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Plus, there was Amma and her mysterious friendliness toward me. I hated to admit it, but I was becoming obsessed with the girl.
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See, when Amy likes you, when she's interested in you, her attention is so warm and reassuring and entirely enveloping. Like a warm bath." "You feel good about yourself. Completely good, for maybe the first time. And then she sees your flaws, she realizes you're just another regular person she has to deal with--you are, in actuality, Able Andy, and in real life, Able Andy would never make it with Amazing Amy. So her interest fades, and you ..
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I often don't say things out loud, even when I should. I contain and compartmentalize to a disturbing degree: In my belly-basement are hundreds of bottles of rage, despair, fear, but you'd never guess from looking at me.
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Gillian Flynn |
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You were always so willful, never sweet.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Teeth chattering and my heartbeat thumping behind my eyeballs.
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Gillian Flynn |
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You fucking bitch you fucking bitch you fucking bitch. Come home so I can kill you.
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Gillian Flynn |
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We had no clue that we were embarking on careers that would vanish within a decade.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It had gotten to the point where it seemed like nothing matters, because I'm not a real person and neither is anyone else. I would have done anything to feel real again.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It's a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an endless automat of characters. And if all of us are play-acting, there can be no such thing as a soul mate, because we don't have genuine souls.
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soulmates
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He doesn't talk to me, he behaves as if the act of talking physically pains him and
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Gillian Flynn |
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Camille, do you ever feel like bad things are going to happen, and you can't stop them? You can't do anything, you just have to wait?
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feel
happen
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Because I feel sorry for you.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I felt no particular allegiance to the town. This was the place my sister died, the place I started cutting myself. A town so suffocating and small, you tripped over people you hated every day. People who knew things about you. It's the kind of place that leaves a mark.
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Gillian Flynn |
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the urgent hopefulness of a seriously underdog politician with a lot of true believers refusing to give up.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Don't screw up, you are Amazing Amy. Our only one. There is an unfair responsibility that comes with being an only child--you grow up knowing you aren't allowed to disappoint, you're not even allowed to die. There isn't a replacement toddling around; you're it. It makes you desperate to be flawless, and it also makes you drunk with the power. In such ways are despots made.
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Gillian Flynn |
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You know: River Valley Printworks. On the edge of town? They made those blue books you used for essays and shit in college." "Oh. I didn't know." "Now colleges use computers, whatnot, so--phwet!--bye-bye, Blue Book Boys."
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You know how people sometimes say they have to hurt because if they don't, they're so numb they won't feel anything?" "Mmm." "What if it's the opposite?" Amma whispered. "What if you hurt because it feels so good? Like you have a tingling, like someone left a switch on in your body. And nothing can turn the switch off except hurting? What does that mean?" --
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Gillian Flynn |
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We were the first human beings who would never see anything for the first time. We stare at the wonders of the world, dull-eyed, underwhelmed. Mona Lisa, the Pyramids, the Empire State Building. Jungle animals on attack, ancient icebergs collapsing, volcanoes erupting. I can't recall a single amazing thing I have seen firsthand that I didn't immediately reference to a movie or TV show. A fucking commercial. You know the awful singsong of th..
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She had an invisible friend, a giant stuffed bear she called Ben. What kind of kid has an imaginary friend that's a stuffed animal? She collected hair ribbons and arranged them in alphabetical order by color name. She was the kind of girl who exploited her cuteness with such joy you couldn't begrudge her.
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Gillian Flynn |
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He was a good man," she said, dullness with an obligatory injection of empathy. "No, he wasn't," I said, and she laughed like she clearly hadn't in a month."
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Gillian Flynn |
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stomach didn't hurt the way it did with my wife--the constant dread of returning to my own home, where I wasn't welcome.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The stumpy columns holding up the carport had been spray painted red, four in a row, reading: "Stop the Democrats, Stop the Democrats, Stop the Democrats," then, randomly, "I like Louie."
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Gillian Flynn |
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I PUT ON a skirt and blouse for the meeting, feeling dwarfy, my grown-up, big-girl clothes never quite fitting. I'm barely five foot--four foot, ten inches in truth, but I round up. Sue me. I'm thirty-one, but people tend to talk to me in singsong, like they want to give me fingerpaints.
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Gillian Flynn |
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He was one of those guys who'd pronounce I'm a hugger as he came at you, neglecting to ask if the feeling was mutual.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Sometimes if you let people do things to you, you're really doing it to them," Amma said, pulling another Blow Pop from her pocket."
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Gillian Flynn |
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I feel very sad about those girls," I said, but it sounded artificial, like a beauty contestant pledging world peace. I did feel sad, but articulating it seemed cheap to me."
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Gillian Flynn |
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The day of Amma's arrest, the day it finally, completely unraveled, Curry and Eileen parked themselves on my couch, like concerned salt and pepper shakers.
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Gillian Flynn |
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twice-removed somethings and whom I only mildly terrorized.
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Gillian Flynn |
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She followed obligingly, and I kept waiting for those knicks at my heels.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I was boozing too much, but never to the point of drunkenness, I reasoned with myself. I needed just a nip. I've always been partial to the image of liquor as lubrication--a layer of protection from all the sharp thoughts in your head.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Yes, you need your evidence. I hope I have enough poison left in me.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The kind of house that is immediately familiar: a generically grand, unchallenging, new, new, new house that my wife would--and did--detest.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It's probably the reason I'm a second-rate journalist. One of them, at least.
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Gillian Flynn |
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My demons aren't remotely tackled, they're just mildly concussed.
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Gillian Flynn |
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My mother breezed in, smelling like bright blue water. She looked more comfortable in the Nash house than Mrs. Nash did. It was a natural gift for Adora, making other women feel incidental.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I appreciate a straightforward apology the way a tone-deaf person enjoys a fine piece of music. I can't do it, but I can applaud it in others.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I stopped loving you." "Why?" "You stopped loving me. We're a sick, fucking toxic Mobius strip, Amy. We weren't ourselves when we fell in love, and when we became ourselves--surprise!--we were poison."
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Gillian Flynn |
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Eu gosto do inverno pois escurece cedo e isso significa que o dia acabou. Gosto de riscar os dias no calendario - 151 dias riscados e nao aconteceu nada verdadeiramente horrivel. 152 e o mundo nao desabou. 153 e nao destrui ninguem. 154 e ninguem me odeia verdadeiramente. As vezes penso que nunca me sentirei segura ate conseguir contar os meus ultimos dias numa mao. Mais tres dias para ultrapassar ate nao ter de me preocupar mais com a vid..
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Gillian Flynn |
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I just want you to be happy, Amy. How many times did he say that and I took it to mean: I just want you to be happy, Amy, because that's less work for me.
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Gillian Flynn |
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But everyone buys bulk because--unlike Manhattanites--they all have space to store twenty-four jars of sweet pickles. And--unlike Manhattanites--they all have uses for twenty-four jars of sweet pickles.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I've got to get him out of my head--he still steps on my lines from a hundred miles away.)
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Gillian Flynn |
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For so many years, my husband has lauded the emotional solidity of midwesterners: stoic, humble, without affectation! But these aren't the kinds of people who provide good memoir material.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I sometimes wonder if that is at the root of his distaste for me: He's let me see his shortcomings, and he hates me for knowing them.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The bartender was another old, gray-haired fat guy. It seemed like a joke, how much all these dudes looked alike, like living was so hard it just erased your features, rubbed out anything distinctive.
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Gillian Flynn |