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I really hope you like this," he says again, and flings open the door. It's a glass room, a greenhouse, I realize. Within are tulips, hundreds, of all colors. Tulips bloom in the middle of July in Desi's lake house. In their own special room for a very special girl. "I know tulips are your favorite, but the season is so short," Desi said. "So I fixed that for you. They'll bloom year-round."
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She stared at me and I could tell what she was thinking: You are a gameplayer. You are a sociopath. You are a killer.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The rug says: All Are Friends Who Enter Here. It is from Costco. I have learned about bulk shopping in my four weeks as a Mississippi River resident. Republicans go to Sam's Club, Democrats go to Costco. But everyone buys bulk because--unlike Manhattanites--they all have space to store twenty-four jars of sweet pickles.
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I know women whose entire personas are woven from a benign mediocrity. Their lives are a list of shortcomings: the unappreciative boyfriend, the extra ten pounds, the dismissive boss, the conniving sister, the straying husband.
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Gillian Flynn |
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You are not dating a woman, you are dating a woman who has watched too many movies written by socially awkward men who'd like to believe that this kind of woman exists and might kiss them.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I went into Andie's bathroom, took a piss, looked at myself in the mirror, and made myself say it: You are a cheater. You have failed one of the most basic male tests. You are not a good man. And when that didn't bother me, I thought: You're really not a good man.
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Gillian Flynn |
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They have no harsh edges with each other, no spiny conflicts, they ride through life like conjoined jellyfish--expanding and contracting instinctively, filling each other's spaces liquidly. Making it look easy, the soul-mate thing. People say children from broken homes have it hard, but the children of charmed marriages have their own particular challenges.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The world will always need a drink
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Gillian Flynn |
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c3d7a4c
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I love that I am a woman with booby traps
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Gillian Flynn |
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You'd be my pariah, and I'd love you no matter what, and I'd shield you from everything," Desi said."
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Gillian Flynn |
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We are all working from the same dog-eared script. It's a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an endless Automat of characters. And if all of us are play-acting, there can be no such thing as a soul mate, because we don't have genuine souls. It had gotten to the point where it seemed like nothing matters, because I'm not a real person and neither..
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Gillian Flynn |
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it's easy to like pregnant women--they're like ducklings or bunnies or dogs.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I was a callow boy, and then a man, good and bad. Now at last I'm the hero. I am the one to root for in the never-ending war story of our marriage.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I can't talk right now, I'll call you back," I snapped, and hung up. I despised the women who staffed Comfort Hill: unsmiling, uncomforting. Underpaid, gruelingly underpaid, which was probably why they never smiled or comforted. I knew my anger toward them was misdirected--it absolutely infuriated me that my father lingered on while my mom was in the ground."
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Gillian Flynn |
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they ride through life like conjoined jellyfish - expanding and contracting instinctively, filling each other's spaces liquidly.
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Gillian Flynn |
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fc4f6eb
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The secondhand experience is always better. The image is crisper, the view is keener, the camera angle and the soundtrack manipulate my emotions in a way reality can't anymore. I don't know that we are actually human at this point, those of us who are like most of us, who grew up with TV and movies and now the Internet. If we are betrayed, we know the words to say; when a loved one dies, we know the words to say. If we want to play the stud..
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Gillian Flynn |
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There's a difference between really loving someone and loving the idea of her.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The ones who are not soul-mated--the ones who have settled--are even more dismissive of my singleness: It's not that hard to find someone to marry, they say. No relationship is perfect, they say--they, who make do with dutiful sex and gassy bedtime rituals, who settle for TV as conversation, who believe that husbandly capitulation--yes, honey, okay, honey--is the same as concord.
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Gillian Flynn |
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We're on your side, but we need the truth. The only thing that makes you look bad is you holding out on us.
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Gillian Flynn |
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You know, all through the centuries, pathetic men have abused strong women who threaten their masculinity,
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Gillian Flynn |
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That easy, huh?" "You just have to decide to do it and then do it," she said. "Discipline. Follow through. Like anything."
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Gillian Flynn |
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It's every asshole's mantra: I married a psycho bitch. But I got a small, nasty bite of gratification: I really did marry a genuine, bona fide psycho bitch. Nick, meet your wife: the world's foremost mindfucker.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Of course it was.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Probably drove in from Mission Hills, feeling magnanimous about setting foot north of the river.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Me gustan las reglas que tienen sentido, no las reglas sin logica
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Gillian Flynn |
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I don't know that we are actually human at this point, those of us who are like most of us, who grew up with TV and movies and now the Internet. If we are betrayed, we know the words to say; when a loved one dies, we know the words to say. If we want too play the stud or the smart-ass or the fool, we know the words to say. We are all working from the same dog-eared script.
