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The album ends with "Slammin'," which has no words and it's just a lot of horns that quite frankly, if you turn it up really loud, can give you a fucking big headache and maybe even make you feel a little sick, though it might sound different on an album or on a cassette though I wouldn't know anything about that. Anyway it set off something wicked in me that lasted for days. And you cannot dance to it very well."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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there is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Back at our table Reeves is telling Hamlin about how he taunts the homeless in the streets, about how he hands a dollar to them as he approaches and then yanks it away and pockets it right when he passes the bums.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Where are we going?" I asked "I don't know," he said. "Just driving." "But this road doesn't go anywhere," I told him. "That doesn't matter." "What does?" I asked, after a little while. "Just that we're on it, dude," he said."
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Like these girls care," Price snorts. "When I tell them what my annual income is, believe me, my behavior couldn't matter less."
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I told you, dude," Van Patten says and then patiently restates his facts. "We can't get that. It's like zero zero zero point oh one percentage--"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Here's the dead end of social media: after you've created your own bubble that reflects only what you relate to or what you identify with, after you've blocked and unfollowed people whose opinions and worldview you judge and disagree with, after you've created your own little utopia based on your cherished values, then a kind of demented narcissism begins to warp this pretty picture.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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As the film historian and critic David Thomson has asked: "What are movies without male lust?"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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The horror of 9/11 represented the end of Empire, a shock that moved us out of the twentieth century's binary Cold War thinking (The center will not hold) and into a world where there was, and is, no center; our enemies are insurgent and decentralized, our media also decentralized and insurgent.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Sheen's supposed propensity for violence against women hadn't hurt his popularity with female fans either, and if anyone wants to know what that means, then that's a story for maybe fifty other books.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Everything has been degraded by what the sensory overload and the supposed freedom-of-choice technology has brought to us, and, in short, by the democratization of the arts.
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If I often wished the world were a different place, I also knew--and horror movies helped reinforce this--that it never would be, a realization that in turn led me to a mode of acceptance.
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I was afraid to try Pellegrino for the first time." She looks over at me nervously--expecting me to... what, agree?--then at McDermott, who offers her a wan, tight smile. "But once I did, it was... fine."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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The Patty Winters Show this morning was in two parts. The first was an exclusive interview with Donald Trump, the second was a report on women who've been tortured.
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There wasn't a clear, identifiable emotion within me, except for greed and possibly, total disgust. I had all the characteristics of a human being - flesh, blood, skin, hair - but my depersonalization was so intense, had gone so deep, that the normal ability to feel compassion had been eradicated, the victim of a slow, purposeful erasure. I was simply imitating reality, a rough resemblance of a human being, with only a dim corner of my mind..
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So..." Kimball looks at his book helplessly. "There's nothing you can tell me about Paul Owen?" "Well." I sigh. "He led what I suppose was an orderly life, I guess." Really stumped, I offer, "He... ate a balanced diet."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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How easy it would be to scare the living wits out of this fucking guy. Kimball is utterly unaware of how truly vacant I am. There is no evidence of animate life in this office, yet still he takes notes. By the time you finish reading this sentence, a Boeing jetliner will take off or land somewhere in the world. I would like a Pilsner Urquell.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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The office Halloween party was at the Royalton last week and I went as a mass murderer, complete with a sign painted on my back that read MASS MURDERER (which was decidedly lighter than the sandwich board I had constructed earlier that day that read DRILLER KILLER), and beneath those two words I had written in blood Yep, that's me.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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To Evelyn our relationship is yellow and blue, but to me it's a gray place, most of it blacked out, bombed, footage from the film in my head is endless shots of stone and any language heard is utterly foreign, the sound flickering away over new images: blood pouring from automated tellers, women giving birth through their assholes, embryos frozen or scrambled (which is it?), nuclear warheads, billions of dollars, the total destruction of th..
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I feel naked, suddenly tiny. My mouth tastes metallic, then it gets worse. My vision: a winter road. But I'm left with one comforting thought: I am rich--millions are not.
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I'm having a sort of hard time paying attention because my automated teller has started speaking to me, sometimes actually leaving weird messages on the screen, in green lettering, like "Cause a Terrible Scene at Sotheby's" or "Kill the President" or "Feed Me a Stray Cat," and I was freaked out by the park bench that followed me for six blocks last Monday evening and it too spoke to me. Disintegration--I'm taking it in stride."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Courtney, McDermott and I have just left a Morgan Stanley party that took place near the Seaport at the tip of Manhattan in a new club called Goldcard, which seemed like a vast city of its own and where I ran into Walter Rhodes, a total Canadian, whom I haven't seen since Exeter and who also, like McDermott, reeked of Xeryus, and I actually told him, "Listen, I'm trying to stay away from people. I'm avoiding even speaking to them," and then..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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This was what i could understand, this was how I lived my life, what I constructed my movement around, how I dealt with the tangible. This was the geography around which my reality revolved: it did not occur to me, ever, that people were good or that a man was capable of change or that the world could be a better place through one's taking pleasure in a feeling or a look or a gesture, of receiving another person's love or kindness. Nothing ..
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What is it?" I ask, opening the folded page. "It's an article on your hero, Donald Trump." McDermott grins."
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Listen," I say, my voice trembling with emotion, "have whatever you want but I'm telling you I recommend the Diet Pepsi."
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The client had the boudin blanc, the roasted chicken and the cheesecake," he says. "Cheesecake?" I say, confused by this plain, alien-sounding list. "What sauce or fruits were on the roasted chicken? What shapes was it cut into?" "None, Patrick," he says, also confused. "It was... roasted." "And the cheesecake, what flavor? Was it heated?" I say. "Ricotta cheesecake? Goat cheese? Were there flowers or cilantro in it?" "It was just... regula..
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You don't think it's"- and now she looks around the restaurant before leaning in, whispering-"AIDS?" "Oh no, nothing like that," I say, though immediately I wish I had paused long enough before answering to scare her. "Just . . . general . . . brain"--I bite the tip off an herbed breadstick and shrug--"injuries."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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I would demand to wear Ray-Ban sunglasses. Expensive Ray-Bans," I say carefully. "In fact I would demand that everyone would have to wear Ray-Ban sunglasses."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Armstrong just got back from the islands and has a very deep, very even tan, but so do I.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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On The Patty Winters Show this morning a Cheerio sat in a very small chair and was interviewed for close to an hour.
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You just said your name was Pat." "No. I was wrong," I say sternly, staring directly at him. "I was wrong about my name being Pat. My name is Marcus."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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En cuanto me di cuenta de que estaba completamente solo comprendi, solo entonces, que tenia problemas graves. Mi actitud nostalgica con respecto a la fama y las drogas -el placer de comadecerme a mi mismo- se habia transformado en tristeza y el futuro ya no me parecia ni remotamente plausible. Solamente una cosa parecia correr hacia mi: una negrura, una tumba, el final
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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Cualquiera que fuera el interes que compartian se evaporo tan rapido que parecio no haber existido en absoluto. Robby se nos acerco penosamente bajo el destello de las luces del centro comercial y de pronto me preocupo que su vida tuviera tan poco de poesia o romanticismo. Todo giraba en torno a una cotidianidad ansiosa y aburrida. Todo era una representacion
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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The topic on The Patty Winters Show this morning was Has Patrick Swayze Become Cynical or Not?
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get into Zeus Bar. Kaktus. Kaktus at nine." "But"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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People are afraid to merge on freeways in Los Angeles.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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You do an awfully good impression of yourself.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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That doesn't sound like...the Jayster.
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