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What does it matter if it's an illness, then?' he decided, at last, 'what does it matter that it's an abnormal tension, if the result itself, if the moment of sensation, recalled and examined in a condition of health, turns out to be the highest degree of harmony and beauty, yields a hitherto unheard-of and undreamed-of sense of completeness, proportion, reconciliation and an ecstatic, prayerful fusion with the highest synthesis of life?
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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I like it when people lie! Lying is man's only privilege over all other organisms. If you lie--you get to the truth! Lying is what makes me a man. Not one truth has ever been reached without first lying fourteen times or so, maybe a hundred and fourteen, and that's honorable in its way; well, but we can't even lie with our own minds!
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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b37f064
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He doesn't love anyone, and maybe he never will.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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bc726de
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hnk 'mwr yS`b shrHh. n hdh lflH ytSwr 'n ltlmydh yujldwn fy lmdrs@, w'n l'mwr yjb 'n tkwn kdhlk. m tlmydh l yujld. flw qlt lh bfZZ@ nn l nujld fy lmdrs@ lm fhm shyy' wl'Hznh dhlk
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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c217668
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Let us become servants in order to be leaders.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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f874aa2
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I, for instance, was triumphant over everyone; everyone, of course, was in dust and ashes, and was forced spontaneously to recognise my superiority, and I forgave them all. I was a poet and a grand gentleman, I fell in love; I came in for countless millions and immediately devoted them to humanity, and at the same time I confessed before all the people my shameful deeds, which, of course, were not merely shameful, but had in them much that ..
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loneliness
fantasies
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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2bd0cc3
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To remember, for instance, that here just a year ago, just at this time, at this hour, on this pavement, I wandered just as lonely, just as dejected as to-day. And one remembers that then one's dreams were sad, and though the past was no better one feels as though it had somehow been better, and that life was more peaceful, that one was free from the black thoughts that haunt one now; that one was free from the gnawing of conscience -- the..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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0e60048
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I invented adventures for myself and made up a life, so as at least to live in some way.
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loneliness
life
invention
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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aec4e2d
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In every man's memories there are such things as he will reveal not to everyone, but perhaps only to friends. There are also such as he will reveal not even to friends, but only to himself, and that in secret. Then, finally, there are such as a man is afraid to reveal even to himself, and every decent man will have accumulated quite a few things of this sort.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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4ab0c27
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The dreamer--if you want an exact definition--is not a human being, but a creature of an intermediate sort. For the most part he settles in some inaccessible corner, as though hiding from the light of day; once he slips into his corner, he grows to it like a snail, or, anyway, he is in that respect very much like that remarkable creature, which is an animal and a house both at once, and is called a tortoise.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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cdc787c
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And that we are all responsible to all for all, apart from our own sins, you were quite right in thinking that, and it is wonderful how you could comprehend it in all its significance at once. And in very truth, so soon as men understand that, the Kingdom of Heaven will be for them not a dream, but a living reality.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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43ebe71
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Here is the world to which I am condemned, in which, despite myself, I must somehow live.' I said.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Towards the end of November, during a thaw, at nine o'clock one morning, a train on the Warsaw and Petersburg railway was approaching the latter city at full speed. The morning was so damp and misty that it was only with great difficulty that the day succeeded in breaking; and it was impossible to distinguish anything more than a few yards away from the carriage windows.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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73a562b
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Now life is given in exchange for pain and fear, and that's the basis of the whole deception. Now man is still not what he should be. There will e a new man, happy and proud. Whoever doesn't care whether he lives or doesn't live, he himself will be God. And that other God will no longer be.'
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suicide
death
god
russian-lit
fyodor-dostoyevsky
russian-literature
dostoyevsky
russian
demons
russia
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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n tlk lHy@ lty t`lwna mn sh'nh kntu s'nhyh bTlq@ musdWs, lkn Hulmy, Hulmy 'n fqd Hamal lyW Hy@an jdyd@, `Zym@, mtjdWd@, wqwyW@!
