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3bd28f1	What if eternity is nothing more than me, alone, in the darkness?		Beth Revis
6ea97ff	But of course these are scientists. Tell them to leave something alone, and all they want to do is poke it with a stick.	funny shades-of-earth scientists	Beth Revis
94874a9	I shut my eyes, and I force myself to feel myself. You never really think of what it's like to be in your body, but even with my eyes shut, I can feel the boundaries of my skin, real or not. Everything that's me is contained inside this body, and I feel it all. The heartbeat I cannot control. The mind that may not be mine. I am here, in this moment, in this body. All that I am--maybe not all that I ever was, but all that I currently am--is ..	myself	Beth Revis
d9fe23c	When you wake up, your face will be dry. But that doesn't mean you didn't cry.	dreams dry ella-shepard waking-up face tears	Beth Revis
d845bc2	She is trying to control me with fear, because she cannot control me any other way. My eyes open wide. They burn as if they are on fire--no, as if they are made of fire. Eyes are the window to the soul.	fear flames window fire soul eyes	Beth Revis
bb2fc86	I have no emotions. I just stand there, in the rubble of my life. This... this was my home. If it were a person, this would be a gaping chest wound, the kind no one can recover from.	feelings life rubble wounds home	Beth Revis
7057123	You gonna fight for something, you fight for something that you're willing to die for.		Beth Revis
978555b	Un lider no es alguien que obliga a los demas a hacerlo mas fuerte; un lider es alguien dispuesto a dar su fuerza a los demas para que tengan la fuerza para ponerse de pie por si mismos.		Beth Revis
db7cf47	It takes Elder about 2.5 seconds to reach my room after I com him. "What's wrong?" he asks, skidding through the door. I laugh at the way his eyes search my room, looking for a dragon to slay for his damsel in distress."		Beth Revis
f1f72d7	And then I realize: this isn't dirty water falling from the sky. It is--literally--blood. I look up, and a droplet of blood splashes directly into my eye. I curse, rubbing my face, trying to get the blood out, but it's everywhere, it's like trying to dry off in the middle of the ocean. Shielding my face as best I can, I stare up into the sky. I am in the center of a cyclone. Giant white clouds swirl like a spiraling galaxy above me, the eye..	rain cyclone mediterranean reverie clouds stop sky sun storm nightmare	Beth Revis
d74d134	And it is everything I have longed for, and everything that breaks my heart.		Beth Revis
ac1a4db	I've heard that when you're in a life-or-death situation, like a car accident or a gunfight, all your senses shoot up to almost superhuman level, everything slows down, and you're hyper-aware of what's happening around you. As the shuttle careens toward the earth, the exact opposite is true for me. Everything silences, even the screams and shouts from the people on the other side of the metal door, the crashes that I pray aren't bodies, the..	earth travel discovery life godspeed elder amy-martin beth-revis shades-of-earth shuttle planet mission crash home journey	Beth Revis
3d2ca27	I run and run and run. Past the hospital, through the garden, past a pond. And to the cold metal wall. I stop, gulping at the air, my heart racing in my ears. I reach up with one hand and touch the wall. My fingers curl into a fist, but it falls weakly to my side. And that's when I realize there is no where to run. 'But', my heart whispers, 'there is Elder.	elder	Beth Revis
6390782	I remember the first time I saw the stars. I thought they changed everything. I thought they changed me, like I'd become a different person just by seeing shining specks of light a million miles away. Now when I stare at them, I feel nothing. I don't believe in them anymore.		Beth Revis
f085038	It sparkles in the dim light of the room, and when he shakes it out, dust mingles with glitter.		Beth Revis
2cb3918	I had nothing to prove and everything to lose. But it didn't take love to sacrifice something of yourself for someone else. It just took desperation.	sacrifice love	Beth Revis
2ade1f3	That--this--is Orion's secret. It's not that the ship isn't working, that we're never going to make it. It's that the ship has already arrived. We're already here! There--there--is the planet that will be our home! It floats, so bright that it hurts my eyes. Giant green landmasses spread out across blue water, with swirls and wisps of clouds twirling over top. At the edge of the planet, where it turns away from the suns and starts to darken..	universe stars air across-the-universe elder atu-series orion galaxy	Beth Revis
de0c5a2	Mom used to say that the thoughts in our heads were nothing more than electrical impulses. I remember Dad and her talking about this over dinner. It frustrated Dad that the human brain can fire electrical sparks and think, but that the electricity he'd pump into an android brain would never give it independent thought. The body isn't that different from a machine. Humans and androids both run on electricity. That lightning spark of energy I..	thoughts dreams life independent spark electricity talk	Beth Revis
35b71b6	My heart stutters--not why? or how?--those are not the important questions. The really important question is: by whom?	unanswered wondering	Beth Revis
9eede90	You never know. Something small and broken really can be powerful.		Beth Revis
