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3661421
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When I took the pills, I wanted to kill someone I hated. I didn't know that other Veronikas existed inside me, Veronikas that I could love.
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decide
die
existence
hate
hospital
insane
kill
love
menthal
other
pill
suicidal
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Paulo Coelho |
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01bf7ed
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He did not care what the end would be, and in his lucid moments overvalued his indifference. The danger, when not seen, has the imperfect vagueness of human thought. The fear grows shadowy; and Imagination, the enemy of men, the father of all terrors, unstimulated, sinks to rest in the dullness of exhausted emotion.
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apathy
baggage
burden
danger-to-self
depression
depressive
depressive-thinking
dread
emotional-pain
emotional-plague
guilt
indifferent
look-for-hope
look-for-jesus
sad
sick
suicidal
suicide
why-the-world-needs-jesus
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Joseph Conrad |
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28af5f2
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I was now, all the time, unutterably tired as if simply keeping alive was a terrible effort.
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depressed
iris-murdoch
suicidal
tired
world-weary
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Iris Murdoch |
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ab55de7
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I have nobody in the world. I'll kill myself. That's best. Everyone will say, It's for the best that she killed herself, she's better off dead . . . I hate myself so much I could spend hours and hours just screaming with hatred and with the pain of it, oh the pain of it . . .
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depression
iris-murdoch
self-hatred
self-loathing
suicidal
the-black-prince
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Iris Murdoch |
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b9a97cb
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"Sometimes I felt I would die by wishing it when I went to sleep but I always woke up again and found I was still there. Every morning finding I'm still me, that's hell." "Well, get out of hell then! The gate's open and I'm holding it!" "I can't. I'm hell, myself."
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depressed
dialogue
hell
iris-murdoch
release
suffering
suicidal
the-sea-the-sea
trapped
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Iris Murdoch |
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995b2e2
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I've been so unhappy for years, so unhappy . . . I don't understand how a human being can be so unhappy all the time and still be alive.
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iris-murdoch
miserable
suffering
suicidal
the-black-prince
unending
unendurable
unhappy
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Iris Murdoch |
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374a2b7
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Let me sleep at last. I've had misery enough in my life. You said there was nowhere to go to. There is death to go to. I've had misery enough in my life.
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desperate
escape
iris-murdoch
misery
sleep
suicidal
the-black-prince
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Iris Murdoch |
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7d9be3a
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I just want to serve and help people and be good to everybody, only it always goes wrong somehow--I think about suicide all the time, every bloody day I want to die and stop this torture, but I go crawling on . . . I'm so Christ-awful bloody lonely I could scream with it for hours on end.
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desperate
iris-murdoch
loneliness
rejected
selfless
suicidal
the-black-prince
unlucky
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Iris Murdoch |
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ce22cd8
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What the cold light showed me was that my situation was simply unlivable. I wanted, with a desire greater than any desire which I had ever conceived could exist without instantly killing its owner by spontaneous combustion, something which I simply could not have.
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hopeless
iris-murdoch
suicidal
the-black-prince
unlivable
unrequited-love
wanting
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Iris Murdoch |
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44ce3d2
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"I do not know what I would do if you left me." For the first time I felt the suggestion of a threat in his voice--or I put it there. "I have been alone so long--I do not think I would be able to live if I had to be alone again."
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giovanni-s-room
james-baldwin
relationship
romantic-relationship
suicidal
threat
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James Baldwin |
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89a7db8
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He felt life more clearly too--even, perhaps especially, when he came to decide that it wasn't worth the candle.
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feelings
julian-barnes
life
sensitive
suicidal
suicide
the-sense-of-an-ending
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Julian Barnes |