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Gillian Flynn |
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El sol seguia siendo ojo furibundo en el cielo. <>.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Pero no lo dije en voz alta; a menudo no digo las cosas en voz alta, ni siquiera cuando deberia. Contengo y compartimiento hasta un extremo preocupante: en el sotano de mi vientre hay cientos de botellas llenas de ira, desespero, temor, pero uno nunca lo adivinaria al verme.
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Gillian Flynn |
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y se que me voy enfadar: esa sensacion de inhalacion rapida, labios que se tensan, hombros que se alzan; esa sensacion de <>. ?Es que los hombres no conocen esa sensacion? No quieres enfadarte, pero te ves obligada a ello, practicamente. Porque una regla, una buena regla, una regla agradable, esta siendo quebrantada.
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Gillian Flynn |
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La mayoria de las cosas buenas y hermosas son llevadas a cabo por mujeres menospreciadas por la mayoria.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Eramos la primera generacion de seres humanos que jamas podria ver nada por primera vez. Contemplamos las maravillas del mundo con ojos mortecinos, de vuelta de todo. Mona Lisa, las piramides, el Empire State Building. El ataque de un animal selvatico, el colapso de antiquisimos glaciares, las erupciones volcanicas. No consigo recordar ni una sola cosa asombrosa que haya visto en persona que no me recordase de inmediato a una pelicula o a u..
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Gillian Flynn |
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My wife was crazy. I was married to a crazy woman. It's every asshole's mantra: I married a psycho bitch. But I got a small, nasty bite of gratification: I really did marry a genuine, bona fide psycho bitch. Nick, meet your wife: the world's foremost mindfucker. I was not as big an asshole as I'd thought. An asshole, yes, but not on a grandiose scale.
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but facts were facts, and people didn't get to turn Amy into everyone's beloved best friend just because it was emotionally expedient.
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I was told love should be unconditional. That's the rule, everyone says so. But if love has no boundaries, no limits, no conditions, why should anyone try to do the right thing ever? If I know I am loved no matter what, where is the challenge? I am supposed to love Nick despite all his shortcomings. And Nick is supposed to love me despite my quirks. But clearly, neither of us does. It makes me think that everyone is very wrong, that love sh..
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Habia sido un comentario grosero y de mal gusto. Mi cerebro eructaba pensamientos inapropiados en los momentos mas inoportunos. Gases mentales que no conseguia controlar.
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Habian insistido que me quedara..., insistido con la misma urgencia con la que en otros tiempos se habian arrojado sobre el camarero para arrebatarle la cuenta de la cena: la hospitalidad entendida como una feroz fuerza de la naturaleza.
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estaba tan acostumbrado a estar enfadado con ella que casi me parecia algo disfrutable, como mordisquear un padrastro: sabes que deberias parar, que tan poco es tan agradable como te parece, pero no puedes dejar de hacerlo.
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Gillian Flynn |
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But you should never put a fifteen-year-old on a witness stand in a courtroom filled with a bunch of people he knows and expect a lot of tears.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Un monton de gente carece de ese don: el de saber cuando desaparecer de la puta vista. A la gente le encanta hablar y yo nunca he sido muy hablador. Mantengo un monologo interno, pero las palabras a menudo no llegan a mis labios.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Y en aquel momento quise besarla, tal como la habia besado la primera vez: entrechocando los dientes, su cara ladeada frente a la mia, haciendome cosquillas en los brazos con el pelo, un beso humedo y con lengua mientras yo no pensaba en nada mas que en el beso, porque habria sido peligroso pensar en cualquier cosa al margen de lo agradable que resultaba.
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Gillian Flynn |
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El amor hace que quieras ser un hombre mejor, vale, de acuerdo. Peor a lo mejor el amor, el verdadero amor, tambien te autoriza para ser simplemente el hombre que eres.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Se interrumpe, se que esta a punto de mentir. Es la peor sensacion: cuando tienes que esperar y armarte de valor para la mentira.
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Gillian Flynn |
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A veces me pregunto si esa es la raiz de su desprecio por mi: permite que vea sus defectos y me odia por conocerlos.
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Gillian Flynn |
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el amor era como las drogas o el alcohol o el porno: no habia techo. Cada dosis debia ser mas intensa que la anterior para obtener el mismo resultado.
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Gillian Flynn |