OrthJBC - II Corinthians - 12

12:1  It is necessary for me to boast, nothing gained by it, yet I now come to marot and chazonot of Adoneinu.

12:2  I have da'as of a man in Rebbe, Melech HaMoshiach arba esreh shanah before, whether in or out of the guf (body) I do not have da'as, Hashem knows, such a man was snatched up and raptured to th raki'a haShlishi of Shomayim.

12:3  And I have da'as that such a man, whether in or out of the guf (body) I do not have da'as, Hashem knows,

12:4  that he was caught away into Gan-Eden and heard inexpressible dvarim for which bnei Adam to utter there is no heter (permit).

12:5  On behalf of such a one I will boast, but on behalf of myself I will not boast, except in my weaknesses. [II Cor 11:30]

12:6  But if I desire to boast, I will not be a yold (fool) [II Cor 10:8; 11:16] for I will speak HaEmes; but I spare you, lest anyone gives me credit beyond what he sees in me or hears in me.

12:7  Therefore, lest I should be too exalted especially by the excess of my chazonot (revelations, visions), there was given to me a kotz (thorn, splinter) in my basar, a malach of Hasatan, for the purpose of using his fists on me [Iyov 2:6], lest I should be too exalted. [Bamidbar 33:55]

12:8  I davened shalosh p'amim, calling upon Adoneinu that it might depart from me.

12:9  And HaAdon said to me, "My Chesed is ad kahn (sufficient for the purpose, enough) for you, for my ko'ach is perfected in weakness." With lev samei'ach therefore will I boast in my weaknesses that the gevurah of Rebbe, Melech HaMoshiach might be a shelter over me. [Melachim Alef 19:12]

12:10  Wherefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, and tzoros on behalf of Rebbe, Melech HaMoshiach; for whenever I am weak, then the gibbor (strong man) am I! [Php 4:11,13] A SHLIACH OF REBBE, MELECH HAMOSHIACH AND HIS CONCERN FOR THE KEHILLAH HE FOUNDED: ANSWERING OBJECTIONS

12:11  I have been a yold! You forced me. For I ought to be commended by you, for in nothing I was behind the most groise (eminent) shluchim [II Cor 11:5], even if I am nothing.

12:12  Indeed the signs of the Shliach of Moshiach were brought about among you in all savlanut, both by otot and moftim and gevurot. [Rom 15:19]

12:13  For in what have you been short-changed compared to the rest of Moshiach's Kehillot, except that I myself was not a burden on you? [II Cor 11:9] Do pardon me this slight!

12:14  Hinei, this is the pa'am shlishit I am ready to come to you [II Cor 13:1], and I will not be a burden; for I seek not yours but you, for yeladim ought not to lay up for their horim (parents), but horim for their yeladim. [Mishle 19:14]

12:15  But with simcha I will expend and be utterly expended for the nefashot (souls) [Php 2:17]. If more abundantly I have ahavah for you, are you to have less ahavah for me?

12:16  But let the matter of my being a burden on you be as it may, some say, "Crafty jack that I am, I took you by ormah (cunning)" [Bereshis 3:1]

12:17  Now I didn't take advantage of any of you through anyone I sent to you, did I?

12:18  I urged Titos to go, and I sent with him the Ach b'Moshiach; [II Cor 8:6, 16-18] Titos didn't take advantage of you, did he? Did we not walk our derech by the same Ruach Hakodesh? We did not march out of step, did Titos and I? THE SHLIACH OF REBBE, MELECH HAMOSHIACH AND THE KEHILLAH

12:19  All along have you been thinking that we are making a hitstaddekut (defense) before you? No, before Hashem in Rebbe, Melech HaMoshiach we speak! Everything we do, Chaverim, is for the sake of your upbuilding and edification!

12:20  For I fear lest efsher (perhaps) when I come I may not find you as I wish [II Cor. 2:1-4] and that you may not find me as you wish; I fear lest efsher there be merivah, kinah, ka'as, machalokot, lashon hora, conceit, commotions;

12:21  lest when I come again Hashem Elohai may make me anav (humble) before you, and I should have agmat nefesh over many of the ones who committed averos before [II Cor 13:2], and have not made teshuva from the tumah (uncleanness) and zenut (fornication) and debauchery which they practiced.