
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Sylvia Plath |
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I need more than anything right now what is, of course, most impossible, someone to love me, to be with me at night when I wake up in shuddering horror and fear of the cement tunnels leading down to the shock room, to comfort me with an assurance that no psychiatrist can quite manage to convey.
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fear
hope
love
the-bell-jar
sylvia-plath
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Sylvia Plath |
a79f2dd
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Not easy to state the change you made. If I'm alive now, I was dead, Though, like a stone, unbothered by it.
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depression
sadness
the-bell-jar
sylvia-plath
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Sylvia Plath |
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I couldn't stand the idea of a woman having to have a single pure life and a man being able to have a double life, one pure and one not.
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the-bell-jar
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Sylvia Plath |
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I waited, as if the sea could make my decision for me.
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page-147
the-bell-jar
sylvia-plath
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Sylvia Plath |
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Sylvia Plath is there for me when actual living people upon who I have depended upon my whole life, are not. What I mean to say is, without her words, I'd be exponentially more messed up than I am already.
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fangirling
identify-with
the-bell-jar
sylvia-plath
obsession
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Arlaina Tibensky |
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I knew I should be grateful to Mrs Guinea, only I couldn't feel a thing. If Mrs Guinea had given me a ticket to Europe, or a round-the-world cruise, it wouldn't have made one scrap of difference to me, because wherever I sat - on the deck of a ship or a street cafe in Paris or Bangkok - I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air.
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travel
depression
stagnent
the-bell-jar
stale
sour
guilt
mental-health
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Sylvia Plath |
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Now, lying on my back in bed, I imagined Buddy saying, 'Do you know what a poem is, Esther?' 'No, what?' I would say. 'A piece of dust.' Then just as he was smiling and starting to look proud, I would say, 'So are the cadavers you cut up. So are the people you think you're curing. They're dust as dust as dust. I reckon a good poem lasts a whole lot longer than a hundred of those people put together.' And of course Buddy wouldn't have any answer to that, because what I said was true. People were made of nothing so much as dust, and I couldn't see that doctoring all that dust was a bit better than writing poems people would remember and repeat to themselves when they were unhappy or sick and couldn't sleep.
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the-bell-jar
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Sylvia Plath |
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Doreen is dissolving, Lenny Shepherd is dissolving, Frankie is dissolving, New York is dissolving, they are all dissolving away and none of them matter anymore.I don't know them. I have never known them and I am very pure.
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hot-bath
the-bell-jar
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sylvia plath |
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But when it came right down to it, the skin of my wrist looked so white and defenseless that I couldn't do it. It was as if what I wanted to kill wasn't in that skin or the thin blue pulse that jumped under my thumb, but somewhere else, deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get.
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the-bell-jar
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Sylvia Plath |
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She looked terrible, but very wise.
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the-bell-jar
wise
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