5aa6915	Don't you understand? You are Elder. When you take my role as Eldest, you must dedicate your whole life to this one idea: you are the caretaker of every single person on the ship. They are your responsibility. You can never show weakness in front of them: you are their strength. You can never let them see you in despair: you are their hope. You must always be everything to everyone on board.	strength care hope elder weakness eldest decisions expectations	Beth Revis
8be50a8	I gaze out, to the stars. I remember the first time I saw real stars, through the hatch window. They were beautiful then, but now, seeing them here, all around me, beautiful feels like an inadequate word. I see the stars as a part of the universe, and having spent my life behind walls, suddenly having none fills me with both awe and terror. Emotion courses through my veins, choking me. I feel so insignificant, a tiny speck surrounded by a m..	universe earth stars emotion across-the-universe choking elder out-of-reach sea-of-stars unreachable atu-series awe amy galaxy planets home terror	Beth Revis
ce6d991	Besides," he says, "every hero I know is soaked in blood." --		Beth Revis
e980ccc	And I know what I told my father was true: let us taste the world, and we'll do whatever it takes to shape it into our home.	world truth centauri-earth new-place amy-martin atu-series shades-of-earth planet home	Beth Revis
0de46c1	I. Can't. Do this. I can't. It's too much. This-all of this-living- I can't. I just can't. To have given it all up and be left with nothing but this metal wall-		Beth Revis
105e83c	Even when you're silent, even when you block out all noise, you body is still a cacophony of life.		Beth Revis
759a128	Even when you're silent, even when you block out all noise, your body is still a cacophony of life.		Beth Revis
d9b5fbb	But Harley has always been this way, for as long as I've known him: he thinks ignorance is the best way to protect someone, and he doesn't understand that what we imagine is often worse than the truth.		Beth Revis
f86bc22	Todo lo que tuve que hacer fue morir un rato, !y ahora tienes un nuevo planeta!		Beth Revis
3c6958e	But i don't care. Because we can say them or not; it doesn't matter. What is in our heats is real whether we name it or let it exist only in darkness and silence.		Beth Revis
bb2427d	Harley siempre ha sido asi: piensa que la ignorancia es la mejor manera de protegerse. No entiende que, a menudo, lo que nos imaginamos es peor que la verdad		Beth Revis
faaad7c	Y por un momento, le tengo envidia al Sr. William Robertson, Numero 100, quien esta flotando en un mar de estrellas.-Elder		Beth Revis
69e7388	Me detengo, tragando aire, mi corazon acelerado al maximo en mis oidos. Me estiro para alcanzar con una mano y toco la pared. Mis dedos se curvan en un puno, pero cae debilmente a mi lado. Y ahi es cuando me doy cuenta de la mas importante verdad en mi vida en esta nave. No hay lugar a donde correr.		Beth Revis
1b7e800	I've made her relive, over and over, the last few days," I say softly, watching Ms. White's body. "I've had to fill in the blanks with my own feelings and experiences. She's spiraling around those last moments, those times when she went against me, and she's feeling it from my side, the pain, the betrayal." She thinks she's awake. I'm doing to her just what she did to me. I'm making her feel what it was like to slowly go crazy, to question ..	days jadis-white relive ella-shepard the-body-electric hurting-people feeling betrayal	Beth Revis
9e58fb9	It's all in my mind. I'm in my right mind now, and my right mind is crazy. "You need to wake up, Ella." The words are a command I cannot obey."	mind in-my-mind ella-shepard wake-up crazy	Beth Revis
eb6d904	Maybe being alone in the sea, with its unexplored depths, its clawing-finger waves, really is safer compared to the land, where there are people and malice and death.		Beth Revis
e2f5312	I'm not human. I'm better.	human	Beth Revis
b3a959e	I would use the same word to describe both my joy and the rain: torrential. This--this--this is all I ever wanted from the world: wide-open spaces and cooling rain and the chance to run.	universe stars rain cooling torrential amy-martin atu-series shades-of-earth open run space	Beth Revis
3b59e5f	Or... maybe I'm not going crazy. "Maybe I'm some sort of android-cyborg-clone-thing, and I'm just breaking down. I'm not sure which way is worse. Dad laughs. "You're not in your right mind, dear," he says. "No, no, no, you're not." And then-- --Silence. Dad fades away. The reverie chair disappears. There's just blackness. I remember then that I am in the reverie of something dead. Whatever that thing was, it was dead. And, just as I'm s..	mind silence light breaking-down dreamscape reverie blackness dead crazy	Beth Revis
e6d83ee	She stops speaking, but I can hear her silent sobs. They're the loudest thing I've ever heard.	loudest sobs silent	Beth Revis
b39a693	It was to apologize, and apologizing means he remembers what happened, and that means being trapped in a nightmare that's already come true.	came-true nightmare horror	Beth Revis
98af8a4	Be fearless. Write what you want. Write how you want. Create art.	writing	Beth Revis
95bcc61	Cuando tenia catorce anos, mi padre me llevo a cazar con el, en Colorado, y mate a un alce. Lo hizo para que supiera lo que es quitar una vida, de modo que no dudara en hacerlo cuando lo necesitara. Te estoy diciendo esto ahora, de modo que sepas que no dudare en matarte.(...) Tambien quiero que sepas que no te voy a matar de inmediato. Pero vas a desear que lo hubiese hecho. -Amy		Beth Revis
baf842c	Ella!" the voice yells, but I cannot tell where it is coming from. The sound wraps around me, spreading like spilt water and then evaporating into silence."	sound water	Beth Revis

