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Do you ever feel like bad things are going to happen, and you can't stop them? You can't do anything, you just have to wait?
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Gillian Flynn |
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I've had the blues for twenty-four years.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Hell, at this point, I can't imagine my story without Amy. She is my forever antagonist. We are one long frightening climax.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I knew I liked her then, really liked her, this girl with an explanation for everything.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It was one of those moments where you saved me, you made me laugh at just the right time.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Depression to me is urine yellow. Washed out, exhausted miles of weak piss.
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Gillian Flynn |
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And then you run into Nick Dunne on the Seventh Avenue as you're buying diced cantaloupe, and pow, you are known, you are recognized, the both of you. You both find the exact same things worth remembering (Just one olive, though.) You have the same rhythm. Click. You just know each other. All of a sudden you see reading in bed and waffles on Sunday and laughing at nothing and his mouth on yours. And it's so far beyond fine that you know you..
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Gillian Flynn |
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Amy! My God! My God! My darling!' and buried my face in her neck, my arms wrapped tight around her, and let the cameras get their fifteen seconds, and I whispered deep inside her ear, 'You fucking bitch.
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bitch
revenge
spoilers
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Gillian Flynn |
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My twin, Go. I've said this phrase so many times, it has become a reassuring mantra instead of actual words: Mytwingo. We were born in the '70s, back when twins were rare, a bit magical: cousins of the unicorn, siblings of the elves. We even have a dash of twin telepathy. Go is truly the one person in the entire world I am totally myself with. I don't feel the need to explain my actions to her. I don't clarify, I don't doubt, I don't worry...
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Gillian Flynn |
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A veces sienta bien joder a alguien. En vez de que siempre lo jodan a uno
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Gillian Flynn |
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It was enough to be near her and hear her talk, it didn't always matter what she was saying. It should have, but it didn't.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Everyone has their own version of a memory,
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Gillian Flynn |
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My body was heading into a flare. I paced a bit, tried to remember how to breathe right, how to calm my skin. But it blared at me. Sometimes my scars have a mind of their own.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Danish. I'd come to believe there was no food more depressing than Danish, a pastry that seemed stale upon arrival.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It's not easy, pairing yourself off with someone forever. It's an admirable thing, and I'm glad you're both doing it, but, boy-oh-girl-oh, there will be days you wish you'd never done it. And those will be the good times, when it's only days of regret and not months.
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Gillian Flynn |
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0401bf8
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You're sexist. I'm so sick of liberal lefty men practicing sexual discrimination under the guise of protecting women against sexual discrimination.
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liberals
sexual-discrimination
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Gillian Flynn |
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Because I realized I'd be stuck doing all the hard stuff," she reasoned. "All the diapers and doctors' appointments and discipline, and you'd just breeze in and be Fun Daddy. I'd do all the work to make them good people, and you'd undo it anyway, and they'd love you and hate me."
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Gillian Flynn |
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I always feel sad for the girl that I was, because it never occurred to me that my mother might comfort me. She has never told me she loved me, and I never assumed she did. She tended to me. She administrated me.
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mothers
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Gillian Flynn |
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So are there any asshole guys here I can start dating?' she says. 'That's, like, my pattern.
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dating
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Gillian Flynn |
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It seemed like a joke, how much all of these dudes looked alike, like living was so hard it just erased your features, rubbed out anything distinctive.
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Gillian Flynn |
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He Giving Treed me out of existence.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I just want to live until I can't anymore," she said."
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Gillian Flynn |
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We named the bar The Bar. "People will think we're ironic instead of creatively bankrupt," my sister reasoned. Yes, we thought we were being clever New Yorkers - that the name was a joke no one else would really get, like we did. Not meta-get ... But our first customer, a gray-haired woman in bifocals and a pink jogging suit, said, "I like the name. Like in Breakfast at Tiffany's and Audrey Hepburn's cat was named Cat."