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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3177cf8
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Oh, how awful is truth on earth! That exquisite creature, that gentle spirit, that heaven - she was a tyrant, she was the insufferable tyrant and torture of my soul! I should be unfair to myself if I didn't say so! You imagine I didn't love her? Who can say that I did not love her! Do you see, it was a case of irony, the malignant irony of fate and nature! We were under a curse, the life of men in general is under a curse! (mine in particul..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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8a1a15a
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We sometimes choose absolute nonsense because in our foolishness we see in that nonsense the easiest means for attaining a supposed advantage.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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1bb78cc
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There are bookish dreams here, sir, there is a heart chafed by theories;
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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all men are divided into 'ordinary' and 'extraordinary.' Ordinary men have to live in submission, have no right to transgress the law, because, don't you see, they are ordinary. But extraordinary men have a right to commit any crime and to transgress the law in any way, just because they are extraordinary.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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But of course that is because I do not respect myself. Can a man of perception respect himself at all? Come, can a man who attempts to find enjoyment in the very feeling of his own degradation possibly have a spark of respect for himself?
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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but it is in despair that the most burning pleasures occur, especially when one is all too highly conscious of the hopelessness of one's position.
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hopelessness
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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79ac4d4
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It wasn't you I was bowing to, but the whole of human suffering.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Doni te dini me te vertete se kush jam? - Po, kete dua te di. - Ne kuptimin e mirefillte te fjales? - Po. Ne kuptimin e mirefillte.. - Dijeni, pra: jam tip me vete! - Tip me vete? - thirri vajza dhe kukurisi hareshem, shpenguar, si ata qe kane kohe qe nuk kane qeshur me gjithe shpirt. - Qenkeni i lezetshem! Ulemi ne kete stolin ketu? Nuk kalon kush ne kete vend, s'na degjon njeri. Pa he, tregoni tani per veten. Se, sado qe thoni se nuk keni..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Quiero ver con mis propios ojos a la cierva durmiendo junto al leon, a la victima besando a su verdugo. Sobre este deseo reposan todas las religiones, y yo tengo fe. Quiero estar presente cuando todos se enteren del porque de las cosas. ?Pero que papel tienen en todo esto los ninos? No puedo resolver esta cuestion. Todos han de contribuir con su sufrimiento a la armonia eterna, ?pero por que han de participar en ello los ninos? No se compre..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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And I proclaim that Shakespeare and Raphael are higher than the emancipation of the serfs, higher than nationality, higher than socialism, higher than the younger generation, higher than chemistry, higher than almost all mankind, for they are already the fruit, the real fruit of all mankind, and maybe the highest fruit there ever may be! A form of beauty already achieved, without the achievement of which I might not even consent to live...
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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00d98f8
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And even if we are occupied by most important things, if we attain to honour, or fall into great misfortune -- still let us remember how good it was once here, when we were all together, united by a good and kind feeling which made us...better perhaps than we are.
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remembrance
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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8938d06
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n Hb lbn 'bh ySbH skhf bTl Hyn l yswGh khlq l'b ! , n mthl hdh lHb l ymkn 'n yqblh l`ql , m kn llHb 'n yqwm `l~ l`dm ! l'n llh wHdh ystTy` 'n ykhlq mn `dm , n lrswl bwls ldhy kn qlbh yt'jj Hb qd ktb yqwl "w'ntm 'yh lab l tGyZw 'wldkm" nny 'byH lnfsy 'n stshhd bhdhh layt lmqds@ l l'nny 'fkr fy mwkly fHsb , wnm 'n stshhd bh mtwjh l~ jmy` lab , mn ldhy whb ly Hq 'n '`Zhm bm yq` `l~ `tqhm mn wjb ? l 'Hd ! wlknny 'ndyhm bSfty nsn mwTn , n qmtn `..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Children can be told anything--anything. I've always been struck by seeing how little grown-up people understand children, how little parents even understand their own children. Nothing should be concealed from children on the pretext that they are little and that it is too early for them to understand. What a miserable and unfortunate idea! And how readily the children detect that their fathers consider them too little to understand anythi..