What if eternity is nothing more than me, alone, in the darkness?

Beth Revis

6ea97ff

But of course these are scientists. Tell them to leave something alone, and all they want to do is poke it with a stick.

funny shades-of-earth scientists

Beth Revis

94874a9

I shut my eyes, and I force myself to feel myself. You never really think of what it's like to be in your body, but even with my eyes shut, I can feel the boundaries of my skin, real or not. Everything that's me is contained inside this body, and I feel it all. The heartbeat I cannot control. The mind that may not be mine. I am here, in this moment, in this body. All that I am--maybe not all that I ever was, but all that I currently am--is ..

myself

Beth Revis

d9fe23c

When you wake up, your face will be dry. But that doesn't mean you didn't cry.

dreams dry ella-shepard waking-up face tears

Beth Revis

d845bc2

She is trying to control me with fear, because she cannot control me any other way. My eyes open wide. They burn as if they are on fire--no, as if they are made of fire. Eyes are the window to the soul.

fear flames window fire soul eyes

Beth Revis

bb2fc86

I have no emotions. I just stand there, in the rubble of my life. This... this was my home. If it were a person, this would be a gaping chest wound, the kind no one can recover from.

feelings life rubble wounds home

Beth Revis

7057123

You gonna fight for something, you fight for something that you're willing to die for.

Beth Revis

978555b

Un lider no es alguien que obliga a los demas a hacerlo mas fuerte; un lider es alguien dispuesto a dar su fuerza a los demas para que tengan la fuerza para ponerse de pie por si mismos.

Beth Revis

db7cf47

It takes Elder about 2.5 seconds to reach my room after I com him. "What's wrong?" he asks, skidding through the door. I laugh at the way his eyes search my room, looking for a dragon to slay for his damsel in distress."

Beth Revis

f1f72d7

And then I realize: this isn't dirty water falling from the sky. It is--literally--blood. I look up, and a droplet of blood splashes directly into my eye. I curse, rubbing my face, trying to get the blood out, but it's everywhere, it's like trying to dry off in the middle of the ocean. Shielding my face as best I can, I stare up into the sky. I am in the center of a cyclone. Giant white clouds swirl like a spiraling galaxy above me, the eye..

rain cyclone mediterranean reverie clouds stop sky sun storm nightmare

Beth Revis

d74d134

And it is everything I have longed for, and everything that breaks my heart.