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audrey-hepburn
bar
bars
breakfast-at-tiffany-s
cat
drinking
failure
irony
loss
new-beginnings
new-yorkers
snobs
the-recession
vanity
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Gillian Flynn |
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You do realize, that if you actually dated her, saw her on a regular basis, lived with her, that she would find some fault with you, right? That she would find some things about you that drove her crazy. That she'd make demands of you that you wouldn't like. That she'd get angry at you?
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Gillian Flynn |
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She released her grievances like handfuls of birdseed: They are there, and they are gone.
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black-heart
evil
gone
grief
grieving
heartless
malicious
nothing
release
sadist
sadistic
self-obsessed
self-obsession
stoic
unimportant
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Gillian Flynn |
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I like to think I am confident and secure and mature enough to know Nick loves me without him constantly proving it. I don't need pathetic dancing monkey scenarios to repeat to my friends, I am content with letting him be himself. I don't know why women find that so hard.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The midwest is full of these types of people. The nice enoughs but with a soul made of plastic. Easy to mold, easy to wipe down. The woman's entire music collection is formed from Pottery Barn compilations. Her books shelves are stocked with coffee table crap The Irish in America, Mizzou Football - A History in Pictures, We Remember 911, something dumb with kittens. I knew I needed a pliant friend for my plan, someone I could load up with a..
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superficiality
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Gillian Flynn |
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But I wasn't a well-read bookworm; I was just a dumb whore in the right library.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Sometimes it feels good to fuck with something. Instead of always being fucked with.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I will find you, Amy. Lovesick words, hateful intentions.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Feeling sad means having too much time on your hands, usually. Really. I'm not a licensed therapist but usually it means too much time.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I am fat with love! Husky with ardor! Morbidly obese with devotion! A happy, busy bumblebee of marital enthusiasm. I positively hum around him, fussing and fixing. I have become a strange thing. I have become a wife. I find myself steering the ship of conversations- bulkily, unnaturally- just so I can say his name aloud. I have become a wife, I have become a bore, I have been asked to forfeit my Independent Young Feminist card. I don't care..
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Gillian Flynn |
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The phrase fuck you may not rest on the tip of my tongue, but it's near. Midtongue.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It's all too much for her, the cruelty of human beings.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Nick Dunne took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. That's murder.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Worse, I convinced myself our tragedy was entirely her making. I spent years working myself into the very thing I swore she was: a righteous ball of hate.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I'm not good at things like that: haircuts or oil changes or dentist visits. When I moved into my bungalow, I spent the first three months swaddled in blankets because I couldn't deal with getting the gas turned on. It's been turned off three times in the past few years, because sometimes I can't quite bring myself to write a check. I have trouble maintaining.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It was that summer, too, that I began the cutting, and was almost as devoted to it as to my newfound loveliness. I adored tending to myself, wiping a shallow red pool of my blood away with a damp washcloth to magically reveal, just above my naval: queasy. Applying alcohol with dabs of a cotton ball, wispy shreds sticking to the bloody lines of: perky. I had a dirty streak my senior year, which I later rectified. A few quick cuts and cunt be..
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words
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Gillian Flynn |
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You just want an excuse to stay,' she whispered. 'You two, you're fucking addicted to each other. You are literally going to be a nuclear family, you do know that? You will explode. You will fucking detonate. You really think you can possibly do this for, what, the next eighteen years? You don't think she'll kill you ?
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Gillian Flynn |
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Who would I be without Amy to react to? Because she was right: As a man, I had been my most impressive when I loved her -- and I was my next best self when I hated her.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The good stuff in me I got from my mom. I can joke, I can laugh, I can tease, I can celebrate and support and praise - I can operate in sunlight, basically - but I can't deal with angry or tearful women.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I'm just tired of people judging me because I fit into a certain mold.
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judging
mold
prejudice
stereotypes
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Gillian Flynn |
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Love should require both partners to be very best at all times.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Should I remove my soul before I come inside?
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Gillian Flynn |