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I have one memory that catches in me like a nasty clump of blood. Marian was dead about two years, and my mother had a cluster of friends over for afternoon drinks. One of them brought a baby. For hours, the child was cooed over, smothered with red-lipstick kisses, tidied up with tissues, then lipstick smacked again. I was supposed to be reading in my room, but I sat at the top of the stairs watching. My mother finally was handed the baby,..
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Gillian Flynn |
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That night at the Brooklyn party, I was playing the girl who was in style, the girl a man like Nick wants: the Cool Girl. Men always say that as the defining compliment, don't they? She's a cool girl. Being the Cool Girl means I am a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes, and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes and anal sex, and jams hot dogs and hamburgers into her mouth like sh..
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Gillian Flynn |
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That night at the Brooklyn party, I was playing the girl who was in style, the girl a man like Nick wants: the Cool Girl. Men always say that as the defining compliment, don't they? She's a cool girl. Being the Cool Girl means I am a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes, and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes and anal sex, and jams hot dogs and hamburgers into her mouth like sh..
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Ask daha iyi bir adam olma istegi yaratir. Dogru bu, dogru. Ama belki ask, gercek ask ayni zamanda oldugum adam olmama da izin veriyordur.
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türkçe
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Gillian Flynn |
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d4c7f17
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And I don't know, you're at that age, if a bunch of grownups are telling you something or encouraging you, it just ... it started to feel real. That Ben had molested me, because otherwise, why were all these adults trying to get me to say he had? And my parents would be all stern: It's OK to tell the truth. It's OK to tell the truth. And so you told the lie that they thought was the truth.
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Gillian Flynn |
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a7e9157
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What does it do to a girl who knows her mother is a murderer?
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Gillian Flynn |
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707af97
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What an indulgence it would be, to just blow off my head, all my mean spirits disappearing with a gun blast, like blowing a seedy dandelion apart.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I need to be ambushed, caught unawares, like some sort of feral love-jackal. I'm too self-conscious otherwise.
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Gillian Flynn |
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2669d6e
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I know I am right not to settle,
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Gillian Flynn |
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668efa7
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Worries find you easily enough without inviting them. With Diane, worries were almost physical beings, leechy creatures with latchhooks for fingers, meant to be vanquished immediately. Diane didn't worry, that was for less hearty women.
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Gillian Flynn |
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a5d913f
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But I lack formal education. So I'm left with the feeling that I'm smarter than everyone around me but that if I ever got around really smart people--people who went to universities and drank wine and spoke Latin--that they'd be bored as hell by me. It's a lonely way to go through life.
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Gillian Flynn |
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04950df
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We just want you to be happy.' Rand and Marybeth said that all the time, but they never explained how. So many lessons and opportunities and advantages, and they never taught me how to be happy.
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Gillian Flynn |
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b6b06c9
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She'd used the treasure hunt to take me on a tour of all my infidelities.
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Gillian Flynn |
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64017f0
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Nothing had consequence, I was living in the moment and I could feel myself getting shallower and dumber.
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Gillian Flynn |
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9323364
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I'm not someone who can be depended on five days a week. Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday? I don't even get out of bed five days in a row--I often don't remember to eat five days in a row.
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Gillian Flynn |
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ee2d4ad
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This was my eleventh lie.
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Gillian Flynn |
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4314a00
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If you were chopping up hookers or eating runaways, you'd try to look normal.
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Gillian Flynn |
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d424c93
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asi fue como aparecio, de la nada, mientras Rand rogaba por el regreso de su hija: una sonrisa de asesino.
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Gillian Flynn |
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7cfd3f6
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Arkadaslar birbirlerinin kusurlarini gorur. Eslerse birbirlerinin en kuytu kusurlarini bilir.
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türkçe
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Gillian Flynn |
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e595df2
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We were the first human beings who would never see anything for the first time. We stare at the wonders of the world, dull-eyed, underwhelmed. Mona Lisa, the Pyramids, the Empire State Building. Jungle animals on attack, ancient icebergs collapsing, volcanoes erupting. I can't recall a single amazing thing I have seen firsthand that I didn't immediately reference to a movie or TV show. A fucking commercial. You know the awful singsong of th..
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Gillian Flynn |
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ba065a0
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Writers (my kind of writers: aspiring novelists, ruminative thinkers, people whose brains don't work quick enough to blog or link or tweet, basically old, stubborn blowhards) were through. We were like women's hat makers or buggy-whip manufacturers: Our time was done.