Beth Revis

ac1a4db

I've heard that when you're in a life-or-death situation, like a car accident or a gunfight, all your senses shoot up to almost superhuman level, everything slows down, and you're hyper-aware of what's happening around you. As the shuttle careens toward the earth, the exact opposite is true for me. Everything silences, even the screams and shouts from the people on the other side of the metal door, the crashes that I pray aren't bodies, the..

earth travel discovery life godspeed elder amy-martin beth-revis shades-of-earth shuttle planet mission crash home journey

Beth Revis

3d2ca27

I run and run and run. Past the hospital, through the garden, past a pond. And to the cold metal wall. I stop, gulping at the air, my heart racing in my ears. I reach up with one hand and touch the wall. My fingers curl into a fist, but it falls weakly to my side. And that's when I realize there is no where to run. 'But', my heart whispers, 'there is Elder.

elder

Beth Revis

6390782

I remember the first time I saw the stars. I thought they changed everything. I thought they changed me, like I'd become a different person just by seeing shining specks of light a million miles away. Now when I stare at them, I feel nothing. I don't believe in them anymore.

Beth Revis

f085038

It sparkles in the dim light of the room, and when he shakes it out, dust mingles with glitter.

Beth Revis

2cb3918

I had nothing to prove and everything to lose. But it didn't take love to sacrifice something of yourself for someone else. It just took desperation.

sacrifice love

Beth Revis

2ade1f3

That--this--is Orion's secret. It's not that the ship isn't working, that we're never going to make it. It's that the ship has already arrived. We're already here! There--there--is the planet that will be our home! It floats, so bright that it hurts my eyes. Giant green landmasses spread out across blue water, with swirls and wisps of clouds twirling over top. At the edge of the planet, where it turns away from the suns and starts to darken..

universe stars air across-the-universe elder atu-series orion galaxy

Beth Revis

de0c5a2

Mom used to say that the thoughts in our heads were nothing more than electrical impulses. I remember Dad and her talking about this over dinner. It frustrated Dad that the human brain can fire electrical sparks and think, but that the electricity he'd pump into an android brain would never give it independent thought. The body isn't that different from a machine. Humans and androids both run on electricity. That lightning spark of energy I..

thoughts dreams life independent spark electricity talk

Beth Revis

35b71b6

My heart stutters--not why? or how?--those are not the important questions. The really important question is: by whom?

unanswered wondering

Beth Revis

9eede90

You never know. Something small and broken really can be powerful.

Beth Revis

5aa6915

Don't you understand? You are Elder. When you take my role as Eldest, you must dedicate your whole life to this one idea: you are the caretaker of every single person on the ship. They are your responsibility. You can never show weakness in front of them: you are their strength. You can never let them see you in despair: you are their hope. You must always be everything to everyone on board.

strength care hope elder weakness eldest decisions expectations

Beth Revis

8be50a8

I gaze out, to the stars. I remember the first time I saw real stars, through the hatch window. They were beautiful then, but now, seeing them here, all around me, beautiful feels like an inadequate word. I see the stars as a part of the universe, and having spent my life behind walls, suddenly having none fills me with both awe and terror. Emotion courses through my veins, choking me. I feel so insignificant, a tiny speck surrounded by a m..

universe earth stars emotion across-the-universe choking elder out-of-reach sea-of-stars unreachable atu-series awe amy galaxy planets home terror

Beth Revis

ce6d991

Besides," he says, "every hero I know is soaked in blood." --

Beth Revis

e980ccc

And I know what I told my father was true: let us taste the world, and we'll do whatever it takes to shape it into our home.

world truth centauri-earth new-place amy-martin atu-series shades-of-earth planet home

Beth Revis

0de46c1

I. Can't. Do this. I can't. It's too much. This-all of this-living- I can't. I just can't. To have given it all up and be left with nothing but this metal wall-

Beth Revis

105e83c

Even when you're silent, even when you block out all noise, you body is still a cacophony of life.

