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I have one final hope, If I get double sixes, maybe he will change his mind, come back to me. As if to cast a magic spell, I blow on the dice just as Dex did...Just as it happened with our first roll, one die lands before its mate. On a six! I hold my breath. For a brief second, I see a mess of dots, and think I have boxcars again. I kneel, staring at the second die.
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I find myself wondering which is more egregious, to pretend to be happy when you're not, or to feel so consistently dissatisfied when you should be happy.
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T know what they say about secrets. I've heard it all. That they can haunt and govern you. That they can poison relationships and divide families. That in the end, only the truth will set you free.
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Emily Giffin |
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did I ever stop loving him the way you're supposed to stop loving everyone but the one you're with?
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stop
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But now I can see that there is redemption and beauty in an accident emanating from love.
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Emily Giffin |
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The list of differences was endless, but, in the end, none of them mattered. What mattered was that we completely accepted each other. That I had her back, and she had mine.
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Life was good then, I though, as I started to cry. Not so much because I missed the good times, although I did. It was more that I knew I was turning into one of those girls who, upon looking at high school photos, feels wistful.
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Emily Giffin |
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Get a load of this one... I heard that she actually thought paparazzi was the last name of one particular Italian photographer. Apparently she said something like, 'Who is this Paparazzi guy and why didn't they arrest him years ago after he killed Princess Diana?
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What's not to love' is hardly a reason to love. And the catch of your life is not the same thing as the love of your life. Be careful of that subtle but rather crucial distinction.
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Emily Giffin |
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They were all true--and still are--but were better left unsaid, just as I decided never to confess to Andy how close I came to losing everything. Instead, I hold that day deep within myself, as a reminder that love is the sum of our choices, the strength of our commitments, the ties that bind us together.
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Emily Giffin |
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Like the perfect beach vacation, where the routine is so blissfully uneventful that when you return home and friends ask how your trip was, you can't really recall what exactly you did to fill up so many hours. That's what being with Dex is like.
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So I guess what I'm trying to say is that life is fast. And it keeps speeding up. Sometimes I lose track of the season--or even the year. And we just have to make the best of it all. Our choices. Our fleeting moments together.
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It's heartbreaking when you love a book that fails. And it always seems to happen to the nicest authors.
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Emily Giffin |
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I just wonder if sheer force of will to forgive can be enough to set things right Because after all, power is one thing. Love is a different creature altogether.
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Emily Giffin |
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Whether you CAN forgive and whether you SHOULD trust.
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love
doctor
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You can't quantify love, and if you try, you can wind up focusing on misleading factors. Stuff that has really has more to do with personality- the fact that some people are simply more expressive or emotional or needy in a relationship. But beyond such smokescreens, the answer is there. Love is seldom- almost never -even proposition. Someone always loves more.
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love
love-hurts
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As I've said many times, the only way to stay trim is to eat bacon.
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Emily Giffin |
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Grief is a mystery to be lived through, not a problem to be solved,
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Emily Giffin |
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Guys aren't so different from us, I think, which no matter how many times I think it will always seem like a remarkable revelation.
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Emily Giffin |
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What's not to love' is hardly a reason to love," she says. "And the catch of your life is not the same thing as the love of your life. Be careful of that subtle but rather crucial distinction."
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love
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Emily Giffin |
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so much of how we see the world is a matter of interpretation. A matter of wishing and wanting and hoping rather than really deep-down believing.
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I'll remind you of that someday , Maura says. "when you're married to a man who once looked into your eyes and promised to forsake all others. I'll remind of that after you've just had his baby and you have postpartum depression and feel as fat as cow and you are pumping milk into a plastic containers in the middle of the night while he's running around with some twenty-two-years old named Lissette. I'll remind you of that. Maura to Jess."
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motherhood
family-life
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As of that moment, we had a secret, and having a secret--even a little one--creates a bond between two people.
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Emily Giffin |
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Why do I need to have reasons? When someone decides to have a baby, people don't go around asking what her reasons are.
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women
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It's a metaphor for life. If sports don't matter, then life doesn't matter.
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It didn't matter that we weren't much alike on paper. That I thought the best of people, and she often assumed the worst. That I was an introvert, and she could work a room like nobody I'd ever seen but her mother. That I was even-tempered, and she was moody and dramatic. That I was no frills, and she was all frills. That I loved football, and she simply tolerated it. The list of differences was endless, but, in the end, none of them matter..
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I think of how emotions seem so magnified when you're a child. Joy is more all-encompassing, disappointments more crushing, hope more palpable.
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I think my sister Daphne's obsession with having children has a lot to do with wanting to erase the pain my mother caused. On one level, Daphne's approach makes more sense. Yet the thought of a redo is not only unappealing, but terrifying. I don't want that kind of power over anyone. I don't want to be something that someone has to overcome. After all, I think everyone would agree that it's far worse to be a fucked-up mother than it is to h..
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They both continue to stare at each other, expressionless, motionless, in the weirdest standoff I've ever seen almost as if they're calling the other's bluff. It is the way you'd look at a perfect stranger, although if they were actually strangers someone would break down and exchange a pleasantry after such prolonged eye contact. I start to wonder if maybe I shouldn't reintroduce my own parents.
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I certainly never felt rejected because they had given me up. My parents knew nothing about my birth mother, yet always explained with certainty that she didn't "give me up" or "give me away" - she made a plan for me, the best one she could make under her circumstances, whatever those were."
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Of course she knows that I will not join her. I have never danced on a bar. I wouldn't know what to do up there besides fall.
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Emily Giffin |
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But maybe that's what it all comes down to. Love, not as a surge of passion, but as a choice to commit to something, someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way. And maybe making that choice, again and again, day in and day out, year after year, says more about love than never having a choice to make at all.
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Their collective advice: don't settle. Keep looking. Find Mr. Right. That is what they all did. And by God, I think they believe it. Because nobody who marries at the ripe age of twenty-three can be settling. Naturally. That is a phenomenon that only happens to women in their thirties.
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women
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Emily Giffin |
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Everyone has issues. And at the end of the day...you are who you are.
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Emily Giffin |
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When you wanted to savor something, it would speed by in a blur. When you wanted to get past something, it would drag on forever. Elaine
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Emily Giffin |
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Love made things feel precarious, and, when you got right down to it, everything in life was tenuous and fleeting and ultimately tragic.
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Emily Giffin |
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and more important, did he love me as much as he once loved me?
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love
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Emily Giffin |
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I'm far from fat, but her using me as a sounding board on this topic is like me complaining to a blind woman that I have to wear contacts.
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Emily Giffin |
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Much later, she would go back and read the entry, and think to herself that memories were that way, too. When you wanted to forget, everything would return in raw, brutal focus. When you wanted to remember, the details would slip away like a dream at dawn.
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Emily Giffin |
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evident in every small act of kindness. It was love as a verb, as Rachel used to say. Love that made me more patient, more loyal, and stronger. Love that made me feel more complete than I had ever felt in my glamorous, Jimmy Choo-filled past.
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Emily Giffin |
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Being around people didn't make me uneasy, I just preferred to be alone most of the time.
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Emily Giffin |
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knowing that I would belong to him for as long as he wanted to keep me. And, as it turned out, even longer than that.
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Emily Giffin |
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The surprise element of her betrayal was what burned me the most. The fact that I never saw it coming.
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Emily Giffin |
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Life isn't always fun, and is almost never easy,
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