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writing
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Gillian Flynn |
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5857c24
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She was clearly rich. Her handbag was too plain to be anything but incredibly expensive.
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Gillian Flynn |
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a708af5
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Remember that game you always played with Mom when we were little: I smacked Go? I robbed a bank? I killed someone?' I said nothing. My breath was coming too fast. 'I would still love you,' Go said. 'Go, do you really need me to say it?' She stayed silent. 'I did not kill Amy.' She stayed silent. 'Do you believe me?' I asked. 'I love you.
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Gillian Flynn |
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51929e2
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Everywhere felt like a jail now- doors opening and closing, and me never feeling safe.
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Gillian Flynn |
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7f8827f
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Nick and I, we sometimes laugh, laugh out loud, at the horrible things women make their husbands do to prove their love. The pointless tasks, the myriad sacrifices, the endless small surrenders. We call these men the dancing monkeys.
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Gillian Flynn |
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92792a7
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Everywhere I go is the river. I'm following it or it's following me.
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Gillian Flynn |
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ace9197
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Good catch," Tanner said. "Next time do it before it comes out of your mouth."
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Gillian Flynn |
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ffd12ab
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There might be a space too, for this. The feel of killing, there might be an empty spot just waiting to be filled.
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Gillian Flynn |
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1c39b1d
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I don't feel like a person at all: I am something to be loaded and unloaded, like a sofa or a cuckoo clock. I am something to be tossed into a junkyard, thrown into the river, if necessary. I don't feel real anymore. I feel like I could disappear.
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dissapear
feelings
people
real
thrown-away
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Gillian Flynn |
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cc6ab17
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And I think, "I'm so fucking lonely". I go home and cry for a while. I am almost 32. That's not old especially in New York. But the fact is it has been years since I even liked someone. So how likely is it I'll meet someone I love enough to marry? I'm tired of not knowing who I'll be with, or if I'll be with anyone."
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relationships
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Gillian Flynn |
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65645ba
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The climax is when you are taught the lesson that Punch never learns, and you are caught and charged with murder.
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Gillian Flynn |
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d348275
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The truth is malleable; you just need to pick the right expert.
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Gillian Flynn |
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321c0c2
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Every morning she'd crick herself down onto the flimsy rug by her bed and pray, but it was actually a promise: Today I won't yell, I won't cry, I won't clench up into a ball like I am waiting for a blow to level me. I will enjoy today. She might make it to lunch before she went sour.
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Gillian Flynn |
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745f5c4
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Diary Amy. She was meant to be likable. Meant for someone like you to like her. She's easy to like. I've never understood why that's considered a compliment--that just anyone could like you. No matter.
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Gillian Flynn |
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8b50359
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January was the season for house robberies and violence. Christmas was over, and the new year just reminded you of how little your life had changed, and man, people got angry in January.
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Gillian Flynn |
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fce6327
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They were women not strong enough or smart enough to leave. Women without imagination. So they stayed in Wind Gap and played their teenage lives on an endless loop.
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Gillian Flynn |
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6410a8d
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Your health is not a debt you just cancel. The body collects, Camille.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It requires discipline, to drown oneself, but I have discipline in spades. My body may never be discovered, or it may resurface weeks, months, later--eroded to the point that my death can't be time-stamped--and I will provide a last bit of evidence to make sure Nick is marched to the padded cross, the prison table where he'll be pumped with poison and die.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I always feel sad for the girl that i was, because it never occurred to me that my mother might comfort me.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Nick and I, we sometimes laugh, laugh out loud, at the horrible things women make their husbands do to prove their love. The pointless tasks, the myriad sacrifices, the endless small surrenders. We call these men the dancing monkeys. Nick will come home, sweaty and salty and beer-loose from a day at the ballpark,and I'll curl up in his lap, ask him about the game, ask him if his friend Jack had a good time, and he'll say, 'Oh, he came down ..
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love
marriage
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Gillian Flynn |
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3f3cc64
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I was not a lovable child, and I'd grown into a deeply unlovable adult. Draw a picture of my soul, and it'd be a scribble with fangs.
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Gillian Flynn |
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0d9483e
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I carry an inner monologue, but the words often don't reach my lips
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Gillian Flynn |
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I never worked holidays, because holiday hand jobs are sad for everyone.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It was a punishing whim on my part, a nasty, selfish twist of the knife.
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Gillian Flynn |