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No relationship is perfect, they say--they, who make do with dutiful sex and gassy bedtime rituals, who settle for TV as conversation, who believe that husbandly capitulation--yes, honey, okay, honey--is the same as concord.
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Gillian Flynn |
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They would not be good for marital advice: They are soul mates, remember? They are all peaks, no valleys - a single, infinite burst of marital ecstasy. I can't tell them I am screwing up the one thing I have left: my marriage. They'd somehow write another book, a fictional rebuke in which Amazing Amy celebrated the most fantastic, fulfilling, bump-free little marriage ever . . . because she put her mind to it.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I waited patiently - years - for the pendulum to swing the other way, for men to start reading Jane Austen, learn how to knit, pretend to love cosmos, organize scrapbook parties, and make out with each other while we leer. And then we'd say, Yeah, he's a Cool Guy.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I hated Nick for being surprised when I became me. I hated him for not knowing it had to end, for truly believing he had married this creature, this figment of the imagination of a million masturbatory men, semen-fingered and self-satisfied. He truly seemed astonished when I asked him to listen to me.
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Gillian Flynn |
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He's calling you a Cool Girl to fool you! That's what men do: They try to make it sound like you are the cool girl so you will bow to their wishes. Like a car salesman saying, How much do you want to pay for this beauty? when you didn't agree to buy it yet. That awful phrase men use: 'I mean, I know you wouldn't mind if I . . .' Yes, I do mind. Just say it. Don't lose, you dumb little twat.
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Gillian Flynn |
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You're here covering the murders, bad girl," Jackie continued. "Adora must hate that. Sleeping in her house with your dirty little brain. (...) Course before Adora took it over, we all slept over at Joya's house with our dirty little brains. Same house, different crazy lady running it."
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Gillian Flynn |
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b2741f0
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Yet most of the time that I'm awake, I want to cut. Not small words either. Equivocate. Inarticulate. Duplicitous. At my hospital back in Illinois they would not approve of this craving.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The nurses gave us meds to alleviate our tingling skins. And more meds to soothe our burning brains.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I wasn't entirely sure about Meredith's assessment. Some people would love to have the killer be a guy born and raised in Wind Gap. Someone they went fishing with once, someone they were in Cub Scouts with. Makes a better story.
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Gillian Flynn |
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See, Curry, Detective Willis felt I was holding back some information and so he sulked off, like all men do when they don't get their way with women they've fooled around with.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I had a new persona, not of my choosing. I was Average Dumb Woman Married to Average Shitty Man. He had single-handedly de-amazed Amazing Amy.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I think this experience will make him a better person. Or at least a sorrier one.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I've never understood why that's considered a compliment - that just anyone could like you.
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Gillian Flynn |
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So all these extras, they're just bonus fuck-yous. Amusing booby traps. I love that I am a woman with booby traps.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Tampon commercial, detergent commercial, maxipad commercial, Windex commercial. You'd think all women do is clean and bleed.
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Gillian Flynn |
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There is an unfair responsibility that comes with being an only child - you grow up knowing you aren't allowed to disappoint, you're not even allowed to die. There isn't a replacement toddling around; you're it. It makes you desperate to be flawless, and it also makes you drunk with the power. In such ways are despots made.
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Gillian Flynn |
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e63ab93
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Friends see most of each other's flaws. Spouses see every awful last bit. If she punished a friend of a few months by throwing herself down a flight of stairs, what would she do to a man who was dumb enough to marry her?
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Gillian Flynn |
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Something bad was about to happen. My wife was being clever again.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Good Lord, I hated her, but you had to admire the bitch.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I'd tried all my life to be a decent guy, a man who loved and respected women, a guy without hang-ups. And here I was, thinking nasty thoughts about my twin, about my mother-in-law, about my mistress. I was imagining bashing in my wife's skull.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I remained mostly silent. I was thinking my own questions, the same questions I'd thought for years, the ominous refrain of our marriage: What are you thinking, Amy? How are you feeling? Who are you? What have we done to each other? What will we do?
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Gillian Flynn |
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You were the best man you've ever been with me. And you know it. The only time in your life you've ever liked yourself was pretending to be someone I might like. Without me? You're just your dad.
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Gillian Flynn |
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As a man, I had been my most impressive when I loved her - and I was my next best self when I hated her.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The fact is, my wife is a murderess who is sometimes really fun.
