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8d9a36d
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Frank Curry thinks I'm a soft touch. Might be because I'm a woman. Might be because I'm a soft touch.
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Gillian Flynn |
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963af41
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It sounded artificial, like a beauty contestant pledging world peace.
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Gillian Flynn |
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00191d2
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And people loved me. I was no longer the pity case (with, how weird, the dead sister). I was the pretty girl (with, how sad, the dead sister). And so I was popular.
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Gillian Flynn |
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ce20d4f
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People behaved mostly well and then they died.
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Gillian Flynn |
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15ff8e7
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He killed my soul, which should be a crime. Actually, it is a crime. According to me, at least.
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Gillian Flynn |
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d2b13c4
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I was never really on my side in any argument. I liked the Old Testament spitefulness of the phrase got what she deserved.
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Gillian Flynn |
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0430e23
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My mother said she was the most popular girl in school, and I believed it. Jackie said she was the meanest, and I believed that, too.
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Gillian Flynn |
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972a9c0
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That's what I did, though--I had angry, defensive conversations in my head, got mad at things that hadn't even happened yet. Yet.
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Gillian Flynn |
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334a199
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They have no harsh edges with each other, no spiny conflicts, they ride through life like conjoined jellyfish - expanding and contracting instinctively, filling each other's spaces liquidly.
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Gillian Flynn |
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f891a62
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As we move forward with the investigation, we can only hope that Amy comes back to us. Her story must continue. The world is ready for a new chapter.
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Gillian Flynn |
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bb2cd22
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So there it came, out of nowhere, as Rand begged for his daughter's return: a killer smile.
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Gillian Flynn |
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23c2575
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People love talking, and I have never been a huge talker. I carry on an inner monologue, but the words often don't reach my lips. She looks nice today, I'd think, but somehow it wouldn't occur to me to say it out loud.
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Gillian Flynn |
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50381a0
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I thought being home might do you good, but ... I forget sometimes parents aren't always ... good for their kids.
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Gillian Flynn |
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b87f82a
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Adora changed her color scheme from peach to yellow. She promised me she'd take me to the fabric store so I can make new coverings to match. This dollhouse is my fancy." She almost made it sound natural, . The words floated out of her mouth sweet and round like butterscotch, murmured with just a tilt of her head, but the phrase was definitely my mother's. Her little doll, learning to speak just like Adora. "Looks like you do a very good j..
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families
insecurity
parental-approval
scary-houses
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Gillian Flynn |
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2e1dfd3
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That was pure, dumb Cool Girl bullshit. What a cunt. Again, I don't get it: If you let a man cancel plans or decline to do things for you, you lose. You don't get what you want. It's pretty clear. Sure, he may be happy, he may say you're the coolest girl ever, but he's saying it because he got his way. He's calling you a Cool Girl to fool you! That's what men do: They try to make it sound like you are the Cool Girl so you will bow to their ..
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Gillian Flynn |
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e13f875
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We called them Tonys, because my dad was named Tony and he could never say no to anyone (although I assume he said no to my mom at least once, when she asked him to stay).
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Gillian Flynn |
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e683a76
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I could feel the night hanging on me like a soft, damp bedgown
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Gillian Flynn |
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a81f3e8
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Can you imagine, finally showing your true self to your spouse, your soul mate, and having him not like you?
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gone-girl
marriage
messed-up
sad-but-true
thriller
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Gillian Flynn |
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7bb2175
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She called me Nerdy because I wore glasses and read books and ate yogurt on my lunch break. I'm not really a nerd: I only aspire to be one. Because of the high-school-dropout thing, I'm a self-didact. (Not a dirty word, look it up.) I read constantly. I think. But I lack formal education. So I'm left with the feeling that I'm smarter than everyone around me but that if I ever got around really smart people - people who went to universities ..
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Gillian Flynn |
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67a4237
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He promised to take care of me, and yet I feel afraid. I feel like something is going wrong, very wrong, and that it will get even worse.
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Gillian Flynn |
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71b5efd
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Well, a little girl is more likely to trust a person who reminds her of her momma, right?" Depends on what her momma's like, I thought."
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Gillian Flynn |
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3d91fc5
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People are strange
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mystery-thriller
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Gillian Flynn |
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78c9257
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She tried to speak; her mouth opened, once, twice, silent, a mermaid washed ashore.
