07cfcf4
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It was her birthday. She thought, I am always unhappy on this day.
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the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
unhappy
birthday
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Iris Murdoch |
324b71e
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"I feel I'm at the end of something -- everything is going to be different -- and terrible." "That doesn't sound like you, you ride every wave." "There is one that will drown me."
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metaphor
the-end
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
giving-up
dialogue
resilience
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Iris Murdoch |
8639c6b
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One might have all sorts of reasons for avoiding people. It's none of our business.
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reclusive
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
avoidance
misanthropic
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Iris Murdoch |
9aa16a7
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What greater torment than to see that light, and then to see it eternally withdrawn?
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light
the-green-knight
withdrawal
torment
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Iris Murdoch |
2e6cc27
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Eccentrics with unseeing eyes glided through, savouring amid so much society their own particular loneliness and private sins and sorrows.
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loneliness
eccentrics
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
sins
sorrows
society
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Iris Murdoch |
f2e104d
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Don't tease me. Everything wounds me now except perfect kindness.
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kindness
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
teasing
sensitive
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Iris Murdoch |
0882153
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"In a century or two this planet will have been destroyed by external cosmic forces or by the senseless activity of the human race. Human life is a freak phenomenon, soon to be blotted out. That is a consoling thought. Meanwhile we are surrounded by strange invisible entities, possibly your angels." "I hope so." "Ah, you think they are good, they be good, there is no good, the tendency to evil is overwhelming. One has only to think of the horrors of sex, its violence, its cruelty, its filthy vulgarity, its descent into bestial degradation. You had better go and dream in your monastery." "Would you come and visit me there?" "Of course not. I do not visit. Only, unfortunately, am sometimes visited." "You don't want to discuss -- you know -- what happened? My priest said -- " "No." "I care about how you are, I love you." "You still fail to realise how this sort of talk sickens me. Now please go. This will do for a welcome home scene. Tell them not to come. I desire to be left alone."
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relationship
humor
misanthrope
recluse
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
end-of-the-world
pessimistic
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Iris Murdoch |
6388a0b
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We shall meet, but as strangers. It is the end of an era. A whole part of my life is torn away.
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the-end-of-an-era
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
parting
strangers
separation
sad
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Iris Murdoch |
25e3de8
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How easily one is hurt. Or is it only I who am so stupidly vulnerable.
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the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
sensitive
vulnerable
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Iris Murdoch |
66bc4be
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Beyond her declaration of love she could not see. But as she rehearsed the intensity of her passion she thought that he , when the time came, . The desire to, at the right time, him became, as the years moved forward toward that time, increasingly painful, like a poisoned wound that must heal itself by breaking open. She thought in anguish of the times, the recent times, when she could have told him, and had been afraid to, and had clumsily withdrawn, when she could have attracted him and drawn his attention to her. When she had watched over him when he was sleeping in the sedan-chair and could have wakened him with a kiss. If only she had , then she could more easily have borne his not preferring her. He was ready to fall in love -- and if he had -- he must have loved her -- if he had known how much she loved him. The pain of this loss burnt her in every waking moment, that awful 'if only'. She had lost him, and lost him through her own fault. There were no more pleasures now in life.
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loss
suffering
if-only
missed-chance
missed-opportunity
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
unspoken
unrequited-love
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Iris Murdoch |
d2a31ee
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You see, I'm not mad, I suffer from depression. It's not like ordinary misery. It's like dying of boredom. It's .
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madness
depression
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
misery
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Iris Murdoch |
2061f9a
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He said, 'Forgive me for being a liar and a fool and an utterly worthless man.' Louise replied, 'I love you.' He took her in his arms for a moment and they held each other with closed eyes.
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tender
embrace
declaration-of-love
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
unconditional-love
confession
dialogue
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Iris Murdoch |
38b41d8
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He suffers terribly all the time. He lives in fire.
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metaphor
suffering
endless-suffering
relentless
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
torture
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Iris Murdoch |
0886c53
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I have no close friends, that is, no friends.
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friends
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
isolated
friendless
lonely
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Iris Murdoch |
267eb88
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So was she on the side of dragons and indifferent to the fate of princesses?
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fairy-tales
princesses
tropes
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
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Iris Murdoch |
6f2422b
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Our planet is a freak which we shall destroy by our own wicked senseless activities in the next century. Our history will very soon come to an end. Now that God is dead, we are at last presented with the truth, yes, the truth remains, but it is on a short lead. Anyway, we are nothing and it matters not what we do.
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the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
end-of-the-world
pessimistic
meaningless
nihilism
doomsday
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Iris Murdoch |
0e5eab1
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Bellamy found simply a task of amazing difficulty. It was as if ordinary human life were a mobile machine full of holes, crannies, spaces, apertures, fissures, cavities, lairs, into one of which Bellamy was required to (and indeed desired to) fit himself. The machine moved slowly, resembling a train, or sometimes a merry-go-round. But as soon as Bellamy got on (or got in), the machine would soon eject him, sending him spinning back to a where he was once more forced to be a . Perhaps, that was in some mysterious sense his place, his . But Bellamy did not want to be a spectator, nor could he (having no money of his own) afford to be one. Moreover he had never really mastered the art, apparently so simple for others, of . His failure to find a metier, to find a task which was task, caused him continuous anxiety, nor did it occur to him to emulate the majority of mankind who positively resigned themselves, seeing no alternative, to alien and unsatisfying work. At one time he had suffered from depression, and was nearer to despair than his friends realised.
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depression
work
left-out
place-in-the-world
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
spectator
despair
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Iris Murdoch |
36261b7
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I took him for a kind of buffoon. Now I see he is a devil.
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first-impression
underestimated
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
enemy
devil
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Iris Murdoch |
f0bf99e
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She felt intense disappointment, even a kind of guilt, as if she had missed something, perhaps forever. He had been there, she could have spoken to him. Could she call out now, cry his name? It was impossible.
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missed-chances
finality
missed-opportunity
the-green-knight
iris-murdoch
guilt
sad
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Iris Murdoch |
209a32c
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Nothing will bring me peace except revenge.
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revenge
the-green-knight
peace
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Iris Murdoch |