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398e235
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I have a lunch meeting with Cliff Huxtable at The Four Seasons in twenty minutes anyway," I lie, standing up. "I have to go too."
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75b4868
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and before I can stop it I find myself almost dazzled and moved that I might have the capacity to accept, though not return, her love.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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it did not occur to me, ever, that people were good or that a man was capable of change or that the world could be a better place through one's taking pleasure in a feeling or a look or a gesture, of receiving another person's love or kindness. Nothing was affirmative, the term "generosity of spirit" applied to nothing, was a cliche, was some kind of bad joke."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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29679c6
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Don't tell me he was another serial killer, Bateman. Not another serial killer." "No, McDufus, he wasn't a serial killer,"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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7b97445
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I think ... you know how they say no two snowflakes are ever alike?" She nods. "Well, I don't think that's true. I think a lot of snowflakes are alike ... and I think a lot of people are alike too."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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4c84353
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The polite conversation that carried over from cocktails into dinner was so stifling that it carried a certain ruthlessness,
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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57a85b1
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It was always the A booth. It was always the front seat of the roller coaster. It was never "Let's not get the bottle of Cristal."
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lunar-park
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7e9920b
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I had to put this slim volume back into my bookshelf and drink a J&B on the rocks, followed by two Xanax, to recover from the effort.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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16b586f
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Life is full of endless possibilities." I tried valiantly not to choke on the beer nuts I was chewing while she gushed this kidney stone of wisdom,"
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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This forced you to look again at the people who raised them, coddling them with praise and trying to shield them from the grim sides of life, which might well have created children who, as adults, appeared highly confident, competent and positive but at the hint of darkness or negativity often became paralyzed and unable to react except with disbelief and tears--You just victimized me!--and retreated, in effect, into their childhood bubbles..
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nonchalant,
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e490db4
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Well, I'm sorry." I smile. "I'm having problems."
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171d797
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And though it has been in no way a romantic evening, she embraces me and this time emanates a warmth I'm not familiar with. I am so used to imagining everything happening the way it occurs in movies, visualizing things falling somehow into the shape of events on a screen, that I almost hear the swelling of an orchestra, can almost hallucinate the camera panning low around us, fireworks bursting in slow motion overhead, the seventy-millimete..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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952d571
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It moved me away from the narcissism of childhood and into the world's mysteries--the unexplained, the taboo, the other--and drew me closer to a place of understanding and acceptance.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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8dd2fd2
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We seem to have entered precariously into a kind of totalitarianism that actually abhors free speech and punishes people for revealing their true selves. In other words: the actor's dream.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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e788f5d
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Certainly, in the spring of 2013 I hadn't fucked up as many gay lives as Bill Clinton had.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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a4326e0
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It wasn't until the show was almost over that I figured out what it was: the crack above my David Onica that I had asked the doorman to tell the superintendent to fix. On my way out this morning, I stopped at the front desk, about to complain to the doorman, when I was confronted with a NEW doorman, my age but balding and homely and FAT. Three glazed jelly doughnuts AND two steaming cups of extra-dark HOT CHOCOLATE lay on the desk in front ..
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superficiality
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f6ad80b
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once you start choosing how people can and cannot express themselves then this opens the door to a very dark room in the corporation from which there's really no escape. Can't they in return police your thoughts, and then your feelings and then your impulses? And, finally, can they police, ultimately, your dream?
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ee745fc
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She's doped up watching MTV and I want to watch the goddamn MacNeil/Lehrer report.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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1c27835
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Why wasn't Donald Trump invited to your party?
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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8bd4bc2
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I mean I tell her I'm sensitive. I told her I was freaked out by the Challenger accident--what more does she want?
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3a34026
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and above the building like a backdrop is a moonless sky, which earlier, in the afternoon, was hung with clouds but tonight isn't.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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87e1a87
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and reduce the influence of political action committees.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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add16e5
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Had she ever made promises to a faithless reflection in the mirror? Had she ever cried because she hated someone so much? Had she ever craved betrayal to the point where she pushed the crudest fantasies into reality, coming up with sequences that she and nobody else could read, moving the game as you play it? Could she locate the moment she went dead inside? Does she remember the year it took to become that way? The fades, the dissolves, th..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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0c8316d
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Ted
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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0904f74
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in New Jersey this evening, an Irish band called U2 who were on the cover of Time magazine last week.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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359ff78
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Donald Trump is a big U2 fan and then, even more desperately, that John Gutfreund also buys their records.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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ee9f276
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There's a man sitting at the table next to ours whose eyes are closed very tightly. The girl he's sitting with doesn't seem to mind and picks at a salat. When the man finally opens his eyes, I'm relieved for some reason.
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Adonde vamos' --pregunte. --No lo se--dijo--. Simplemente damos una vuelta en coche. --pero esta carretera no lleva a ninguna parte--le dije. --No importa. --?Y que es lo que importa? --le pregunte al cabo de un rato. --Solo que estamos en ella, tio --dijo.
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life-quotes
road-quotes
less-than-zero
life-philosophy
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deb1add
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Vsio skhuiiobilos'.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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0f357ff
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Vecherinka v stile "zaebis'". Tol'ko nagnis', i tebia zaebut po glandy."
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and she follows you to the light at the door and says..."Hello"... and never has a second hurt and ruptured, blistered so harshly because the music's too loud and you can't hear, don't even notice, and you take her hand instead and you are both leaving."
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the-rules-of-attraction
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f69e6f0
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It was clear that this had not been my best term; it was clear that I was losing it.
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the-rules-of-attraction
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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23aa74b
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Animals need as much love and respect and care as we give people.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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7528263
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What often activated my stress was that other people were always angry about everything, presenting themselves as enraged by opinions that I believed in and liked or thought were simply innocuous. My pushback against all of this forced me to confront a degraded fantasy of myself--an actor, as someone I never thought existed--and this, in turn, became a constant reminder of my failings. And what was worse: this anger could become addictive t..
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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It's an article on your hero, Donald Trump." McDermott grins."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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4e6f110
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Feelings aren't facts and opinions aren't crimes and aesthetics still count--and the reason I'm a writer is to present an aesthetic, things that are true without always having to be factual or immutable.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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ce174a3
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The Left had become a rage machine, burning itself up: a melting blue bubble dissolving in on itself.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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902904d
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While taking a piss in the men's room, I stare into a thin, web-like crack above the urinal's handle and think to myself that if I were to disappear into that crack, say somehow miniaturize and slip into it, the odds are good that no one would notice I was gone. No ... one ... would ... care.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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3fcc781
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While taking a piss in the men's room, I stare into a thin, web-like crack above the urinal's handle and think to myself that if I were to disappear into that crack, say somehow miniaturize and slip into it, the odds are good that no one would notice I was gone. No ... one ... would ... care. In fact some, if they noticed my absence, might feel an odd, indefinable sense of relief.
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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d7368d5
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And by the way, did anyone ever tell you that you look exactly like Garfield but run over and skinned and then someone threw an ugly Ferragamo sweater over you before they rushed you to the vet? Fusilli? Olive oil on Brie?
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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9e7231f
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The Art of the Deal, by Donald Trump. "Have you read it?" I ask Kimball."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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bf6d222
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I have a lunch meeting with Cliff Huxtable at The Four Seasons in twenty minutes anyway," I lie, standing up."
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Bret Easton Ellis |
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f4d6cb7
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Love cannot be trusted. Surface, surface, surface was all that anyone found meaning in ... this was civilization as I saw it, colossal and jagged ...
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Bret Easton Ellis |