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child-rearing
children
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wthm@ shy' akhr Zl y`dhbny, whw hdh blDbT : n m mn 'Hdin kn yshbhny, wm shbht 'n 'Hdan
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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n 'qw~ lldht lt'tyn fy Hl@ ly's tHdydan , khS@ dh sh`rn 'n lm'zq ldhy wq`n fyh, lmhrb mnh
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Or perhaps it is because it is so NECESSARY for you to win. It is like a drowning man catching at a straw. You yourself will agree that, unless he were drowning he would not mistake a straw for the trunk of a tree.
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win
dying
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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5f87e46
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I was laughed at by everyone upon every occasion. But no one knew or guessed that if there was a man on this earth who knew better than anyone how ridiculous I was, that man was myself, and that was the thing that I found most exasperating of all, that they did not know it.
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ridiculous-man
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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d9fed06
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Oh, tell me, who first declared, who first proclaimed that man only does nasty things because he does not know his own real interests; and that if he were enlightened, if his eyes were opened to his real normal interests, man would at once cease to do nasty things, would at once become good and noble because, being enlightened and understanding his real advantage, he would see his own advantage in the good and nothing else... . Oh, the babe..
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liberation
reticence
privacy
innocence
self-interest
shame
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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3530140
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Finally: I'm bored, and I constantly do nothing. And writing things down really seems like work. They say work makes a man good and honest. Well, here's a chance, at least.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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And I fancy, besides, that we seem like such different people ... through various circumstances, that we cannot perhaps have many points in common. But yet I don't believe in that last idea myself, for it often only seems that there are no points in common, when there really are some ... it's just laziness that makes people classify themselves according to appearances, and fail to find anything in common.... But perhaps I am boring you? You..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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All this time we sat without speaking. I was considering how to begin. It was twilight in the room, a black storm-cloud was coming over the sky, and there came again a rumble of thunder in the distance.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Listen," she said taking my hand. "Tell me: you wouldn't have behaved like this, would you? You would not have abandoned a girl who had come to you of herself, you would not have thrown into her face a shameless taunt at her weak foolish heart? You would have taken care of her? You would have realized that she was alone, that she did not know how to look after herself, that she could not guard herself from loving you, that it was not her fa..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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fnk lm tkhjl mndh qlyl 'n t`trf bjwnbk lsyy'@ wHt~ `ywbk lmDHk@. f'y lns ymlk hdhh ljr'@ lywm?. l 'Hd ymlkh wl 'Hd ysh`r blHj@ l~ 'n yHkm `l~ nfsh .. Hkman mwDw`yWan.
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fl ttrdd dhn fy 'n ttmyz `n jmhr@ lns wlw 'msyt wHydan mn nw`k ..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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lk'n mshkl@ lnfs lnsny@, lk'n lmSyr ldhy yntZrn fy lHy@ lakhr@, 'SbHt Gryb@ `n `qwlhm, whm qd nsw wdfnw hdh lnw` mn lhtmmt wltsw'lt mndh zmn Twyl..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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There are people who feel deeply but are somehow beaten down. Their buffoonery is something like a spiteful irony against those to whom they dare not speak the truth directly because of a long-standing, humiliating timidity before them. Believe me, Krasotkin, such buffoonery is sometimes extremely tragic.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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Oh, of course, there is another meaning, another interesting interpretation of the word 'father,' which insists that my father, though a monster, though a villain to his children, is still my father simply because he begot me. But this meaning is, so to speak, a mystical one, which I do not understand with my reason, but can only accept by faith, or, more precisely, , like many other things that I do not understand, but that religion nonet..
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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There exists no greater or more painful anxiety for a man who has freed himself from all religious bias, than how he shall soonest find a new object or idea to worship.
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |
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c9f0f1c
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in the end she felt pity for me, for the lost man. And when a girl's heart is moved to pity, that is, of course, most dangerous for her. She's sure to want to "save" him then, to bring him to reason, to resurrect him, to call him to nobler aims, to regenerate him into a new life and new activity. Well, everyone knows what can be dreamt up in that vein. I saw at once that the bird was flying into my net on its own."
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self-sacrifice
pity
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Fyodor Dostoyevsky |