Beth Revis

759a128

Even when you're silent, even when you block out all noise, your body is still a cacophony of life.

Beth Revis

d9b5fbb

But Harley has always been this way, for as long as I've known him: he thinks ignorance is the best way to protect someone, and he doesn't understand that what we imagine is often worse than the truth.

Beth Revis

f86bc22

Todo lo que tuve que hacer fue morir un rato, !y ahora tienes un nuevo planeta!

Beth Revis

3c6958e

But i don't care. Because we can say them or not; it doesn't matter. What is in our heats is real whether we name it or let it exist only in darkness and silence.

Beth Revis

bb2427d

Harley siempre ha sido asi: piensa que la ignorancia es la mejor manera de protegerse. No entiende que, a menudo, lo que nos imaginamos es peor que la verdad

Beth Revis

faaad7c

Y por un momento, le tengo envidia al Sr. William Robertson, Numero 100, quien esta flotando en un mar de estrellas.-Elder

Beth Revis

69e7388

Me detengo, tragando aire, mi corazon acelerado al maximo en mis oidos. Me estiro para alcanzar con una mano y toco la pared. Mis dedos se curvan en un puno, pero cae debilmente a mi lado. Y ahi es cuando me doy cuenta de la mas importante verdad en mi vida en esta nave. No hay lugar a donde correr.

Beth Revis

1b7e800

I've made her relive, over and over, the last few days," I say softly, watching Ms. White's body. "I've had to fill in the blanks with my own feelings and experiences. She's spiraling around those last moments, those times when she went against me, and she's feeling it from my side, the pain, the betrayal." She thinks she's awake. I'm doing to her just what she did to me. I'm making her feel what it was like to slowly go crazy, to question ..

days jadis-white relive ella-shepard the-body-electric hurting-people feeling betrayal

Beth Revis

9e58fb9

It's all in my mind. I'm in my right mind now, and my right mind is crazy. "You need to wake up, Ella." The words are a command I cannot obey."

mind in-my-mind ella-shepard wake-up crazy

Beth Revis

eb6d904

Maybe being alone in the sea, with its unexplored depths, its clawing-finger waves, really is safer compared to the land, where there are people and malice and death.

Beth Revis

e2f5312

I'm not human. I'm better.

human

Beth Revis

b3a959e

I would use the same word to describe both my joy and the rain: torrential. This--this--this is all I ever wanted from the world: wide-open spaces and cooling rain and the chance to run.

universe stars rain cooling torrential amy-martin atu-series shades-of-earth open run space

Beth Revis

3b59e5f

Or... maybe I'm not going crazy. "Maybe I'm some sort of android-cyborg-clone-thing, and I'm just breaking down. I'm not sure which way is worse. Dad laughs. "You're not in your right mind, dear," he says. "No, no, no, you're not." And then-- --Silence. Dad fades away. The reverie chair disappears. There's just blackness. I remember then that I am in the reverie of something dead. Whatever that thing was, it was dead. And, just as I'm s..

mind silence light breaking-down dreamscape reverie blackness dead crazy

Beth Revis

e6d83ee

She stops speaking, but I can hear her silent sobs. They're the loudest thing I've ever heard.

loudest sobs silent

Beth Revis

b39a693

It was to apologize, and apologizing means he remembers what happened, and that means being trapped in a nightmare that's already come true.

came-true nightmare horror

Beth Revis

98af8a4

Be fearless. Write what you want. Write how you want. Create art.

writing

Beth Revis

95bcc61

Cuando tenia catorce anos, mi padre me llevo a cazar con el, en Colorado, y mate a un alce. Lo hizo para que supiera lo que es quitar una vida, de modo que no dudara en hacerlo cuando lo necesitara. Te estoy diciendo esto ahora, de modo que sepas que no dudare en matarte.(...) Tambien quiero que sepas que no te voy a matar de inmediato. Pero vas a desear que lo hubiese hecho. -Amy

Beth Revis

baf842c

Ella!" the voice yells, but I cannot tell where it is coming from. The sound wraps around me, spreading like spilt water and then evaporating into silence."

sound water

Beth Revis