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Gillian Flynn |
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9e502bb
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Amy's story could have gone a million other ways, but she met me, and bad things happened.
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Gillian Flynn |
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9b7cb02
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You know how people sometimes say they have to hurt because if they don't, they're so numb they won't feel anything?
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Gillian Flynn |
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c8ef0cf
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But one day I will wear him down, I will catch him off guard, and he will lose the energy for the nightly battle, and he will get in bed with me. In the middle of the night, I'll turn to face him and press myself against him. I'll hold myself to him like a climbing, coiling vine until I have invaded every part of him and made him mine.
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Gillian Flynn |
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2e7b99a
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Every tragedy that happens in the world happens to my mother, and this more than anything about her turns my stomach. She worries over people she's never met who have a spell of bad chance. She cries over news from across the globe. It's all too much for her, the cruelty of human beings.
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Gillian Flynn |
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1eaf1ca
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You don't ever want to be the wife who keeps her husband from playing poker.
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Gillian Flynn |
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e636f00
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I walk a loop around the neighborhood, waiting for Nick to appear, to guide me back to our house. The rain spackles me gently, dampening me. I really believe Nick will come after me. I turn toward the house and see only a closed door.
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Gillian Flynn |
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a25dddf
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Women get consumed. Not surprising, considering the sheer amount of traffic a woman's body experiences. Tampons and speculums. Cocks, fingers, vibrators and more, between the legs, from behind, in the mouth. Men love to put things inside women, don't they?
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Gillian Flynn |
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6e1a2ca
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He is learning to love me unconditionally, under all my conditions. I think we are finally on our way to happiness. I have finally figured it out.
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Gillian Flynn |
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797ac71
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I'd always liked our inside jokes the best--they made me feel more connected to Amy than any amount of confessional truth-telling or passionate lovemaking or talk-till-sunrising.
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Gillian Flynn |
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00be208
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My story for the day was a limp sort of evil.
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Gillian Flynn |
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4a4f9ce
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I've always thought I could commit the perfect murder. People who get caught get caught because they don't have patience; they refuse to plan.
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Gillian Flynn |
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8aa4748
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In a few years you may find a Starbucks, which will bring the town what it yearns for: prepackaged, preapproved mainstream hipness.
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Gillian Flynn |
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ac267f8
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Sometimes when you let people do things to you, you're really doing it to them
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Gillian Flynn |
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4f030b0
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And when I picture his mind, I hear my name as a shy crystal ping that occurs once, maybe twice, a day and quickly subsides. I just wish he thought about me as much as I do him.
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Gillian Flynn |
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c810799
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My mother had always told her kids: If you're about to do something, and you want to know if it's a bad idea, imagine seeing it printed in the paper for all the world to see.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I waited patiently--years--for the pendulum to swing the other way, for men to start reading Jane Austen, learn how to knit, pretend to love cosmos, organize scrapbook parties, and make out with each other while we leer. And then we'd say, Yeah, he's a Cool Guy. But it never happened. Instead, women across the nation colluded in our degradation!
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Gillian Flynn |
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81eaf15
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Sleep is like a cat: It only comes to you if you ignore it. I
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Gillian Flynn |
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8c17eee
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Back in grade school, my shrinks tried to channel my viciousness into a constructive outlet, so I cut things with scissors. Heavy, cheap fabrics Diane bought by the bolt. I sliced through them with old metal shears going up and down: . The soft growl of the fabrics as I sliced it apart, and that perfect last moment, when your thumb is getting sore and your shoulders hurt from hunching and cut, cut, cut... free, the fabric now swaying in tw..
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confusion
fabric
hate
life
school
therapy
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Gillian Flynn |
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3bc07c5
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She hummed to herself because she was an unrivaled botcher of lyrics. When we were first dating, a Genesis song came on the radio: "She seems to have an invisible touch, yeah." And Amy crooned instead, "She takes my hat and puts it on the top shelf." When I asked her why she'd ever think her lyrics were remotely, possibly, vaguely right, she told me she always thought the woman in the song truly loved the man because she put his hat on the ..
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Gillian Flynn |
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Amy. Please." He has that look, like I am being unreasonable, like he is so sure I am being unreasonable that I wonder if I am."
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Gillian Flynn |
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ea2374f
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Sometimes when you let people do things to you, you're really doing it to them.
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Gillian Flynn |