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3661421
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When I took the pills, I wanted to kill someone I hated. I didn't know that other Veronikas existed inside me, Veronikas that I could love.
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existence
hate
love
menthal
pill
suicidal
other
decide
hospital
kill
die
insane
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Paulo Coelho |
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01bf7ed
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He did not care what the end would be, and in his lucid moments overvalued his indifference. The danger, when not seen, has the imperfect vagueness of human thought. The fear grows shadowy; and Imagination, the enemy of men, the father of all terrors, unstimulated, sinks to rest in the dullness of exhausted emotion.
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suicide
depression
danger-to-self
depressive
depressive-thinking
indifferent
look-for-hope
look-for-jesus
why-the-world-needs-jesus
baggage
emotional-plague
emotional-pain
apathy
suicidal
dread
burden
sick
guilt
sad
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Joseph Conrad |
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28af5f2
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I was now, all the time, unutterably tired as if simply keeping alive was a terrible effort.
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iris-murdoch
world-weary
suicidal
tired
depressed
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Iris Murdoch |
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ab55de7
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I have nobody in the world. I'll kill myself. That's best. Everyone will say, It's for the best that she killed herself, she's better off dead . . . I hate myself so much I could spend hours and hours just screaming with hatred and with the pain of it, oh the pain of it . . .
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depression
the-black-prince
iris-murdoch
suicidal
self-loathing
self-hatred
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Iris Murdoch |
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b9a97cb
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"Sometimes I felt I would die by wishing it when I went to sleep but I always woke up again and found I was still there. Every morning finding I'm still me, that's hell." "Well, get out of hell then! The gate's open and I'm holding it!" "I can't. I'm hell, myself."
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suffering
the-sea-the-sea
iris-murdoch
dialogue
suicidal
trapped
depressed
release
hell
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Iris Murdoch |
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995b2e2
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I've been so unhappy for years, so unhappy . . . I don't understand how a human being can be so unhappy all the time and still be alive.
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suffering
unending
unendurable
the-black-prince
iris-murdoch
unhappy
suicidal
miserable
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Iris Murdoch |
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374a2b7
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Let me sleep at last. I've had misery enough in my life. You said there was nowhere to go to. There is death to go to. I've had misery enough in my life.
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sleep
escape
desperate
the-black-prince
iris-murdoch
suicidal
misery
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Iris Murdoch |
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7d9be3a
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I just want to serve and help people and be good to everybody, only it always goes wrong somehow--I think about suicide all the time, every bloody day I want to die and stop this torture, but I go crawling on . . . I'm so Christ-awful bloody lonely I could scream with it for hours on end.
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loneliness
desperate
rejected
unlucky
the-black-prince
iris-murdoch
selfless
suicidal
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Iris Murdoch |
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ce22cd8
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What the cold light showed me was that my situation was simply unlivable. I wanted, with a desire greater than any desire which I had ever conceived could exist without instantly killing its owner by spontaneous combustion, something which I simply could not have.
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unlivable
the-black-prince
iris-murdoch
wanting
suicidal
hopeless
unrequited-love
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Iris Murdoch |
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44ce3d2
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"I do not know what I would do if you left me." For the first time I felt the suggestion of a threat in his voice--or I put it there. "I have been alone so long--I do not think I would be able to live if I had to be alone again."
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relationship
romantic-relationship
giovanni-s-room
james-baldwin
suicidal
threat
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James Baldwin |
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89a7db8
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He felt life more clearly too--even, perhaps especially, when he came to decide that it wasn't worth the candle.
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suicide
feelings
life
suicidal
the-sense-of-an-ending
julian-barnes
sensitive
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Julian Barnes |