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Gillian Flynn |
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I was told love should be unconditional. That's the rule, everyone says so. But if love has no boundaries, no limits, no conditions, why should anyone try to do the right thing ever? If I know I am loved no matter what, where is the challenge? I am supposed to love Nick despite all his shortcomings. And Nick is supposed to love me despite my quirks. But clearly, neither of us does. It makes me think that everyone is very wrong, that love sh..
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Gillian Flynn |
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He is learning to love me unconditionally, under all my conditions.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Amma and I were sick just like Marian. It had to be made that obvious to me before I finally understood--nearly twenty years too late.
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Gillian Flynn |
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His name is Nick. I love it. It makes him seem nice, and regular, which he is. When he tells me his name, I say, "Now, that's a real name." He brightens and reels off some line: "Nick's the kind of guy you can drink a beer with, the kind of guy who doesn't mind if you puke in his car. Nick!" He"
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Gillian Flynn |
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Okay, so what's your favorite color, your favorite ice cream flavor, and your favorite season? "Blue, coffee, and winter." "Winter. No one likes winter." "It gets dark early, I like that." "Why?" Because that means the day has ended. I like checking days off a calendar--"
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Gillian Flynn |
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Why bother? It's impossible to compete with the dead.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Uma cidade tao sufocante e pequena que todos os dias voce esbarrava em pessoas que odiava. Pessoas que sabiam coisas sobre voce. E o tipo de lugar que deixa marcas.
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Gillian Flynn |
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There are variations to the window dressing, but believe me, he wants Cool Girl, who is basically the girl who likes every fucking thing he likes and doesn't ever complain. (How do you know you're not Cool Girl? Because he says things like: "I like strong women." If he says that to you, he will at some point fuck someone else. Because "I like strong women" is code for "I hate strong women."
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Gillian Flynn |
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It was commonly known that Annabelle absolutely hated her husband's last name--she even crumpled up her nose when she said it. It never occurred to her that she didn't have to take it.
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Gillian Flynn |
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It was true, Ben at age two was an astonishing thing. He'd demand love outright, grab at a breast or an arm, but as soon as he had enough affection, and that came quickly, he'd go completely limp, play dead until you let him go.
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Gillian Flynn |
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That was the worst word Diane could have said. As soon as she said it, Patty knew she'd been dreading just exactly that. That wedge of possibility--misunderstanding--that could turn this into something. A pat on the head might be a caress of the back might be a kiss on the lips might be the roof caving in.
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Gillian Flynn |
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We were the two unlikeliest people to charm information out of someone. Stunted human beings who got awkward every time we tried to express ourselves.
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Gillian Flynn |
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The Day women were the definition of mob mentality. And here they were on a farm with plenty of pitchforks.
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Gillian Flynn |
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Amy could spend an entire evening out fretting that she lef tthe stove on, even though we didn't cook that day. Or was the door locked? Was I sure? She was a worst-case scenarist on a grand scale. Because it was never just that the door was unlocked, it was that the door was unlocked, and men were inside, and they were waiting to rape and kill her. I felt a layer of sweat shimmer to the surface of my skin, because, finally, my wife's fears..
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Gillian Flynn |
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You know what I was about to say? I was about to say I don't know what to believe anymore. And then I thought, that's someone else's line. That's a line from a movie, not something I should be saying, and I wonder for a second, am I in a movie? Can I stop being in this movie? Then I know I can't. But for a second, you think, I'll say something different, and this will all change. But it won't, will it?
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Gillian Flynn |
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2c90b6a
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waited patiently - years - for the pendulum to swing the other way, for men to start reading Jane Austen, learn how to knit, pretend to love cosmos, organize scrapbook parties, and make out with each other while we leer. And then we'd say, Yeah, he's a Cool Guy.
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Gillian Flynn |
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We were the first human beings who would never see anythign for the first time. We stare at the wonders of the world, dull-eyed, underwhelmed.
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Gillian Flynn |
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They always call depression the blues, but I would have been happy to waken to a periwinkle outlook. Depression to me is urine yellow. Washed out, exhausted
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Gillian Flynn |
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see a 3 and an 8. (He said.) And then work
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Gillian Flynn |
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Being the cool girl means I am a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes and anal sex and jams hot dogs and hamburgers into her mouth like she's hosting the world's biggest culinary gang bang while somehow maintaining a size 2. Men actually think this girl exists. Maybe they're fooled because so many women are willing to pretend to be this g..
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Gillian Flynn |