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b3ce82c
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Fear never shows up and the party ends early.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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b59c568
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The movie was very different from the book in that there was nothing from the book in the movie. Despite everything -- all the pain I felt, the betrayal -- I couldn't help but recognize a truth while sitting in that screening room. In the book everything about me had happened. The book was something I simply couldn't disavow. The book was blunt and had an honesty about it, whereas the movie was just a beautiful lie.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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8ff8d80
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The only cheese I have in the apartment is a wedge of Brie in the refrigerator and before leaving I place the entire slice--it's a really big rat--along with a sun-dried tomato and a sprinkling of dill, delicately on the trap, setting it.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f4ca6a4
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Keep everything young and soft, keep everything on the surface, even with the knowledge that the surface fades and can't be held together forever - take advantage before the expiration date appears in the nearing distance.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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cff9439
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In the movie I was played by an actor who actually looked more like me than the character the author portrayed in the book: I wasn't blond, I wasn't tan, and neither was the actor. I also suddenly became the movie's moral compass, spouting AA jargon, castigating everyone's drug use and trying to save Julian. (I'll sell my car," I warn the actor playing Julian's dealer. "Whatever it takes.") This was slightly less true of Blair's character, ..
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movies
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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c5a305b
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And later my macabre joy sours and I'm weeping for myself, unable to find solace in any of this, crying out, sobbing, "I just want to be loved," cursing the earth and everything I have been taught: principles, distinctions, choices, morals, compromises, knowledge, unity, prayer - all of it was wrong, without any final purpose."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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bb8fd32
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Danny is on my bed and depressed because Ricky was picked up by a break dancer at the Odyssey on the night of the Duran Duran look-alike contest and murdered.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f353a44
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I want to watch it again tonight even though I know I won't have enough time to masturbate over the scene where the woman is getting drilled to death by a power drill since I have a date with Courtney at seven-thirty at Cafe Luxembourg.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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676bcf2
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He wasn't, I realized when I read those scenes concerning Blair and myself, close to any of us-- except of course to Blair, and really not even to her. He was simply someone who floated through our lives and didn't seem to care how flatly he perceived everyone or that he'd shared our secret failures with the world, showcasing the youthful indifference, the gleaming nihilism, glamorizing the horror of it all. But there was no point in being ..
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jealousy
resentment
writing
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f24c976
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And later my macabre joy sours and I'm weeping for myself, unable to find solace in any of this, crying out, sobbing "I just want to be loved," cursing the earth and everything I have been taught:"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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8f85a6e
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Nu chto tebe ne vse ravno? Chto tebe nravitsia? - Nichego. Mne nichego ne nravitsia, - govoriu ia. - Ia kogda-nibud' chto nibud' dlia tebia znachila, Klei? Ia molchu, opiat' smotriu na meniu. - Ia kogda nibud' chto nibud' dlia tebia znachila? - snova sprashivaet ona. - Ia ne khochu, chtoby kto-to dlia menia chto-to znachil. Tak tol'ko khuzhe, odno lishnee bespokoistvo. Kogda nichego ne volnuet, ne tak bol'no.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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d28c5fe
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I have to return some videos,
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f5fd856
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The director mentions the whispers about Clifton's sexual orientation, a supposed gig on a porn site years ago, a rumor about a very famous actor and a tryst in Santa Barbara and Clifton's denial in a cover story about the very famous actor's new movie which Clifton had a small part in: 'We're so into girls it's ridiculous.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3393b6d
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I'm into, oh, murders and executions mostly. It depends." I shrug. "Do you like it?" she asks, unfazed. "Um ... It depends. Why?" I take a bite of sorbet. "Well, most guys I know who work in mergers and acquisitions don't really like it," she says."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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19fa661
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This was the geography around which my reality revolved: it did not occur to me, ever, that people were good or that a man was capable of change or that the world could be a better place through one's taking pleasure in a feeling or a look or a gesture, of receiving another person's love or kindness. Nothing was affirmative, the term "generosity of spirit" applied to nothing, was a cliche, was some kind of bad joke. Sex is mathematics. Indi..
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disbelief
inhuman
satire
surface
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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ff6971c
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But the thing I remember most about the screening in October twenty years ago was the moment Julian grasped my hand that had gone numb on the armrest separating our seats. He did this because in the book Julian Wells lived but in the movie's new scenario he had to die. He had to be punished for all of his sins. That's what the movie demanded. (Later, as a screenwriter, I learned it's what all movies demanded.) When this scene occurred, in t..
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screenplays
writing
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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faadc1b
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Did you know I was born in a Holiday Inn.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3fb2293
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On the TV screen in Harry's is The Patty Winters Show, which is now on in the afternoon and is up against Geraldo Rivera, Phil Donahue and Oprah Winfrey. Today's topic is Does Economic Success Equal Happiness? The answer, in Harry's this afternoon, is a roar of resounding "Definitely," followed by much hooting, the guys all cheering together in a friendly way. On the screen now are scenes from President Bush's inauguration early this year, ..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f07bf68
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On the TV screen in Harry's is The Patty Winters Show, which is now on in the afternoon and is up against Geraldo Rivera, Phil Donahue and Oprah Winfrey. Today's topic is Does Economic Success Equal Happiness? The answer, in Harry's this afternoon, is a roar of resounding "Definitely," followed by much hooting, the guys all cheering together in a friendly way. On the screen now are scenes from President Bush's inauguration early this year, ..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3f562e8
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Did I do this on purpose? What do you think? Or did I do this accidentally?
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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4bc2ed9
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Here's the dead end of social media: after you've created your own bubble that reflects only what you relate to or what you identify with, after you've blocked and unfollowed people whose opinions and worldview you judge and disagree with, after you've created your own little utopia based on your cherished values, then a kind of demented narcissism begins to warp this pretty picture. Not being able or willing to put yourself in someone else..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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d3343b1
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Descansado," he tells me. "What does that mean?" "Descansado," Rip says. "It means 'take it easy,'" he whispers, clutching the child next to him. "Yeah?" "It means relax."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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defd54c
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Haven't we outgrown all this tired irony? Weren't we supposed to give up acting twenty-two forever?
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lunar-park
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f4d51f4
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You are a fucking ugly bitch I want to stab to death and play around with your blood," but I'm smiling."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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9c9c06c
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Lover?" se asks, her voice reminding me of someone human."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f96a275
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Disappear here.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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40adb1a
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Nothing was affirmative, the term "generosity of spirit" applied to nothing, was a cliche, was some kind of bad joke. Sex is mathematics. Individuality no longer and issue. What does intelligence signify? Define reason. Desire-meaningless. Intellect is not a cure. Justice is dead. Fear, recrimination, innocence, sympathy, guilt, waste, failure, grief, were things, emotions, that no one really felt anymore. Reflection is useless, the world i..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3b15d5f
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Reflection is useless, the world is senseless. Evil is its only permanence. God is not alive. Love cannot be trusted. Surface, surface, surface was all that anyone found meaning in ... this was civilization as I saw it, colossal and jagged ...
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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1248513
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There was a song I heard when I was in Los Angeles by a local group. The song was called 'Los Angeles' and the words and images were so harsh and bitter that the song would reverberate in my mind for days. The images, I later found out, were personal and no one I knew shared them. The images I had were of people being driven mad by living in the city. Images of parents who were so hungry and unfulfilled that they ate their own children. Ima..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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351e11d
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Why not?" she asks petulantly. "Give me one good reason we shouldn't." "Because trying to fuck you is like trying to French-kiss a very ... small and ... lively gerbil?" I tell her. "I don't know." "Yes?" she says. "And?" "With braces?" I finish, shrugging."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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d059a29
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Dwelling over this loss while wandering down Central Park West somewhere around Seventy-sixth, Seventy-fifth, it strikes me profoundly that the world is more often than not a bad and cruel place.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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d955459
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Hardbody." McDermott nods in agreement. "Definitely." "I'm not impressed," Price sniffs. "Look at her knees." While the hardbody stands there we check her out, and though her knees do support long, tan legs, I can't help noticing that one knee is, admittedly, bigger than the other one. The left knee is knobbier, almost imperceptibly thicker than the right knee and this unnoticeable flaw now seems overwhelming and we all lose interest."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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10b827e
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Julian's not at the house in Bel Air, but there's a note on the door saying that he might be at some house on King's Road. Julian's not at the house on King's Road either, but some guy with braces and short platinum-blond hair and a bathing suit on lifting weights is in the backyard. He puts one of the weights down and lights a cigarette and asks me if I want a Quaalude. I ask him where Julian is. There's a girl lying by the pool on a chais..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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9eb88d7
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This is true: the world is better off with some people gone. Our lives are not all interconnected. That theory is a crock. Some people truly do not need to be here.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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55f832a
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and the sun, a planet on fire, gradually rises over Manhattan, another sunrise, and soon the night turns into day so fast its like some kind of optical illusion ...
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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1a2d6e6
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Something is turning into nothing very quickly
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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1227536
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El pasado no es real. Solo es un sueno.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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a5bd20e
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I can't disagree." I laugh weakly, walking him to the door. As he leaves I'm wondering and not wondering what happens in the world of Tim Price, which is really the world of most of us: big ideas, guy stuff, boy meets the world, boy gets it."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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89e4b70
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Confusion and hopelessness don't necessarily cause a person to act.
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hopelessness
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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2575c6a
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When Blair bites her lower lip she's eighteen again.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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4f89387
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Tim glances over at me and I avert my gaze and an imagined sense of imposed peace washes calmly over the two of us, answering my question.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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724f6c8
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On my way over to Park Avenue to find a cab I pass an ugly, homeless bum-- a member of the genetic underclass-- and when he softly pleads for change, for "anything," I noticed the Barnes & Noble book bag that sits next to him on the steps of the church he's begging on and I can't help but smirk, out loud, "Oh right, like YOU read...,"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3a0114b
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What do you think I do?" And frisky too. "A model?" She shrugs. "An actor?" "No," I say. "Flattering, but no." "Well?" "I'm into, oh, murders and executions mostly. It depends." I shrug. "Do you like it?" she asks, unfazed. "Um... It depends. Why?" I take a bit of sorbet. "Well, most guys I know who work in mergers and acquisitions don't really like it," she says. "That's not what I said," I say, adding a forced smiled, finishing my J&B. "O..
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patrick-bateman
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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5a69dde
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a drug dealer on Thirteenth Street who offers me crack and blindly I wave a fifty at him and he says "Oh, man" gratefully and shakes my hand, pressing five vials into my palm which I proceed to eat whole and the crack dealer stares at me, trying to mask his deep disturbance with an amused glare, and I grab him by the neck and croak out, my breath reeking, "The best engine is in the BMW 750iL,"
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Bret Easton Ellis |